tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81896562024-03-07T04:51:00.039-05:00High/LowDaily goings on in my consistantly metamorphasizing life.. trying to figure life out.. as it throws me around a bit. Enjoy!<br><br>
"I have learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but they will never forget how you made them feel." - Maya Angelouthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.comBlogger503125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-79176210459876899962009-03-03T16:44:00.002-05:002009-03-03T16:49:21.366-05:00THE END OF AN ERA!!!!Hi Everyone!!!<br /><br />Well Well Well... today is the day I've been waiting for for a <strong>LONG</strong> time.. The day when I will be able to blog off of my OWN website!!! My best friend Kyra has been busy updating my site...and allowing me the opportunity to keep everying "in house"... selling my cards.. rambling on about my life.. all in one cosy spot... I am very happy to see this day come.. Proud.. of Kyra and of the progress we've made..<br /><br />So Come.. join me.. 2009 is looking to be one blessing after another.... I am truly one lucky woman!!!!<br /><br />My first <a href="http://ancora-imparo.net/2009/03/my-first-official-ancora-imparo-highlow-3309/">post</a> ... check it out!!!<br /><br />I still get comments here.. if you feel the need!<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-36368218055479942832009-01-23T15:22:00.002-05:002009-01-23T16:17:22.300-05:00High/Low 1.23.09Hi folks..<br /><br />What's up? Friday.. another cold day... I don't feel like being chipper and happy today... Feel down right blah to tell you the truth... I feel like I need a really need a good cry.. into my soul cry...a cry that lasts a long while.. and leaves me feeling spent..where I then fall into a deep sleep and wake up a while later... feeling refreshed and anew.<br /><br />This week for me has definitely been about Change.. I'll tell ya... Change for the country and Change for me individually... I feel a Shift.. Funny.. I'm reading this rockin book called "The Shift" right now.. (Thanks Auntie) and it's about an energy shift in the way in which we look and deal with our government.. And didn't that totally shift this week... I had an amazing experience on Tuesday at the Inauguration.... blew my mind...<br /><br />There is definitely something Bigger going on here.. again...individually and universally.<br /><br />My wonderful Auntie sends me my Numerology Chart Every year.. This year has never been so RIGHT ON.. As I share with you all..<br /><br /><em>"PERSONAL YEAR 2009 – 9</em><br /><em></em><br /><em>The tide is out in a 9 year, but the harvest is in! This is the year of rewards for all the effort you have made in the past eight years. This is the end, the conclusion of your nine-year cycle, so the seeds you planted in your 1 year are now harvested. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>When the tide goes out, it means that the ending of a cycle is at hand, and the energy of this year is more about letting things go, finishing, and dreaming about the next nine years. It is time to re-vision, dream and envision once again how you would like your life to proceed, to allow things to conclude, and wait, because the beginning that you sense is coming is for next year. This is also a time for healing and dreaming on both a figurative and literal level. Have a massage and pay attention to your dreams. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>On another note, this is a good money year, because efforts of selfless giving and loving are favored and rewarded this year. Of course the reverse can be true as well. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>If you are behaving selfishly and needing to revamp your money picture, with this number of endings, it may be a trying time for money. Do not despair, next near is a 1 year and starting anew is always favored under a 1. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>The 9 year means it is a time for you to forgive and forget. Use this year to complete things and bring things to closure on every level. More than any other year, this is the time to follow your intuition and seek to perfect what was begun eight years before. </em><br /><em></em><br /><em>It is a time for tying everything together, and if you do not take time for finishing things this year, you will most likely find your unfinished business lurking about and needing to be faced again, in nine years."</em><br /><br />Holy Moly.. I don't know if I could have said it better myself! Now (2) ships; 1 relationship and 1 friendship have now ended. It has found me running the gammit of different emotions.. back and forth, round and round like a pendulum.. anger.. abandonment...sadness.. fear... dissapointment..a freeing as well... the feeling of loss of someone no longer being in your life... that once was very important. Their energy is still there.. I can feel them... in my heart.. like the warmth in a bed.. reminder of what was just there.. but knowing that when you look over or put your hand there.. they're no longer there.<br /><br />Another eyeopener for me is this surprise discovery of the importance and unwaivering faith I put in my deepest 'ships' (Relation and Friend). Finding myself taking them down off the pedestal that I have put them on.. admittedly....And deciding to either give them a dusting off to bring back their shine or taking them down all together.. Amazingly 2 doors have closed now and I find other doors are re-opening in my life in the same amount of time... rekindling of old friends...Who knows why? But I'll ride the wave.. buckle my seatbelt as my beloved Auntie says.. and continue to go for the Ride.<br /><br />Only God knows where it will take me next?<br /><br />This week I am also very proud of myself.. I love myself. I love who I am.. I have really grown.. I can feel it... Today I feel quite vulnerable and quiet.. underbelly exposed... But I feel I have went into the frey.. sparred with a Kindred Spirit and came out.. bruised and tender to the touch.. but standing strong that I followed my gut.. I didn't second guess myself.. It felt right. I am proud of myself.. I want to give myself a Gold Star for all the expansion I've seen in myself this year.<br /><br />Have a good weekend.. I will have a quiet one.. as I continue to heal.. and grow stronger as the wound closes up a little bit more every day.<br /><br />Much Love,<br />Kerilyn<br /><br />PS: While I'm feeling a bit melancholy today.. do NOT let me let you think how EXCITED and EXPECTANT I am for all the BEGINNINGS that are coming this year too.. I am SO BLESSED!!!! Whew.. blows my mind!! Yippee! just feeling the dark side of the moon today...thisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-87819566257956289452009-01-17T17:52:00.002-05:002009-01-17T18:35:44.053-05:00High/Low 1.17.09Hi there..<br /><br />Saturday evening.... It is FREEZING!!! This is honestly what I consider HELL to be.. Biting Stinging... a definite slowing of my mental faculties as the ONLY thing I can think about is HOW I am going to get to a much warmer location... and NOW!!!!! UGH just heard tomorrow going to be coldest in DECADES... ICK ICK!!! Just sitting here right now...it's cold in here now... My nose and hands wish they were warmer and I am dreaming of a Lounge chair by a pool somewhere Tropical and SPF 50 and a margarita.... Ahh...<br /><br />I was in DC today... my favorite Secret Haircut/color/Highlight (Don't worry Matthew.. I barely got a trim) and I can tell.. I can FEEL the energy of the City... getting prepared.. Not to mention that I park in the Parking Lot at the National Building Museum, where am proud to have been volunteering for 5 years now... and they are getting ready for the Admirals Ball there.. tents.. trucks.. backup generators....all the barricades lining the Streets.. ..more people walking around than usual already.... you can FEEL it... it's coming!!!! (And Thank God that the weather is supposed to warm up by Tuesday!! AMEN!)<br /><br />So I am kinda glad that this weekend is a low key one.. cause as of 5pm Monday I am going to be ON THE GO!!! After work I find my way to <a href="http://chant4change.com/">Chant for Change</a> for 5 Hours of Chanting/Singing and Communing with others that want to give their energy toward the Inauguration and the Hopeful CHANGE that this country will hopefully go thru!! I'm very excited because one of my favorite Spiritual Singers, <a href="http://jaiuttal.com/main.htm">Jai Uttal</a> will be performing!! THEN I leave there at 11:30pm and go home for like 3 hours of sleep and get up and BE at Kristys house at 3:30AM to BE on the Metro when it opens at 4AM so we can be at the Eastern Market at 5AM and check in... It's going to be a LONG (and MISERABLY COLD) DAY... I plan on working from home on Wednesday so I don't have to worry about putting clothes on or getting up early to take a shower.. so I can just relax and work in my PJ's....<br /><br />I am SO excited to be a part of this experience... I see the Images when Martin Luther King gave his "I have a dream" speech... all the people.. yea I feel like this is going to be comparable... and I can and will be telling my children about being a part of this day..... I WAS THERE... <br /><br />I'm reading this awesome book that my Auntie gave me.. called "The Shift" about how we need change on this earth and a story about how Politics in America need to change... it somewhat parallels what is happening with this future Presidency and Administration.. I find I can't put this book down.. I want to give as much as I can to bring this change about...I have never been more excited or interested in the current state of affairs...<br /><br />Let's not be afraid and FACE THIS.. WE CAN CHANGE THE WORLD..<br /><br />BE THE CHANGE THAT YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD - Dali Lama<br /><br />Much Love!<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-87951720936091463532009-01-13T08:56:00.005-05:002009-01-13T10:00:51.028-05:00High/Low 1.13.09<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi17ScGtZNWiCK94VoF-QUmlQqaMg1VZEAWazKAPi4nKGn2BoIvPK4HsUFi9srcjQRdFwpDtwjTvpba9p-ofUNiq_21UP6HhDWgvdP1l5Wd0k18OlQJX1cYNLWUug4nfM2pEw6Igw/s1600-h/New+Temp+Station+002.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5290790430974207954" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi17ScGtZNWiCK94VoF-QUmlQqaMg1VZEAWazKAPi4nKGn2BoIvPK4HsUFi9srcjQRdFwpDtwjTvpba9p-ofUNiq_21UP6HhDWgvdP1l5Wd0k18OlQJX1cYNLWUug4nfM2pEw6Igw/s320/New+Temp+Station+002.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>Hiety Ho my loverlies!!!<br /><br />How are you? I'm great.. Tuesday... Can you believe it's already the middle of January? Holy Schmoly! It's COLD out!! Frost on the Cars.. ugh.. I know I know.. it's January.. I shouldn't expect anything less.. but ugh.. Me no likey cold!<br /><br />So Exciting news.. if you haven't already heard from me... Out of 80,000 applicants, My girl Kristy and I were picked to be one of the 13,000 Volunteers at the Presidential Inauguration!!! (Check out the picture I took on my Flickr Acct to the Right) We both went to a kickoff meeting of sorts.. It's EXCITING!!! Ok.. seeing my paragraph above.... being on the National Mall in the Middle of January at 5AM in the morning is NOT going to be fun.. but I'm hopeful that the energy of the event will warm me up! I'm sure I'll be doing some jumping of excitement while I help the almost 1.5 MILLION people who are planning on being there that day!!! Despite the cold (I'm planning on my line of attack... TWO winter hats, one being the Red Hats they handed out... Thermals... and I gotta get my good shoes this weekend... BRR!!! Just thinking about the cold makes me a little nervous.. but Meh.. It's worth it to be a part of this Historic event!!! It's going to be something I'll always remember!!!