High/Low 9.7.04

Well I'm back my little didjeridoos..

How are you? How was your holiday weekend? Relaxing? I JUST got in from AZ and I'm beat... the different time zones and different weathers (100+ out in AZ and 77 degrees and rainy here) has me sitting here with my eyes barely open.. so I'm going to make this short...

High: Good time in AZ... got to spend time with family, my Auntie Sue and my cousin Dominique who I haven't seen in many years!.. catch up.. eat yummy food. Happy to say my family are now proud skip-bo players.. talked about family history which was cool! Saw some amazing sights (Sedona's red rocks were literally out of this world) and just take it easy...I am very proud of myself that I handled the flights (both coming and going) quite well (well I was praying a lot for a smooth ride.. I think that had something to do with it too) My sister and I had a good time... REALLY got into the book I'm reading on the way home.. it's getting really good! AND.. made it home tonite to catch the last 15 minutes of Scrubs.. to drool on Zach Braff!!!

Low: On a sad note, I did not feel myself during the trip. This has happened well, admittedly 2 times before on other trips (one other time with my sister too) felt out of sorts.. quiet. Part of me was really upset with myself for feeling this way.. and part of me didn't know how to feel any other way besides the way I was feeling...I know my aunt kept asking me if I was ok.. I was.. just got a lot on my mind.. and it unfortunately decided to come out while I was away.. I have been so busy lately.. that this has been the first time in a while where I got to just sit.. relinquish control.. (uh.. try to) and my "stuff" kinda came up in my brain.. I am still feeling a bit like this right now, hopefully it will pass... after a good nite's rest anyway.

Anyway.. I hope you all had a good weekend.. tomorrow I was supposed to row.. but I emailed the coach and told her I wanted to raincheck for Friday.. I am underestimating my own need to take it easy and rest.. So I will get up tomorrow, normal work time.. have coffee, meditate.. and rowing with my new team will have to wait till Friday.

Talk to you all later.. I hope you like this format.. Get used to it till I get my own site up.. I will email you all the link every day for a few weeks.. PUT IT IN YOUR FAVORITES FOLDER!!! After 2-3 weeks.. I won't email you anymore.. you CAN write me comments.. on the bottom of each post.. it allows you to comment.. PLEASE do.. I would love to know what you think.. or you can email me on my aol...

Anyway.. Talk to you more tomorrow nite!
Ancora Imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Love you all,
Kerilyn

"We don't always know what makes us happy. We know, instead, what we think should. We are baffled and confused when our attempts at happiness fail...We are mute when it comes to naming accurately our own preferences, delights, gifts, talents. The voice of our original self if often muffled, overwhelmed, even strangled, by the voices of other people's expectations. The tongue of the original self is the language of the heart."-Julie Cameron

"We tell ourselves so many lies and half-truths...We listen and are duly impressed by these inner voices that turn into unseen judges that nag at us. We give each of these judges a seat of honor in our minds, all the while hating their guts and their never-ending supply of judgements...We give the judges permission to accompany us on each journey of life, never daring to realize that we can park them, at least momentarily."-Eloise Ristad