High/Low 5.15.06

Hey all.

how are you.. just a quick note to say hi.. hope your well.. Happy Mothers Day to all the mothers out there.. it's rainy and dreary out today.. just want to go back to bed..

Went to this awesome art opening friday nite.. at the Hirshorn Museum in DC.. all the cool Art people were out and about.. Kevin and I felt a bit uncool... but it was so good to remember that there are always things going on in DC that keep us up on the culture.. Walked thru the mall to the fallen police officer memorial.. it was a stoic moment.. went to parentals for mothers day dinner saturday.. yum meatloaf! Sat outside on back porch with lilacs in full bloom.. SUCH a nice smell! ah.. then Kevin and I went to Naomi's Comedy show.. it was REALLY GOOD!!! We had a great time!!!! Yesterday Kevin made an awesome breakfast.. and then I went to volunteer... at National Bldg Museum.. on way home.. wow.. I almost got into a BIG accident.. this guy was driving TOOO fast and hit this BIG FLOODED area at 60 miles an hour.. lost control.. God was totally watching after me cause i swerved when he hydroplaned across 3 lanes of traffic and the lady behind me swerved to avoid hitting me.. it happened so fast..was a bit shaken up but it was amazing how i KNOW that that was NOT a coincidence that my "gut" told me that I needed to be more aware of the large flooded lane.. wow.. miraculous..

Been feeling a bit melancholy lately.. maybe the weather.. rain. but maybe cause i was reminded that i really have no idea where my life is going.. It's true.. I don't. I know I have ideas.. wishes..and hopes.. but I'll tell you that I've kinda given up fighting my brain.. my yearnings.. i've let go a bit and I guess that seems.. to the outside world.. like I've given up.. I haven't given up.. I don't know what it is exactly that's happening.. but i just don't have the energy to pursue with the risk of it being in vain.. I'm really kinda tired of churning churning churning this brain of mine... worries of the future.. and where i'm going to be.. it makes me sad cause it does feel a bit like hopelessness.. i'm taking the stand that it's just a phase... so we'll see.. I'll say that I haven't really cried in a while.. which also isn't "like me" which is interesting to me.

k all.. talk to you all soon.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
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