<br /><br />Let's see.. what else... Peter and I have settled on a 2 Week Restaurant and Museum/Art Tour of Italy in September/October!! I'm so excited.. I have a call into a Travel Agent who can hopefully help us out with Agenda.. but i'm going to start to do some research... The Amalfi Coast DEFINITELY... and well.. I'd love to do Tuscany... and Umbria....(Thanks to K!) and well.. we'll see!!! Exciting Stuff going on here in Kerilyns life!!!<br /><br />Ok.. no more big announcements... onto <a href="http://www.blogger.com/%3Ca%20href=">3 things 2 things</a></div><br /><div></div><br /><div><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong></div><div>1. I moved my station (cubicle) over to the Water Side of the Building...(SEE PICTURE) They are taking down my former station, replacing carpet.. and there is a meeting next week they need the space for.. It is SOOOOO nice to be here.. to be staring out the window looking onto the Potomac River.. I took a picture to show you how AWESOME it is!!! How lucky I AM!! (VERY!!!) I hope maybe possibly I can stay on this side of the building..we'll see.</div><div>2. I feel really good today.. like my outfit.. my hair.. just feel so blessed in EVERY area of my life (minus one.. still can't get Pez and Bella worked out.. makes me really upset) I feel like so many amazing things happen to me everyday... and I'm surrounded with amazing people who love and support me.. Sigh.. my cup runneth over!</div><div>3. Someone in my office made these little peanut butter cookies with Reeses Cup in the middle.. OH MY.. I took 2 to have as my afternoon snack!!!</div><div>4. Peter brings me this AMAZING salad for lunch almost everyday.. I LOVE that he remembers... and it's SO yummy!! Oh my!!! </div><div> </div><div></div><div></div><div><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong></div><div>1. Running.. last week I ran 2 miles every day.. so TEN miles! but some of those days I was tired.. last nite I had a great run! Hopefully tonite will be no exception!</div><div>2. Going home and going to bed EARLY! I have been creeping up to 11pm as my bedtime and I need to get up earlier so I can have a nice long Meditation in the morning.</div><div> </div><div></div><div></div><div><strong>2 long term things I am looking forward to:</strong></div><div>1. I think I've decided to go to visit my girl Michelle in Charleston for Memorial Day.. I need to look at flight prices.. I haven't been to Charleston in forever and haven't seen Michelles place since she's moved there.. I am excited!!!</div><div>2. Seeing Matthew for the first time in a LONG time.. not sure when that will be but I am excited about it nonetheless!!!!</div><div> </div><div></div><div></div><div><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong></div><div>My friend Kristy... I am so happy to be doing this Inauguration stuff together.. If it weren't for her suggesting to volunteer.. I would have NEVER even thought of it...!!! Thanks Honeydew!!!</div><div> </div><div></div><div>Ok.. into my day I go... with much to be happy about!</div><div>Much Love!</div><div>Kerilyn</div>thisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-40336213368617057392009-01-08T10:50:00.002-05:002009-01-08T11:45:18.793-05:00High/Low 1.8.09Hiety Ho my lovebugs!!!<br /><br />What's happening??? Can you believe it's already the 8th of January?? Whoa... time FLIES!!! It's almost halfway thru January. amazing. Just 15 minutes ago it was snowing out my window at work.. and yes.. while I like watching it from the window.. you MUST all know by now that driving in the stuff is another story!<br /><br />I feel off today... I had a frustrating run yesterday... with everyone doing the New Years Resolutions... the little gym in my bldg is busy and I had to wait 15 minutes to get the treadmill I run on... Well.. It has thrown me off a bit... frustrates me. By the time I got to run.. I had used the elliptical for a while and well.. i'm rambling but I only ran a mile and half.. pissed me off. Plus it was hotter in the room with the more people so I was sweating hard and feeling really tired. Ugh!!! You KNOW i'm going to sneak out of here early to make sure that doesn't happen tonite.<br /><br />So NOT to focus on my off day.. let's get to the good stuff.. onto <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. Getting together with my best friend Naomi.. we met and had dinner at one of our favorite places.. Outback.. YUM. Good catching up with her and exchanging Christmas Gifts!<br />2. I am wearing my favorite Salmon colored Shirt!! I feel pretty today.. my black pants are getting REALLY big on me.. I know I need to buy a new pair!<br />3. I found this program (Hardware/Software) that I am excited about using for the mailings that I need to mail out by the end of January. Yippee!<br />4. I got my new 2009/2010 pocket calendar all set up and I'm ready to roll for another 2 years worth of fun things to do!!! Amazing that a new calendar would make me so happy but it does!!! My mom got me one with my Name (and future New Name) on it! Yea!<br /><br /><strong>2 things I look forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running.. I'm going to avoid having to wait... ugh. I will run 2 miles today...<br />2. Going home and resting.. catching up on my Tivo Shows in my PJ's. I feel tired.. like I need to rest.<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I am looking forward to:</strong><br />1. <a href="http://chant4change.com/">Chant for Change </a>on the 19th! Sitting there with all these people.. singing/chanting and I'm sure feeling the energy of the Evening!! Can't wait!!!<br />2. The meeting on Sunday (after I volunteer at the <a href="http://nbm.org/">National Building Museum</a>) about Volunteering at the Inauguration! I hope Kristy gets in too.. I feel bad.. she is the one that told me about it.. and I got picked... It's not going to be as fun if I have to do this alone... Fingers crossed!!!!<br />3. <a href="http://thieverycorporation.com/">Thievery Corporation</a> on January 28th with Kristy!!! I am so excited.. I've never seen them live so this will be fun!!! Dancing my butt off I predict!!!<br />4. <a href="http://www.nationalcathedral.org/events/eg090327.shtml">An Evening with Elizabeth Gilbert</a> - the Author of EAT PRAY LOVE!!!! Going with Naomi, Kristy and Janet!!! Yea!!! I LOVE this book and I'm so excited to see her speak in March!!! Yippee!!!!<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />Matthew.. besides the obvious reasons why I love him and miss him and can't wait to see him after almost 2 years.... He's blowing my mind with an offer that is making me speechless. More about this if it comes to fruition.<br /><br />Ok... Tomorrow is Friday.. Thank Goodness!!!<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-6446763813915589142009-01-05T09:35:00.004-05:002009-01-05T12:00:49.837-05:00High/Low 1.5.08Happy New Year my peoples!!!!!<br /><br />How are you? Happy 2009!!!! This is my 501th Post on my High/Low here on Blogger!!! Holy Moly!!! We've (My WVU roomie Lisa) and I have been writing a High/Low since 2001... Is that right Lisa? I think so... Originally I just sent a High/Low email to everyone everyday.. upwards of 70 people everyday.. then the creation of the "blog" via Blogger.. and voila.. here we are.. I've definitely written more than 500 posts including my emails previous to the creation of this means of communication... Hopefully this year... I'll be posting my blog from my own Website... so I can keep it closer to home... What a nice way to start off the New Year.... reflections of where I have been and where I'm going.... very exciting!<br /><br />And speaking of that...the past few days I've had this overwhelming sense of calm.. and comfort... I don't think I've EVER been so excited to ring in a New Year.. and a New Birthday (December 31st Baby.. 34 yrs old! Check out my <a href="http://flickr.com/photos/ancora_imparo/sets/72157612030093030/">Flickr</a> pics of my birthday/New Years Celebration!!!) In EVERY aspect.. I feel like I am EXACTLY where I am supposed to be... in my soul.. it's like an inner knowing... My job, still love what I do and where I do it.. where I live.. (I'm warming up to admitting I live in Arlington vs. my Del Ray Alexandria) I feel SO much more settled in the house with Peter.. set up my little studio/desk area... computer.. inspiration hanging on the wall.. (I'll take a pic and post) and am looking forward to focusing on my cards again.. amazing I haven't worked on my cards in over a YEAR!!! Up to running 2 miles a day.. and am SO proud of myself for that... I am noticing a difference in my body every day... and am therefore investing more time end energy (and money) to looking showing off the fruits of my labor (I'm revealing my inner HOT MAMA!) ...My best friend Matthew is home.. and it's a nice way to go into the new year.. to be able to hear his voice and talk to him whenever I need him... I've missed him SO much the almost 2 years he's been in Iraq... I feel SO blessed.. my friends and family.. wow.. my cup runneth over with amazing people in my corner.. wow.. Solid Gold. And.. planning an amazing event for September 26th.. a reflection of who Peter and I are.. our passions...we have to begin deciding on the fun stuff this year... stuff I wanted to wait to do until the Saga of 2008 was over... So stay tuned... I am excited to see how events play out with each week/month of 2009 progresses....<br /><br />with that said... onto <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. I got some really AMAZING Birthday gifts this year...Some AWESOME Coffee cups with "The Secret" sayings with Boxes of Green Tea and a book on Green Tea from my future Brother and Sister in Law... a Remote Control for my Digital SLR Camera from my best friend Naomi (Can you say AWESOME!!!) My girl Janet gave me an awesome necklace that I can't wait to wear... Slumdog Millionaire Soundtrack from Kristy... a wonderful Candle from Scott... Peter got me a photo album to go with my Camera to start documenting our lives in..(he's so cute!) my sister got me a Sirius Gift Certificate.. SO needed when I get my Sirius put back in my car hopefully tomorrow!!! and my girl <a href="http://flickr.com/photos/ancora_imparo/3158305994/">Davina</a> gave me this AMAZING Ohm Charm for my necklace for my birthday.. I have it on now and I LOVE it!!!! I've been really looking hard for one... and it's EXACTLY what I would have bought for myself.... Truly...Thank You EVERYONE!!!! (I hope I didn't forget anyone.. if so.. I'm sorry)<br />2. I had a really good time with my parents yesterday.. talking about September.. My mom got me a really cute Nightgown for my birthday. And.. I had a bowl of my moms chili while there.. YUM YUM!!!<br />3. I talked to Matthew for 2 hours on Saturday nite... MADE MY DAY!!! First time I <strong>really</strong> talked to him in YEARS. I look forward to much more of that this year!!!<br />4. I bought the Kanye West CD for Peter yesterday.. and I have it on my IPOD.. it's really good!!! Jamming in my seat at work!<br /><br /><strong>2 things I look forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running of course.... Feels SO good!!!<br />2. Relaxing after running... the house is clean.. and that makes me really enjoy being home..<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I'm looking forward to:</strong><br />1. I was picked to be a volunteer at the Presidential Inauguration (HOW EXCITING!!!) Thanks to my girl Kristy... We're going to a meeting to hopefully volunteer together on Sunday!!!!