Saturday... I wish I was in NYC this morning

Sitting here...

drinking coffee ... rainy, gray day... feeling a little melancoly.. got things on my mind.. things not accomplished.. challenges... daily opportunities to reach for my faith... the fact that I can look in the past.. but not the future....

looking at submissions for Photo Friday and I stumble upon one that is taken at 5PM on a Friday in Penn Station... and I think.. I wish I was in Manhattan this morning... waking up.. to the sounds of cars whirring by... people.. birds.. putting on some jeans and a t shirt.. ponytail secures the hair... flip flops.. and I would take to the street.. in search for a cup of coffee and a bagel... a place to read or journal or cry... stumbling upon great photo opportunities... and that feeling of freedom... in such a relatively small place...

i love how i feel when i am walking around new york by myself.. a friend of mine used to live in Manhattan.. and when i used to visit her.. i got that rush... you know.. that "i can do anything I want at anytime I want" feeling... so liberating.. i used to get up before she did and go for a walk.. sigh.. I felt complete... even though there were holes and dents there.. prodding at my mind.. at my emotions.. for the moment.. walking down the street.. seeing the store owners open up shop.. i felt whole...

anyway... I wish I was in Manhattan right now... cause I could use a dose of that 'feeling whole' feeling today.

onward and upward.
kerilyn