High/Low 1.4.06

hey there...

wednesday... already! thankfully.

i'm at a place at this moment when I don't really know what to say... life's going ok.. one day at a time.. but I'm kinda at a loss for what to say.. the same ol same ol... work is still a bit unnerving.. and i worked out hard at the gym... went out for a drink with my friend janet.. to catch up.. it was a great time.. got home late.. quite tired today...

but I want to either give you more... or change the way in which i relay my thoughts... I'm kinda thinking of taking time off.. I guess there is so much going on in this brain of mine.. deep thoughts.. and private thoughts.. that's it's getting a bit hard to journal to ya'll.. while I want to dig deeper.. expose my fears.. unfortunately in this public arena.. airing what scares me.. probably would not be a good idea.. like a diary.. i write you.. but there are serious emotions stirring around my life.. i try to be as real as i can with ya'll... as open.. but there is stuff I don't really write about.. and I am feeling conflicted.. this is where i'm at... in my head...

in an attempt to try to widen my circle of friends.. i did a brave thing and put it out there that that's what i wanted.. online.. and i've gotten quite a response so far.. so i'm coordinating a gathering this saturday nite.. at a cool coffee lounge joint.. who knows? maybe it'll be fun.. maybe it'll stink.. either way.. what do i have to lose? nothing..

ok.. that's all for today.. who knows.. maybe i'll stop writing a while... because I dont' think I'd be good at just surface High/Lows.. it's SO me to want to dig deeper.. and I'm just not sure I want to expose myself to slings and arrows anymore... it takes a shitload of bravery and a bit of naiveity to write about my life.. in as much detail as I feel comfortable.. and I'm getting to the point where .. while I REALLY enjoy the thoughts of reaching out and letting you in on what Kerilyn's doing... I feel like i'm in a fishbowl... a bit... people peering in.. and sometimes tapping on me.. 'hey u! why are you doing that?' well i'm at a loss as to how to continue..

anyway.. whew.. rambling... that's where i'm at... i'm off into another day.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

PS: Felton.. when you get a chance I want to hang out with you... email me.. let me know when you're free.. k?