<br />2. Seeing <a href="http://www.thieverycorporation.com/">Thievery Corporation</a> on Wednesday, January 28th with my girl Kristy!!!<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />Everyone in my life.. I am blessed because of you... You have made me who I am.. and I know I say this a lot.. but it's important you know how much I mean it... I love who I am and I wouldn't change a thing... I value and love you all very much... You are a part of me! I am a lucky woman.<br /><br />Ok.. Have a great week!!! Hope you have a good one!!!<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-43895692677086841182008-12-30T15:04:00.004-05:002008-12-31T11:52:15.261-05:00High/Low 12.30.08Hiety Ho....(And a Shout out to my boy Matthew....Happy Now?)<br /><br />I know.. I know... I have not written in a week... Where to start??? hmm... So much to fill you in on... Hmm...Well I started with what I thought was a head cold back on the 18th of December... which turned into full blown flu... drs appt... NOT being able to breathe out my nose... fevers.. Ugh.. God Bless Peter.. I have been a handful and then some... The Dr told me that I really shouldn't be going anywhere for a few days.. this was the day before Christmas eve.. so I was understandably really upset.. (again.. God Bless Peter.. putting up with my 2 yr old little girl crying thinking I was going to have to cancel Christmas plans) But.. I pushed thru it with the help of a slew of medicines and forcing myself to rest..<br /><br />I didn't run in almost a week and half.. Ugh.. I missed it a LOT.... up to TWO MILES NOW!!! Can you believe it... 3 months ago I was trying for a half a mile.. and now.. TWO MILES... Ok so I wanted to be at 3 miles by now but whatever.. At least I'm still running every day and I'm seeing a difference.. That's all that matters to me!!! I will be running a 5K in the Spring.. Mark My Words!!!!<br /><br />Christmas Eve at my sisters house (We're starting a new tradition switching off houses at Christmas time.. Next Year will be at the Russos - thats OUR house!!! Hee Hee! We will try to get the NJ Russos to our house but we'll see... our place is an ok size but all those people... meh.. not sure) I got my New Sirius Radio (Thanks Mom/Dad/Krissy/Steve) to replace the one that was stolen in my car in September.. THANK GOODNESS... I cannot TELL you how much I've missed listening to the Chill Channel on my way to/from work... and Reggae.. 24 hours a day... Heaven!!! Peters going to reinstall it on Friday.. whew! can't wait!!! ANYWAY.. Christmas Eve/Morning was filled with yummy mom foods... and spending time with family.. After Breakfast we got on the road and drove to NJ despite me still not feeling well.. (Damn my clogged head!) We spent a few days in NJ with Peters family... and can I just tell you...<br /><br />I love his family.. It's the long lost Italian family that I've been missing since my grandparents "went home"... A loud and exhuberant and loving family... the Francos from Long Island.. and all the Russos... I had a great time.. ate well.. received some loverly gifts.. and just hung out.. the Day after christmas.. I spent the entire day in my pajamas... the whole family did for the most part.. SO NICE!!! I didnt' really start to truly feel better till Saturday, Dec 27th...I had a great time.. Just makes me so excited for what this next year is to bring!!! We drove home Saturday evening.. and I am really blessed.. Peter and I.. singing Frank Sinatra songs in the car.. What more could you ask for (Peter put a "Singing Star" Award in my stocking - yea yea.. I can sing) I will tell you that knowing our story.... Peter and I are more in love with each other now.. than ever before.. It's just like this amazing feeling... I cannot describe it...<br /><br />Back at work.... still stuffy head but I'm 87% back to snuff.. Yesterday was the "walk through" at the house... in Del Ray... Long story but it ended up just being Kevin and I... and well.. I will say our last meeting was bittersweet..... I handed in the Key.. we made small talk about the house.. and I walked away... waiting for my Security Deposit back in a week or so.. and am DONE!!! What a year.. This has been both the most beautiful and also heart breaking year of my life.. I mean when God changes something.. they don't do it lightly , do they? (yes they) .. I cried on my drive home a bit...not because I am regretful.. but as a releasing.. or closing of a chapter that has brought about much growth.... much pain... along with much joy..... so I can say it.. I'M DONE!!!! DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE!!!!<br /><br />(It needed it's own line)<br /><br />No more house to contend with.. no more excuses.. or wondering what if.... no more begging or loneliness... feeling unworthy... No, I walked out of that house and into a new really exciting chapter... already in process... and with this New Year... 2009 promises to bring about some amazing experiences... I am sure of that!!!<br /><br />Tomorrow is New Years Eve.. and my 34th Birthday... on the itinerary.. I'm leaving work at noon.. grabbing some grub.. and then going to get my feetsies done with my girl Kristy.. then making myself all dolled up for a group of 10 of my friends.. we're going to have dinner and ring in the year at Lias (Peters Restaurant) Peter has to work and I couldn't think of any other place I would watn to be than with my love... Giving him a Kiss to welcome in 2009. What an awesome one it's going to be.. I assure you.<br /><br />So onto my goals... my 2009 Goals... I don't have many but their very important:<br /><br />1. Keep Running. No matter what.. Keep running. I WILL be running a 5K in the Spring.. and then many more after that...<br />2. Get BACK to working on my cards..I can say this past year I have not made a ONE card.. yes.. I said YEAR.. (actually since Thanksgiving 2007) and now that my little studio space is getting all set up.. I'm feeling the energy coming back... It is my goal to get my cards in 2 new shops by June.. maybe more.<br />3. Take a Belly Dancing Class.. Already have one picked out!<br />4. Get back into Group Meditation.... Yoga Studio RIGHT around the corner from me.. and I've already contacted them about Meditation class... Next week or so I'm ON it!!<br />5. Go on a long weekend trip with my boy Matthew..... I have been SO looking to spending some good quality time with him now that he's back from duty in Iraq (get over it Matthew.. I said it)<br />6. Finish up all the planning I have to do for September 26th... I'm glad it's the Fun stuff!!!<br />7. SAVE SAVE SAVE money... I am excited because I feel like this year is going to be my most prosperous... financially... and that will prove useful in September!!!<br />8. *** Take a Digital Photography class - now that I have my nice new Digital SLR Camera.. I want to learn how to use it!!! I am so excited to get out there and take some amazing pics!!!!! Woo hoo!!!<br /><br />So It is now New Years Eve (flash forward from yesterday) and so.. in approximately 12 minutes I will be 34 years old!!! Amazing how much can change in one year!!! I will honestly say that I NEVER expected to be where I am today... but I am so glad I am!!! I can say that I feel more beautiful.. more loved.. and EXACTLY where I am supposed to be.. I have never been this excited to ring in a new year!!!<br /><br /><strong>PS: AWESOME NEWS!!!!! : About 3 weeks ago.. My friend Kristy suggested we try to volunteer to work at the Inauguration of Barack Obama... so she created a group with her friend.. and we filled out the forms.. it said that there are soo many people that sign up to volunteer that it's not guaranteed that I'll get to volunteer.. WELL.... last nite.. my blackberry goes off (BARRRING!) and it's an email saying that I am selected to be a volunteer.. and I get to now take a training class and information so I can Volunteer!!! !!! WAHOO!!! I'm excited to be a part in any way I can.. to participate in this amazing event!!!!! SO COOL!!!! GO BARACK!!!<br /></strong><br />Thank You everyone... for supporting me.. for being there.. for carrying me when I was too upset to walk... for listening and letting me cry.. for celebrating with me... I am a very blessed and lucky woman... and don't think for a SECOND that I don't know that!!!<br /><br />I'm off.. into the Great Blue Yander... to celebrate!!! Go... do the sameth...<br />Happy New Year!!!<br />Much Love<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-31670001088741812282008-12-22T10:39:00.004-05:002008-12-22T11:18:55.481-05:00A movie you HAVE HAVE TO SEE!!!Hi Everyone!!!!<br /><br />OH my gosh.. If you know me you KNOW that I feel SO strongly when I find something that inspires/moves/touches me... oh my gosh...<br /><br />I want you to all run out/log on.. do what you have to do and see this movie...<br /><br /><a href="http://www.sonyclassics.com/angel-a/main.html">Angel-A</a><br /><br />I caught it on Showtime (I think) this weekend..A French Foreign Film... (images of Valentines Day Proposals in Paris made me want to spit (heh heh) but Meh.. get OVER yourself Kerilyn!!! Random Thoughts...don't mind me)<br /><br />I think I'm going to rent ALL of the movies (foreign and domestic) that this Director (Luc Besson) has done... Yippee!!! He moves me.. He did <a href="http://www.sonypictures.com/homevideo/thefifthelement/index.html">The Fifth Element</a> and <a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0095250/">The Big Blue</a> (Some of my ALL TIME FAVORITE MOVIES!!!!)<br /><br />HOLY MOLY!!! I haven't even seen it from the beginning (yet) and I was moved.. (now granted I have a nasty head cold so maybe my emotions are fuzzy cause of that... NAH.. I just LOVED this movie!!!)<br /><br />I'm not going to tell you too much... but It's about EXACTLY what I'm facing.. Loving OURSELVES!!!!! In such a beautiful and artistic way.. (a such a Parisian way...)<br /><br />GO... Check out this movie and let me know what you think!!!!<br /><br />:) Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-38370233789915210622008-12-17T09:38:00.003-05:002008-12-17T10:38:39.045-05:00High/Low 12.17.08Hiety Ho my loverlies!!!<br /><br />How ya doin? I'm groovy.... Wednesday.. how i wish it was Thursday... But hopefully this day will fly by... heh... I want to do a 3 things 2 things AND I want to tell you what my New Years Goals are... (Resolutions are so.... Resolute.. Goals sound much better.. not as Rigid)<br /><br />So let me get to it...<a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. Last nite.. my friends Stephanie, Scott, Sarah, Peter and I met up at this Seafood Restaurant called <a href="http://www.blacksaltrestaurant.com/menu_dinr.html">Black Salt</a> for a christmas dinner.. (Check out Flickr Photos) a few cocktails before hand... and some really yummy Seafood (Their Butterfish Appetizer.. HIGHLY recommended!!!) Good Talks with Good Friends..... that's what this time of year is all about!!! I'm glad that my friends got to spend time with Peter again.. Steph and Scott have met him before.... so it's good to reconnect.<br />2. Since I went to Macys last weekend and bought some new clothes to fit my slightly smaller body.. I have been wearing new clothes every day this week.. It is nice to wear something new...<br />(Side note: There is a really good article that Oprah wrote about gaining weight after losing so much... anyone interested in the psychology of losing a lot of weight and putting it back on... this is a good reference from an emotional point of view.. just saying.)<br />3. Just happy to be so blessed with wonderful friends... and happy that I can see how many things I have to be happy about.<br /><br /><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong><br />1. Getting a lovely Steak and Cheese Pita for lunch today.. YUM!!!<br />2. Running... next week I'm going up to 2 miles a day! Yippee!!!<br />3. Tonite.. I am going home.. doing a load of laundry.. making myself a loverly Pork Chop dinner and catching up on my Tivo Shows.. in my PJ's.. and trying to go to bed early. I've been a busy bee this week and I'm tuckered out!<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I am looking forward to:</strong><br />1. I CANT WAIT to see Matthew again.. to get and give a BIG HUG.. to see his face.. and hear his voice in person... Don't know when.. but hopefully soon!!!<br />2. Having Sirius in my car again.. I have been going thru withdrawl since September!!! Miss listening to the Reggae channel and CHILL channel.. Sigh.. :(<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />My friend Sarah.. I don't know her super well.. but she has such a GREAT positive attitude... I get this girly tee hee inside when I hear her talk about how great life works out.. (talking to her about the events of this past year) and how happy she is for me.. It just makes me that much happier.. and grateful.. I really hope that I get to know her better in 2009 before she leaves for UCLA in June....<br /><br />I'll have to do my New Years Goals tomorrow... not feeling it now.. typing them out.<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-34537777303356609422008-12-16T15:25:00.003-05:002008-12-16T16:04:34.228-05:00High/Low 12.16.08<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhyYnFkhnFHMSiYgNm1atQ9V2C1sSO8E1hriMgeW-FHqCi_8kA8nwhbcB97iL-M5bVbR3QG9J-axsJRQ9UK9mPiJWOYA26HaV81a-PR8nPz41UfOglmiiWQsqX2kfIiuvlN4YBbVA/s1600-h/kerilyn+081215.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5280487395836674226" style="FLOAT: right; MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 246px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 195px" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhyYnFkhnFHMSiYgNm1atQ9V2C1sSO8E1hriMgeW-FHqCi_8kA8nwhbcB97iL-M5bVbR3QG9J-axsJRQ9UK9mPiJWOYA26HaV81a-PR8nPz41UfOglmiiWQsqX2kfIiuvlN4YBbVA/s400/kerilyn+081215.JPG" border="0" /></a> Hi there folksies..<br /><br />Here's me... on a Monday afternoon.. Peter text me a picture of him saying... "Show me how happy you are?" So I sent him this picture of me... I thought I'd share with you.... for obvious reasons.. This is me in my station... And I love my job.. location.. people...all of the above so it's not too hard to show how happy I am... I loved my new outfit that day.. catch a glimpse of the bright purple dress I was wearing.. I looked good too... tee hee..<br /><br />Yesterday it was warm out.. mid 60's.. unusual.. We had a little shin dig at our neighborhood.. Eggnog.. Cider... Booze... Hot Chocolate... PLENTY of sugar treats.. cookies.. etc... Roasting Chestnuts on an open fire.. (no really we did that) Santa (aka Peter in a wig and Beard) My girl Kristy came.... chilled with us a while.. Unfortunately the little party had a MUCH bigger potential than what actually manifested.. not many people were there and it didn't have the energy i was hoping for... oh well.. there's always next year! Today it's back down to the 30's..BRR cold... Ugh!<br /><br />anyway... onto <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a>:<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. Hot Pho on a cold and yucky Day...My favorite Salesperson Bob and I just got back from Pho after going to a job site to do some field verifications.. SO yummy in the tummy on this dreary kinda day..<br />2. Seeing the Christmas Tree lit up in the front window .. as I drive down the street... The lights going up the stairs.. our stockings.. playing the Christmas channel on Sirius... Just that sense of Spirit... I love it!!! Seeing my kitty girl sitting underneath the tree. Precious.<br />3. At nite.. when Peter and I go to sleep.. we always intertwine our feet together so they touch each other.. it's such a nice feeling when going to sleep.<br /><br /><strong>2 things that I look forward to today:</strong><br />1. Honestly going to sleep tonite.. I'm tired... and feel emotional today... Not necessarily 100% sociable today.<br />2. I am looking forward to dinner with Stephanie, Scott and Sarah tonite with Peter. We're going to <a href="http://www.blacksaltrestaurant.com/">Black Salt</a> I am hoping they have Lobster Bisque that I keep hearing is good there!<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I look forward to:</strong><br />1. Saturday.. waking up with my honey... (he's off Saturdays) and then going to get my hair done at Aveda at Noonish.. then taking my honey to his favorite <a href="http://fogodechao.com/locations/washingtonDC.htm">Fogo De Chao</a> (A Brazilian Steakhouse) and then I'm taking him to go see <a href="http://www.jimbrickman.com/tabid/36/Default.aspx">Jim Brickman</a> - Romantic Evening I hope!!!<br />2. Sunday just chilling out... Waking up.. Sunday Morning Edition.. Newspaper.. Maybe finish up my christmas shopping.... My sister is probably going to come and keep me company.<br />3. Finishing setting up the bedroom... Putting all my clothes away in my dresser that i've missed so much the past 5 months.. and getting the room back in some semblance of a shape!<br /><br /><strong>1 person that I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />My girlfriend Kristy.. I met her on a whim.. on Craigslist.. and we have become really good friends.... I am really grateful she is in my life.. We have intertwined our lives and our stories together.. I am very lucky..<br /><br />Also.. Peter.. I know that I have been a handful lately.. I think the actual settling in that the stuff with the house is over.. and I have nothing left to worry about.. Shifting gears takes a moment of adjustment.. Starting with a day of doing nothing...<br /><br />Ok.. yawn.. I'm ready for the end of the day.<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-85738968091875189202008-12-10T10:43:00.002-05:002008-12-10T11:03:11.587-05:00High/Low 12.10.08Morning my Kindred Spirits...<br /><br />Ok... I have very strange news... I found another <a href="http://www.facebook.com/inbox/?ref=mb#/profile.php?id=1375350003">Kerilyn Fox</a> on Facebook.. She's only 18 years old.. but It's CREEPING me out!!! Eww.. knowing someone out there has my exact name.. is creepy. I actually emailed her.. and she feels the same way... (I feel kinda better that I existed first? Is that weird to say?)<br /><br />anyway.. I had to get that out... eww.<br /><br />OK.. It's Wednesday... Feeling good today... It's warmer than usual outside.. mid-60's today .. which is FINE with me! I can't find my favorite red scarf and I'm glad I didn't need it today!<br /><br />onto <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. Reading this <a href="http://www.dailyom.com/articles/2008/16342.html">Daily Om</a> today. It made me reconnect with the smaller... little blessings I have. instead of trying to find the big ones everyday.. There are so many smaller blessings that I think I have been overlooking.<br />2. Good Cup of Coffee this morning.<br />3. Sounds so silly saying this...but knowing Pez has a fresh litter box! Taking care of my kitty girl!<br /><br /><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong><br />1. Going to eat Lunch with my girl Bianca.. I haven't seen her in a few months so it'll be good to catch up! AND... we're going to eat Pho.. YUM!<br />2. Running tonite.. I'm going to up my distance to a mile and 3/4. Wish me Luck!<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I am looking forward to:</strong><br />1. Spending a few days up in NJ with Peters family.... Driving up Christmas afternoon...I love his family... and I'm excited to be with them this Christmas!<br />2. This Sunday... after I am DONE with the final move at the house on Saturday.. reorganizing my clothes into my dresser.. and REALLY settling in to the house just that final bit more. I'm excited to hang my AWESOME Banana Leaf Mirror in the Dining Room.. and to have my coffee table and rug back with me....that is going to go SO well with the Red Sofa!! It'll be nice to have my things in our space more...<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />The fact when I REALLY look back on my life the past few years.. EVERYTHING has worked out EXACTLY as it should have.... True it hasn't been without it's painful moments.. but there has also been a lot of amazingly beautiful and wonderful moments too.. Filled with laughter.. love and learning... I honestly wouldn't be where I am today if I had done anything differently... It just goes to prove that I should ALWAYS trust myself.. NOT to doubt myself... no matter what.. That NOTHING I do is wrong.. just takes me to the next step that is next on my journey. Doesn't take away the pain.. tears.. and moments of fear... but that's why we're here to face and learn from them.. so in a Bigger Picture.. it makes it all worth it.<br /><br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-85928466551234191932008-12-09T14:04:00.002-05:002008-12-09T15:46:28.619-05:00High/Low 12.9.08Hiety Ho my loverlies!<br /><br />What's up? I'm feeling a little blah today.. Nothing exciting going on.. trying to figure out christmas gifts ($).. and cleaning the house..just day in and day out stuff.. Funny.. I tend to feel this way in the middle of the week. Oh well.. Got some awesome things to share so with that said....<br /><br />onto <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy: (Going in Sequential Order)</strong><br />1. Friday nite I had a GREAT nite.. I had a good run.. then I went to get my eyebrows waxed... then I had a GREAT GREAT Therapy Session! It was going so well.. we lost track of time and I ended up being there 2 hours! Then.. I came home.. and Peter and I went to our favorite Mexican Place.. and Had a few Margaritas and a lite dinner.. We had a great time together...<br />2. Then... <strong>(DRUMROLL PLEASE!!!) </strong>Peter said he couldn't wait for christmas to give me my present... that it's been driving him crazy!!! So.. He gave it to me.... He got me a <a href="http://www.nikonusa.com/Find-Your-Nikon/ProductDetail.page?pid=25420">Nikon D40</a> Digital SLR Camera!!! Holy MOLY!!!! I was and still am SO surprised!!! I mean I love to take pictures...but I NEVER ever expected an SLR!!! Peter told me he remembers me telling him years ago that I wanted one... Wow.....I am one lucky woman!! Wouldn't you agree???? Now I need to learn how to use the camera! Just for those that don't know.. a Digital SLR is a Manual.. Digital Camera.. Having to use the Lense..etc.. Shutter Speed.. F Stop..etc.. Now I need to really sink my teeth into learning how to excel at it!<br />3. Last Saturday, Peter and I put up our first Real Christmas Tree together at our house!!!! Yippee!! I got Stockings for the Kitties.. and put them on the railing going up the stairs.. and Hung Cards in the Doorway....Candles in the Windows.. Looks so nice.. and Christmassy.. SO nice to sit with all the lights out and enjoy the twinkling of the Tree!!! ALSO, We spent a few hours with the neighbors.. putting up another bigger tree outside.. Lights on Everyones Deck... Bails of Hay... Next Monday nite Peters dressing up like Santa.. we're roasting Chestnuts.. and Projecting a Christmas movie on the brick wall outside.. and hoping we win the contest for best decorated Area in Arlington Village!!! It was fun... Peter built a fire.. it snowed a little bit.. don't get me wrong it was COLD! but it was a good time! I love that all the neighbors get together regularly..<br /><br /><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running ... of course.<br />2. Peter is off today so tonite I really want some quality time with him. Just being shmoochy and mushy and stuff...He's making dinner, I think Steaks.. Yum!<br />3. Going to sleep.. I'm feeling tired.<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I am looking forward to:</strong><br />1. My Romantic Evening with Peter next Saturday, the 20th... Dinner and a wonderful Christmas Concert to see <a href="http://www.jimbrickman.com/tabid/36/Default.aspx">Jim Brickman</a> - Get Dressed up.... Maybe drive down King St in Old Town.. and take in the lights in the trees.<br />2. New Years Eve.. A few of my friends and I are going to <a href="http://liasrestaurant.com/main/index.cfm?Restaurant=lias&Category=Main&Section=Main">Peter's Restaurant</a> to Ring in the New Year (and my 34th Birthday!)!!!<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />Honestly My sister.... She and I had a hard conversation with our parents on Sunday and I'm so glad that she was there with me and I was there for her...Amazing how we both lean on each other when dealing with the hard stuff with our parentals.. We went out to grab some grub afterward to talk abou tit.It's amazing how close we've become over the years.. I'm so grateful!!!<br /><br />Ok.. Rambling..<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-13589111809972674032008-12-05T11:00:00.003-05:002008-12-05T17:06:40.566-05:00High/Low 12.5.08Hiety Ho!!!<br /><br />Holy Moly It's FRIDAY!!! Wahoo!!!! Feel really good today!!<br /><br />Let me not dilly dally.. onto <a href="http://www.blogger.com/%3Ca%20href=">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. Sitting here.. listening to <a href="http://jaiuttal.com/main.htm">Jai Uttal</a> on my IPOD as I'm happily working on a project. Jai's music is enchanting.. Kirtan music.. music that makes me want to take a DEEP breath in.. and surround myself with the white light.... I feel so peaceful when I listen to his music.. same with <a href="http://www.krishnadas.com/about.cfm">Krishna Das</a>. Chanting Indian-esque music.. OHMMMM......<br />2. Last nite I got a package from my Auntie!!! A book that I can't wait to sink my teeth into Called "The Shift" Thanks Auntie! I love getting mail!!!!<br />3. Today is payday and starting today.. instead of paying rent.. I begin my savings account.. for Next Septembers festivities.. SO nice to have the money going toward something that will bear an amazing outcome!<br /><br /><strong>2 things that I look forward to today:</strong><br /><br />1. Running tonite.. I had an office event last nite.. and by the time I got back to my car..it was late ..Meh.. that's an excuse.. Truthfully ever since Thanksgiving.. with those dang Rice Krispy Treats staring at me everynite (I ate them all up yesterday..doh!) and Peter making YUMMY meatballs on Tuesday.. (LEFTOVERS!) I feel like I've been slacking in the watching what I'm eating department! Gotta get back on Track!!!<br />2. Eyebrow Waxing appt then Therapy. I like therapy so I'm looking forward to both.<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I am looking forward to:</strong><br />1. Putting up our first official Christmas Tree in OUR place tomorrow.. Decorating.. I KNOW we are going to laugh a lot!!! And lots of singing christmas Carols!!!<br />2. UGH.. Just have to say it... NEVER having to freaking hear from Kevin again with regards to ANYTHING that has to do with this house..... at this point.. it's aggravating!!! Get a email from the owner yesterday that he was obstinant with the Realtor whos trying to sell it.. The owner understandably said that if we don't cooperate he won't let us out of the lease until the end of January like originally discussed.. But Mr Eternal Pessimist started a broo ha ha and I don't even LIVE there!! You talk to him on the phone and it's all about ME ME ME ME ME ME and it just pisses me off! Ok.. UGH.. just had to vent that!!! <strong>UPDATE 5:07PM: HOLY MOLY THE HOUSE THAT WAS PUT ON THE MARKET YESTERDAY.. IS ALREADY SOLD!!! AMEN ALLELIUIAH!!!!</strong><br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />Me. If your happy and you know it clap your hands.. CLAP CLAP!!! Feeling really good today..proud of myself.!!!<br /><br /><br /><br />Ok... Happy friday and have a good weekend!<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-13729580702406523422008-12-04T09:37:00.002-05:002008-12-04T10:45:47.296-05:00High/Low 12.4.08Morning Lovebugs!<br /><br />Wasabi? Anything good going down? Thursday... Thank goodness tomorrow is the last day of the week... I've been feeling time space continuum of Groundhog Day.. you know.. day after day.. do the same thing..get up, shower, meditate, drink coffee.. fart around.. go to work... eat oatmeal at desk..see the same people everyday...run after work... etc. you catch my drift... I know sometimes life just works like that.. but I'm noticing it...<br /><br />ANYWAY.. I also just wanted to say that I know it may seem to some of you like I'm still having a hard time with the events of this year.. And.. I'll admit that it's been an interesting journey.. trying to heal from one door closing at the same time trying to be in the moment of all the wonderfulness that is Peter and I... a GRAND RE-OPENING of another door...and that it's happened at the same time. I don't know what to say... It's just how it happened. I know you hear me talk about feeling twinges.. and being hurt.. etc.. and I won't lie that yes, that is happening..it's part of the healing process.... But I want to tell you that I want you to TRUST ME... If you know my story.. you know that a lot of strange things have happened in my life.. at odd times.. I mean 7 jobs in 9 years? Talk about weird timing.. I didn't know what was happening but EVERY job that i've had has lead me to the one I have now and I LOVE what I do!!! SO I have faith that everything works out the way it's supposed to.. whether we know WHY it's happening or not... I know it's a BLESSING that Peter came into my life when he did.. I am lucky and I KNOW it... I am really happy... I'm SO excited about our future.. I feel MYSELF again...i'm exercising and seeing my friends again.. and laughing and being me more than I have in the past 2 years.. I will admit that I lost myself a bit trying to make a relationship work that wasn't destined to last.. and God/The Universe.. set things in motion.. If you know the whole story of the transition.. God had his/her hand in that for sure!!! Anyway.. I want you to know I'm STRONG enough to handle this... even though yes.. sometimes you'll see me struggling.. It's just part of the process I think.. I'm emotional and sensitive so of course I FEEL it more..but it doesn't mean I feel like I'm doubting my decision.. WHO BETTER to stand by my side than someone who TRULY loves me... sometimes more than I love myself... and who sees what I'm trying to accomplish? <br /><br />Have faith in me... Things happen (usually unfortunate or sad ones) in our lives to help bring about the lesson..That's why we're here.. If nothing happened.. and we lived an uneventful life.. What would we learn? Not much.. And Guys (and Gals) I have learned SO MUCH about me.. even yesterday really grasping how much I really don't trust my own decisions.. THAT is probably why all this is happening.<br /><br />Sometimes life just sucks.. and you can dwell on it.. become victimized (which we all take on from time to time) but we can't let it bring us down.. Have to be "Brave on the Rocks" as Sabrina Ward Harrison says... and KNOW that we will become a more shiner and brighter the more we clear out the gunk..<br /><br />I was telling someone yesterday.. Where I'm at is this... Ok.. so I have this car and it's not working and I can't get to work.. So one day this AMAZING DEAL of another car comes along.. and I CANNOT and WILL NOT pass it up.. so YEA!! NEW CAR FOR ME!!! And it's shiny and new.. It makes me happy!!! But still.. I have this broken car.. it makes me sad.. I loved that car.. but I know it just won't work...I have to let it go.. and I KNOW that..Unfortunately I have to invest in opening the hood and looking at what's broken.. in order to know what parts will fix it and then take the TIME and EFFORT to fix it (or pay to have it fixed.. uh Therapy!) so you can get RID of it ONCE AND FOR ALL!!!! So you can enjoy the nice and shiny car...<br /><br />Does this make sense at all? Ok maybe it's not a PERFECT metaphor.. but it works for me.. Sometimes you can't pass up an amazing Deal that you KNOW God had his/her hand in.. You know? So yea.. it sucks.. having to stand in the cold and fix the broken car.. when there is your new one parked right there.... but look what you have to look forward to.. getting rid of it so you can focus on your shiny one that makes you sing loudly while driving it!!!<br /><br />Peter has been amazing.. he knows me.. he knows my heart.. he knows I feel strongly.. I love strongly..he knows my dysfunction... he knows I HAVE to do this.. face this.. look at what's broken... he KNOWS that I love him more and more everyday.. I always have.. and that I look forward to our future.<br /><br />Ok so with that said.. I hope you have a great day!!!<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-38967969499615337202008-12-02T09:31:00.002-05:002008-12-02T10:14:59.200-05:00High/Low 12.2.08Hiety Ho my Loverlies...<br /><br />How are you? I'm gude!! I'm feeling a bit pissy today for some reason...so I'm going to keep this short and sweet.<br /><br />onto <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. Had a good run last nite after taking 4 days off... There was this guy running next to me.. much faster than me... he was a good motivation for me. I think another few days at a mile and half and I can try to up my distance.<br />2. Last nite Peter got off of work at the same time I was on my way home so we went to get Pho last nite.. (check out my flickr page) YUM PHO! I love it.. it's so good on a cold day... we had a good time laughing as usual.. I feel "so much myself" when I'm with him.. Thank God.<br />3. Last nite I got my laundry done!! Yippee!!! I know.. it's a neverending story with Laundry but at least I'm good for a little while... heh..<br /><br /><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running of course.<br />2. Tonite is our neighborhood "Christmas Lighting/Decorating" meeting... a few of us on the same block are going to decorate the shared back yard area.. Peter came up with this idea to dress up as Santa one nite.. Ha! Peter's off today so that will be nice to have him home for the evening.<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I am looking forward to:</strong><br />1. I found this wonderful artist that is going to make me a custom Cell Phone Holder.. In this awesome fabric.. I found her on <a href="http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=5865288">ETSY</a> (Here is her shop) Yippee!! I can't wait to get it!!!<br />2. I know this is neurotic.. but I'm kinda excited to get a new 2009 pocket calendar.. I am the eternal planner.. and the thought of fresh untouched boxes of days with things to fill it with.. OOH!! Exciting!!!<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />My Auntie.. She's amazing... I talked to her briefly last nite and she has been SUCH a blessing in my life... I am so blessed because she holds many roles for me in my life.. a Mother Role.. a Sister Role.. a Best Friend Role.. and a Kindred Spirit Role.... I KNOW that we have known each other in previous lives.. and I am grateful we share this lifetime together.. as family. I love you Auntie!!! Thank You for letting me vent last nite!!!<br /><br />Ok... Dash away Dash away Dash away ALL!!!<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-38159708443945461332008-12-01T09:01:00.002-05:002008-12-01T09:41:00.006-05:00High/Low 12.1.08Holy Moly!!<br /><br />It's December already... SO many things happen in December.. and even more this year!!! Matthew comes home from Iraq any day now... After this month...I NO longer have to pay rent at a house I don't even live at... I close that chapter and really focus on completing my healing .. and looking forward to Septembers festivities and my future with Peter!!! This time next year I will be Mrs. Kerilyn Russo.. Holy Moly!!! Peter and I will be spending our first christmas as Newlyweds at our place... with our families around us!!! I'm so excited!!! This time next year I predict.. there will be some babies in my life as well. (not mine.. yet) so 2009 will prove to be a memorable one for sure!!<br /><br />without further adieu... I give you <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a>:<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. Amazing Friends.. this weekend I spent time with Naomi and Kristy on Turkey Day... A yummy meal had by all. Saturday Janet and Kristy and my sister came to help me move a load of stuff out of the house.. and yesterday, Kristy, Naomi and I went to see <a href="http://www.foxsearchlight.com/slumdogmillionaire/">Slumdog Millionaire</a> .. good movie.. little violent.. but very touching. I have some amazing People in my corner.. and I am very grateful for all of you. Thank you.<br />2. Rice Krispy Treats - I made a batch of my moms peanut butter/honey wonderfulness and I can't stop nibbling on them!!! They came out just like my mom makes them.. Peter said he's going to hide them... NO.. don't take them away!!!<br />3. Leftovers... Need I say more.. I wrote a post a week or so ago about how I feel about leftovers!!! YUM!!!<br /><br /><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running.. I haven't run in FOUR days and I kinda feel sluggish.. on top of eating my rice krispies delights... I feel excited to get back on track (no pun intended).... Depending on how the next two days runs go.. I might push it up to mile and 3/4 on my way to 2 miles a day.<br />2. I HAVE to do laundry!!! (ok i'm not looking forward to it necessarily but I CANT put it off any more!!) Yesterday it was SO yucky out.. I didn't have it in me to do it.. just laid on the sofa like a lump...<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I am looking forward to:</strong><br />1. This weekend..!!! We're getting a tree and decorating for christmas!!! Yippee!!! I LOVE that Peter is as excited about it as me!!! Wahoo!!! I need to figure out what i'm doing for christmas cards this year... (few years of NOT doing them just doesn't feel like me.. so I'm on a mission to send them out this year)<br />2. Lots of fun things I'm doing in December.. dinner with Steph and Scott and Peter.. US Army Band Christmas Concert with Kristy.. Romantic Christmas Evening with Peter and <a href="http://www.jimbrickman.com/tabid/36/Default.aspx">Jim Brickman</a>.. Christmas Eve/Day at my sisters (a new Fox Tradition!) and then a few days up in NJ with Peters family (soon to be my family!) and finally rounding off the year with my 34th birthday on New Years Eve!!!<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />Everyone that has volunteered their time and love to help me... physically by helping me move out.. or spending time with me when I feel sad and alone...emotionally...allowing me to be vulnerable and exposed to my feelings...gently comforting me .. supporting my own decision to face what has caused this experience to happen... it's had it's very scary moments.. Peter who has been ABSOLUTELY AMAZING through all this.. so loving and supportive.. even in my teary moments... He is amazing. I am grateful.. I hope that in this next year.. I can return the favor 10 fold!!! Thank you.<br /><br />Hope you have a good week!<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-51170981256250292182008-11-26T09:01:00.003-05:002008-11-26T10:24:17.863-05:00High/Low 11.26.08Hi there my lovely love bugs!!!<br /><br />What's up? It's Wednesday... last day of work before a 4 day weekend! Woo Hoo!!! I'm half excited and half anticipatory of this weekend...beginning the moving out process this weekend. Both Friday and Saturday I'm going to be Shaking my Tail Feather.. enlisting my sister, Naomi Possibly and My honey to help with this.<br /><br />I won't ramble on and on today... onto <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. Put on my pants today.. getting BIG on me! Wahoo!!! I'm thinking.. it's only the end of November.. I have NINE and half months before September festivities... if both myself and others can see me losing weight NOW..can you imagine what the change in my body will be by then!! I'm excited!!! And honestly I'm running because I like to... yes.. the thinning of the body is also a goal and a bonus.. but I honestly do not feel like running after work is a chore.. Anyone that knows me knows that I got up to six miles a day.. lost 70 lbs before.... and I enjoyed it then too.. this feels like a repeat of that.<br />2. Not having to wake up early for the next few days. That will be good any way you look at it!<br />3. Peter fixed my turn signal in my car so it doesn't go ghetto fast... it's been ghetto for over a month now.. My honey is the best!<br /><br /><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running of course.<br />2. Honestly I don't have anything to do tonite (Anyone available? Want to hang out with little 'ol me?) I guess I'll go grocery shopping for tomorrow.. and chill.<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I'm looking forward to:</strong><br />1. Naomi and I are going to see <a href="http://www.foxsearchlight.com/slumdogmillionaire/">Slumdog Millionaire</a> on Sunday! It looks like a REALLY good movie!!!<br />2. Peter was singing this "I got you something great for Christmas" song last nite.. and is telling me I'm going to love it.. so now I'm excited to see what it is!!! He's really good about keeping surprises.. a surprise.. (which is cool .. i like surprises) but i'm excited to see what it will be!<br />3. On Friday, December 12th.. My girl Kristy and I are going to go to the United States Army Band <a href="http://www.usarmyband.com/events/holiday_festival.html#tix">Christmas Concert</a> !!! Yippee!!!<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />My co-worker/designer Bob... He has helped me with my running.. (he runs 3.5 miles every day) and so we talk about it.. talk about Shoes.. I watch him eat fruit every day... so he's inspired me to eat an apple and banana every day. He's given me a runners log... and two running books to read. It makes me happy to have someone to talk to about changes in runs from day to day. (I'm at a 10 minute mile.. which is just fine with me!) Thanks Bob!<br /><br />Ok ya'll.. hope you have a great Turkey Day... enjoy celebrating with your families wherever you are. I am grateful for you... being in my life.<br />Gobble Gobble!<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-78740949281641632008-11-25T09:56:00.002-05:002008-11-25T10:20:44.945-05:00High/Low 11.25.08Hiety Ho my loverlies!!!<br /><br />How are you? I'm just peachy!! Tuesday..... not as cold as yesterday thank goodness. Tomorrow is the last day of the work week.. SO happy about that!!! I am feeling so good the past week or so.. it's like something clicked in my brain.. and clear understanding has moved in and I am feeling SO good about myself and where my life is going!!! Yippee!!!<br /><br />Ok.. not to dilly dally... onto <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. I am sitting in this new FABULOUS chair at my office.. The Herman Miller <a href="http://hermanmiller.com/CDA/SSA/Product/0,,a4-c1008-p271,00.html">Embody</a> Chair!! (Check it out!!!) My office is also a showroom... where clients come to the office to check out furniture/chairs/etc... so we got this new chair in as a demo chair and usually I don't really change chairs.. I have been using my chair for over 2 years now.. but when i saw this chair.. and then sat in it.. wowee. It is so comfortable.. and unique looking.. LOVE It!!!<br />2. Had a REALLY good run last nite.. mile and half starting to come easy.. LOVE that.. barely sweating at the end of run.. SUCH a good sign!!!<br />3. Went over to Naomis house after getting my nails done last nite.. HOLY MOLY!! She had the bathroom renovation done.. It looks AMAZING!!!! It doesn't look AT ALL like the same bathroom I used for 2 years.. Naomi honey.. You have GREAT Taste (Matthew... when you come to visit sometime.. you HAVE to go to Naomis and check out the house.. it looks SO different!!)<br /><br /><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running of course.. I think another week or so of a mile and half and I'll go up to mile and 3/4. My goal of 3 miles by January might be delayed a month.... but meh.. can only go as far as my body goes..and I'm doing pretty good!<br />2. My honey is home today... Enjoying his day off.. and he's making Eggplant Lasagna tonite for dinner!! YUMMY!!!! Looking forward to spending the evening with him.!!!<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I am looking forward to:</strong><br />1. I'm waiting on my new pair of shoes to come in!!! Today? Tomorrow? Next week? Who knows!!!<br />2. Since the wonderful <a href="http://cloud9skincare.com/">woman</a> that does my eyebrows is on vacation this week.. I might treat myself to an eyebrow wax at my FAVORITE Salon/Store.. <a href="http://www.aveda.com/">Aveda</a> (The spa is <a href="http://circedayspa.com/">Circe</a> but they use Aveda!!) On the pricey side for a brow wax.. (20 bucks... ouch!) but meh..I AM WORTH IT!!!<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />All my wonderful friends.. Thank You for being there for me.. for supporting me.. for loving me when I don't love myself. Thank You for being there this year.. when I really didn't know what I was doing..allowing me to not know gently as I figure it out.. For being "real" with me.. and not sugar coating something that might be hard to hear. I love you for it. For helping me laugh.. and allowing me to cry (and cry I have! Whew!) I am a better person for having you all in my life. Thank You.<br /><br />As I sashay into the day.. I wish you a good one!<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-62673728744862903182008-11-24T10:03:00.002-05:002008-11-24T10:57:14.800-05:00High/Low 11.24.08Morning!!!<br /><br />How are you my lovely little fireflies? I'm great this morning!!! I just feel better and better every day!! Ok so I don't know if I told you.. the owners of the house are selling.. and they decided to release us from our Lease a month earlier! Thank goodness.. Saving a thousand bucks that's not being wasted! So begins the journey of hauling all the stuff OUT of the house... which is fine.. I'm already settled in with Peter at the house.. so it's just putting stuff in storage until we change locations.. or move away... (1-1/2 to 2 years) Thankfully my parentals have been gracious enough to let me put my boxes and little furniture I have in their basement!!! So I don't have to pay for storage! Woo Hoo! Thank You Parentals!!! My wonderful sister came Saturday to help me organize the basement.. to purge.. I really don't have THAT much stuff... (I always say that but when it comes to actually moving it is another story! Ha!) SO.. as of my birthday (December 31st) that chapter of my life will officially be over and whatever remnants of healing I have to do still (there is a bit lingering around) can begin then... I knew that I wasn't going to fully be able to heal until this chapter is crazy glued shut. Then.. 2009 is going to be a spectacular year!!! September being the Month of celebration!!! WOO HOO!!! Oh my gosh.. to start another chapter ...immersed in love.. and excitement of what is to come!! I am SO excited!!!<br /><br />ok ok.. enough rambling Kerilyn.. onto <a href="http://www.blogger.com/%3Ca%20href=">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy: </strong><br />1. My favorite artist romantic "Brave on the Rocks" spirit <a href="http://bohemiangirldesigns.blogspot.com/">woman</a> welcomed her new son into the World!!! Check them out!!! Welcome Cedar!!!!<br />2. I'm setting up my studio space at the house and it's coming together really nicely.. I need to get my desk lamp at the house to finish it off and i'll be ready to rock and roll!!!<br />3. I'm wearing this dress today that, just a month ago.. fit me a little snuggly and today.. it's pretty loose on me!!! Yippee!!! Kristine told me she can tell I'm losing weight! I love to hear this.. keep it coming!!!<br />4. My Matthew is leaving Iraq in less than a week!!! Oh man!!! SO happy for him!!!<br />5. I got an amazing email from a high school friend Meredith this weekend.. Wow.. I haven't talked to her since High School.. I SO look forward to catching up with her!!!<br /><br /><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running of course!!!<br />2. Getting my nails done! I broke 2 nails at the house on Saturday and 1 of them is patched up with a band aid.. THEN I'm going to my girl Naomis house to check out her new bathroom renovation!!!<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I am looking forward to:</strong><br />1. December 20th.. I am taking my love to an awesome Christmas Concert with <a href="http://jimbrickman.com/">Jim Brickman</a> ! - He is my favorite Pianist.. and.. little story for you.. back in 1996.. when Peter and I first met .. before I moved to Savannah.. I told Peter about Jim Brickman and bought him a CD to listen to.. Peter has kept that CD all these years.. so it's going to be nice to go with him to listen to the soothing christmas music that I love! We'll go out to eat before hand.. and have a lovely christmas evening together!!!! Yippee!!!<br />2. NOT having to wake up early for FOUR WHOLE DAYS this weekend!!! Wahoo!!<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />My sister.. I know I always talk about how wonderful she is.. but honestly. if it weren't for her.. I wouldn't have gotten as far as I did at the house on Saturday!! She is there for me... 100% I can FEEL it.. She helps me when I want to dilly dally... keeping me focused.. as she has been saying.. "Eye on the Prize" and I couldn't agree more! Thanks Krissykins.. I love you!!!<br /><br />Ok.. hope you have a great short week!<br />Check out my new picture of my Pez girl on my flickr page!!<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-18990701741234054282008-11-20T10:22:00.004-05:002008-11-20T11:36:44.151-05:00High/Low 11.20.08 "She's Rambling!!!"Hiety Ho!!!!<br /><br />Can you believe that next week is Thanksgiving!!! Holy Moly this year has FLOWN by!!! This year has been the most challenging and most rewarding of my life to date. Truly. For most of you that have been with me for years.. you know i've been thru a lot (haven't we all? that's why we're here!) 3 job layoffs.. unemployment.. journey to find my place in my career , finding financial independence, etc.. but this has been the most important challenge to date, I feel.. facing my biggest fear. I guess i've always been facing my fears and overcoming them.. this year just feels like a cumulation of the one issue that has been "plaguing" me since I was a little girl.. My self worth. This year has brought me face to face with the truth that I AM worth it.. that I am beautiful and smart.. and valued.. and loved.. warts and all. That I love myself enough to make a decision that was against what my heart wanted... the little voice inside me saying "You're deserve so much more Kerilyn!!!" And, while it hurt like hell (and it has) this has also been a testimony to my own self worth. It's been a tug of war.. naturally inclined to NOT believe I was worth it due to my own conditioning... and having to leave a relationship that I did love and care for that I wasn't receiving what I deserved.. and then being with someone who constantly tells me I'm worth it.. and having to take baby steps to really start to believe it... what a ride this has been!!! That I don't have to compete for love or BEG for it.. I am learning just how much I have used my fear that I wasn't worth it to sabotage myself.. over and over again... and how much I VOWED to myself that I would face this so I can move past this.. once and for all. To shine a light on the dark places.. uncover the cobwebs.. and bring about a new chapter of health and wealth and prosperity in my life. To be IN LOVE with me.<br /><br />I'm so proud of myself I can't begin to tell you. I deserve a great big gold star...A+++!<br /><br />Whew.. where did that come from? um.. ok.. moving along...<br />onto <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. Oh my gosh.. I had a GREAT GREAT GREAT evening last nite!!! Started with a really strong run last nite.. then my girl Kristy and I had a yummy dinner and took the metro into DC to go to see <a href="http://www.spearheadvibrations.com/">Spearhead</a> !!! The venue was awesome.. the music was awesome.. dancing my booty off and sweating like crazy.. it was awesome!! I think I was smiling the whole time!!! Almost 3 hours of songs and dancing.. my tootsies were a hurting. Then my honey came and Picked us up in his pickup.. how awesome is THAT!!! Door to Door Service.. I love my honey. All in all a picture perfect evening!!! <strong>*** CHECK OUT MY PHOTOS FROM FLICKR***</strong><br />2. Feel great today despite my late nite..Got a late start but I feel really good today strangely. Wearing my favorite shirt!!!<br />3. I really feel like things are settling down.. and I'm really starting to enjoy my life more.. Sounds crazy.. but I have been on the defense for a while now.. and I can sense a shift to offense and enjoying things much more! Yippee!!!<br /><br /><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running of course<br />2. Coming home.. and heating up a wonderful bowl of Peter's chili... with some cornbread.. and watching my TV Shows I've recorded.. and then going to bed EARLY!!!<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I look forward to:</strong><br />1. This Sunday I am going to be tutoring an old co-worker (hopefully soon a friend) in CAD. I really enjoy what I do (finally) and was flattered that he emailed ME of all people to help him learn CAD. (and get a little moolah would be nice too!)<br />2. 4 Day weekend next week!!! Woo Hoo!!!<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />My sister.. Kristine.. she has become my closest friend to me this past year.. I have leaned on her and we've spent more time together this year than I can ever remember as an adult. I am hopeful that this next year will bring some wonderful additions to her and her husband life.. and that she can smile from the inside out!!! I love you little sister!<br /><br />Ok.. rambling your ears off!!!<br />Much Love<br />Kerilyn<br /><br />PS: I miss you Matthew... just want to say that... I can't wait to get that text that says your home for good!!!!thisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-31214878670724749622008-11-19T10:11:00.002-05:002008-11-19T10:36:44.393-05:00High/Low 11.19.08Hiety Ho my Lovelies!!!<br /><br />How are you? I'm GREAT!!! I'm doing SO much better.. wow.. feeling better and better everyday..(in my head that is) really feeling at peace SO much more than I have in the past... shoot.. year? Such a freeing feeling to understand what is happening.. like a light went on. It's COLD!!! Yesterday we saw our first flurries.. Peter says he thinks we're going to get a bad snowstorm this year.. i say we're due a doosy... so I won't be surprised. Just means I'll be working from home a day or so.. cause this Kerilyn girl does NOT drive in the snow!!! heh...<br /><br />ok.. onto <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. I love my new <a href="http://www.blackberry.com/select/blackberrycurve/#start8310">Blackberry</a> !!! Ok.. I know I don't NEED a new phone... but it's cool nonetheless to have it. I have the Red one.. and it's very cool. I feel like the cool kid with this phone.. ha!<br />2. Peter was off yesterday and he made his wonderful fabulous Chili and cornbread for dinner.. YUM-O! AND.. He bought us a Brita (amazing how the little things make me so happy) We've been needing a Brita for a while..we had a great nite just being together! He and I are really happy... wow.. it's been an amazing feeling.<br />3. Running is still going strong.. still at mile and half. Yesterday this little 1 Buck woman was on my treadmill (don't get me started.. there are only 2 treadmills.. and from time to time a "new" person shows up for a day or so) and they don't <em>know</em> that there are people that come at the same time... grr) and well.. she ran 2.5 miles.. and so i ran next to her. She was actually a really good influence..I was sorta competing with her.. so my run was strong... keeping up with her.. I didn't run as much as she did.. but that's ok. I'll get there.<br /><br /><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running of course!<br />2. TONITE....*drum roll please* my girl Kristy and I are going to the <a href="http://www.930.com/fs.php?x=1120&ba=IE&bv=7.0&bp=Win">9:30</a> club to see <a href="http://www.spearheadvibrations.com/">Michael Franti & Spearhead</a> !!! WOO HOO!!! I haven't been to a concert (on a school nite no less) in a LONG time.. I'm really looking forward to it.. and spending time with Kristy!!!<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I look forward to:</strong><br />1. Peter and I talked this morning about getting a real tree for christmas!! Yea!! (of course I don't like having a cut tree.. but maybe I can convince Peter to buy one we can replant!) I really like a real tree vs. a fake one.<br />2. TURKEY DAY WITH NAOMI AND KRISTY!!! Peter has to work that day (BOO!) and so I can't count on him to be home for dinner.. but Kristy and Naomi are coming over and Peter and I are going to have everything ready to make a nice meal.. Naomi is bringing her famous pumpkin cake and Kristy is bringing a dish too!! YEA!!!!!<br />3. Oh.. having the day after turkey day off makes me happy too.. NICE long weekend!!! Kristine and I may go and look at white dresses that weekend..... hmm.. we'll see.<br /><br /><strong>1 person I'd like to appreciate:</strong><br />My honey... I have never felt so loved or deserving of love. Peter tells me EVERY day how beautiful and loved I am.. and how much he's looking forward to spending our lives together. He and I have been together a LONG time (officially since 1999) and I feel more in love with him now.. than I ever have... It's like we are both walking on a cloud... What a lucky lucky woman I am!!!<br /><br />Anyway.. Hope your having a great week!!!<br />As I dash into the day!<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-68716250034357628252008-11-18T09:01:00.002-05:002008-11-18T09:04:06.626-05:00Just want to declare...I LOVE LEFTOVERS!!!!<br /><br />Yes.. you heard me correctly.. there is NOTHING better than to come home.. after work and running and NOT have to think about what I'm going to cook. To open the refrigerator and SEE already prepared food.. just waiting to be heated up... and then gobbled up!<br /><br />It's good.. usually better the next day anyway... And the best thing is.. clean up is a cinch!!!<br /><br />I will always love leftovers.. yum yum yum in my tum.<br /><br />Life is Good.thisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-15408463069212991272008-11-12T09:03:00.002-05:002008-11-12T09:45:03.574-05:00High/Low 11.12.08Morning!<br /><br />Hiety Ho!! How are you? I'm actually feeling GREAT today.... whew.. what an amazing roller coaster I've been on.. one day UP the next day... DOWN DOWN DOWN.... at this point in my journey.. the difference between up and down is not 50/50.. and the down has taken precedence.. but that makes sense.. I'm working REALLY hard on myself.. and that means actually having to face it.. and not be too afraid of it... which sometimes I really am) But today I feel good... like a pause in time where the clouds part and I can see all the progress I'm making.. and it feels good.<br /><br />without further adieu... I bring you <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a> :<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. I had an AMAZING time with my girlfriend <a href="http://flickr.com/photos/ancora_imparo/3024132576/">Roxanne</a> last nite (Check out the picture I took of us last nite.. She's so sparkley!!) Man oh Man..When I'm with Roxanne I feel like a great big electric blanket of love is surrounding me.. keeping me safe while I tell her all the hard work I'm doing on myself.. She is SO supportive of me.. I can FEEL it... She helps me recognize that I am worth it.. and that all this work I'm doing is huge. Thank you Roxy.. I love you with all my heart!!! (oh and our meal was good too!! Yum PF Chengs!)<br />2. My friend Christy and I had a hard conversation yesterday and she helped me to face my fear.. and didn't let me "get away" with feeling like the victim and feeling sorry for myself.. Thank You Honey.. I am so grateful.<br />3. When I come home from work today.. Peter and I will OFFICIALLY have a home phone.. For those of you who call me on my cell.. I have HORRIBLE HORRIBLE cell phone service at and around our place.. HOW frustrating that I am in the middle of a deep conversation with one of my girls and boop.. the call just drops!!! Talk about a dead zone!!! SO.. it brings me SUCH happiness that I will have a home phone that people can call me on when i'm home.. and I can actually enjoy someones call.. not having to walk around the house to try to get a good signal! Argh!!!<br /><br /><strong>2 things I am looking forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running.. of course. I also figured out why i'm so sorta addicted to running.. to coincide with the amazing emotional work i'm doing on myself.. I think I'm also.. subconsciously.. shedding the physical pain of what "it" really is all about. I run and I see my inner self.. I look in the mirror afterward and I can SEE her.. the her that is beautiful and worth it and worthy of the best life can offer.. I can see her... and THAT is what I think I'm running for.. a daily reminder that I am worthy of it all. Does this make sense?<br />2. I have to work late tonite.. (Work is BUSY!!) so when I get home.. I will have a phone to call someone.. AND.. leftover Meatloaf that Peter made.. YUM YUM!!!<br />3. Peter merged our cell phone plan so I will be on his plan and I can cancel mine.. so what did he do?? He got me a <a href="http://www.blackberry.com/select/blackberrycurve/#start8310">Blackberry</a> !!! Oh man.. I'm already an email junky.. I can only imagine what this is going to do with my addiction to checking emails!!! (Secretly I'm REALLY excited!!!)woo hoo!!!<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I look forward to:</strong><br />1. Friday nite.. my girl Davina invited me out for drinks at Rosa Mexicano in DC.. YUM.!!! Margaritas and Guacamole!!! YES!!!<br />2. Next Wednesday... My girl Kristy and I are going to see Spearhead!!! I am so excited!!!<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />Honestly.. I have some amazing women in my life right now that are there by my side on a regular basis.. helping me through this "Dark nite of the Soul" part of my journey.. and I'd like to thank them.. Auntie, Kristine, Christy, Roxanne, Naomi, Michelle and Kristy... You have been my rock thru this.. all of you at different times.. letting me lean on you with all my fears.. and you.. without batting an eyelash.. don't even think twice.. your there.. saying "no.. REALLY lean on me".. Allowing me to call/email/text you on a regular basis when I feel scared.. and never making me feel like what I'm doing is stupid... for REALLY knowing what "this" is all about. I can say I know I am where I am in my healing because of them. And I cannot BEGIN to tell them how Grateful I am. Thank You for holding me up when I have been too scared to face my fears.. Thank you for holding my hand when all I want to do is run away.. Thank you for putting your arm around me and with gentle force.. whispering in my ear that I can do this. Even when I try to convince you that I can't... Thank You for loving me.. more than I currently love myself.. but it's important that you KNOW that it is my goal to love myself as much as you love me. I WILL get there. Thank You.<br /><br />I am a rich woman.. Through and through..<br />Much Love.<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-57937843937218613622008-11-07T09:47:00.002-05:002008-11-07T10:33:38.442-05:00High/Low 11.7.08Morning!!!<br /><br />How are you today? It is an absolutely beautiful day here today... the trees.. my drive to work in the morning.. is like driving thru a painting... The trees are ABSOLUTELY breathtaking.. red at the top.. then orange.. yellow and green at the bottom.. it's like the tree houses it's own rainbow.. Amazing.. I just wanted to get out of my car and take pictures.. I don't understand who can get to work in a bad mood after having driven thru such lovelyness. And it's warm out today.. going to be in the mid-70's. PERFECT!!! SUCH a great day to feel alive!!! AND.. it's Friday no less.. and even more.. PAYDAY!!! YEE HAW!!!!<br /><br />ok... without further adieu...<a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a><br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. I feel really pretty today.. wearing my favorite brown dress.. with my funky wood necklace.... such a nice day out.... going to hang out with my girl Naomi tonite... we're going to eat Indian (YUM!)<br />2. Peter just called me.. he got Fiona.. the <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/ancora_imparo/2978103604/">scooter</a> running.... So i'll get to ride it for the first time tomorrow!! Yea!!!<br />3. I had a really good nite of sleep.. changed the sheets (just something so relaxing about sleeping in clean sheets.. and I'll tell ya I change my sheets once a week) then waking up to such a beautiful day.. the sun shining in the window.. my kitty girl laying on the couch.. really good cup of coffee.. I feel blessed!<br /><br /><strong>2 things I look forward to today:</strong><br />1. I took yesterday off from running.. so i'm excited to get my mile and half in today.. Amazing how much you miss it.. even after one day.<br />2. Therapy after running.. then i'm going to have Indian with Naomi then I might go out for a drink with Peter afterward (Matthew.. we're going to Cafe Salsa in Old Town for Mojitos.. will drink one for you!!!)<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I look forward to:</strong><br />1. Tomorrow Kristy and I are going to get out feet done.. pedicures.. MUCH needed!!! Unfortunately I really bruised two of my toes when I was running with bad shoes so I'm sure the ladies doing my feet won't be happy about that. Eek!<br />2. Three concerts in the next few months...<a href="http://www.spearheadvibrations.com/">Spearhead</a>, <a href="http://www.jimbrickman.com/">Jim Brickman</a> and <a href="http://thieverycorporation.com/">Thievery Corporation</a> Yippee!!!<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />Gotta say Peter.. he makes me feel so beautiful... and loved. I am so grateful for him. Seriously.<br /><br />Have a great weekend! Go out and enjoy this beautiful day!<br />(ok.. not if your in North Dakota.. eek!)<br />Much Love<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8189656.post-73415545031931889972008-11-05T09:39:00.004-05:002008-11-05T10:38:11.510-05:00High/Low 11.5.08Hip Hip... HOORAY!!!<br /><br />Need I say why I'm hooraying? Yes!!! I am very excited about our Next President! I woke up this morning.. feeling the threshhold of change upon us. It was a good feeling. Other than that.. I'm feeling exhausted today.. my body feels exhausted and stiff.... my run last nite was tough. I did it.. mile and half.. but it was different than previous weeks. I'm not giving up... I just need to keep an eye on my body.. (TRUST me my body is getting smaller.. not by leaps and bounds but I can tell) and make sure I'm doing this correctly.. I have to remember the last time I ran everyday.. I was 22.. now i'm 33... 11 years is a big difference with regard to endurance and healing.<br /><br />regardless.. I still have lots to be happy about... so with that said.. onto <a href="http://3things2things.blogspot.com/">3 things 2 things</a>:<br /><br /><strong>3 things that make me happy:</strong><br />1. I put on this skirt that just a month ago.. fit me fine.. and today when I put it on...it felt a bit bigger on me!!! Oh my gosh... I wanted to jump for joy!! I feel my body.. my arms and tummy area.. getting smaller. SUCH a good feeling!!!<br />2. SO cute.. Peter has a <a href="http://flickr.com/photos/ancora_imparo/1176909933/">picture</a> of Pez taped to the dashboard of his pick up truck. Pez and Peter have had a love hate relationship with each other.. so It is so cute that he has her picture there.. it makes me happy.<br />3. I am totally falling in love with <a href="http://www.mcarecords.com/artistMain.asp?artistid=340">Sigur Ros</a> - an icelandic band that I know has been around forever.. but I have been listening to their music a bit. it's Etheric.. and romantic.. touching.. and intimate...<br />4. <strong>WATCH THIS</strong>.... Are you ready to be touched? Thru my FAVORITE <a href="http://ashimagery.com/blog/">Photographer</a> I have come across a wedding videographer that is making me SWOON... Watch this <a href="http://fiorefilms.blogspot.com/2008/10/quite-romatics.html">video</a> , the first time I watched it i sat there and cried... it is SO amazing.. Deep Breath and let me know (or shoot.. let THEM know) what you think!!! (And of course the song is Sigur Ros). So you KNOW i would LOVE for them to do something similar for Peter and I next September.. but alas... it's all about the benjamins (translate: Money)<br /><br /><strong>2 things I look forward to today:</strong><br />1. Running.. Like I said.. not going to stop.. just gotta take it easy.<br />2. Laying on the couch like a bug on a rug - catching up on my recorded TV shows.<br /><br /><strong>2 long term things I look forward to:</strong><br />1. Sunday going to the farmers market and HOPEFULLY they will have flowers!!! I miss having flowers in the house.<br />2. I really want to dive into a good book... Have any ideas? (Kyra?) Might spend a while doing some "stolen reading" this weekend at Barnes and Noble<br /><br /><strong>1 person I am going to appreciate:</strong><br />John McCain - I thought his speech last nite to conceed the nomination was really well said.. I wished he would have had that kind of passion during the campaign.. he might have had a bigger chance...I'm SURE that had to be hard to say.. to face. But I think he said it wonderfully.. Bravo Mr. McCain. I think we underestimate Passion..Passion can't be proven.. it's FELT. I think we FELT Obamas passion.. hence.. the outcome we have today!<br /><br />Prancing into the day.<br />Much Love,<br />Kerilynthisdreamergirlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11031576241262334351noreply@blogger.com0