High/Low 5.25.05

Howdy folks..

how's it goin? Well, it's Wednesday.. of course I do not want to go to work today.. Surprise Surprise. It's still overcast and dreary outside.. but I'll try to look on the bright side. I swear I overheard my boss saying he was going to be out today.. which would be a blessing and a half.

The interesting thing about my feelings toward my boss is. WHY do I place my self worth in the hands of someone who is a SEVERE pessimist, about life, and faith. Why do I concern my feelings with someone who is not interested in seeing the beauty that life is? Why is my personal success somehow tied in to whether or not my boss is being nice toward me. He is really not a happy person in general.. and I should not concern myself of his thoughts. I ask God to please remove me from this job as quickly as they can.. (easy way out) or to help me become a stronger person by learning to not be affected, to see Bill (my boss) as someone who's hurting and maybe I can be a vehicle for his healing. Hmm.. part of me just wants to say "Eh.. screw Bill... he doesnt' care for me.. why should i care for him?" but the bigger part of me knows that we are all one.. and if I am able to pray for Bill.. then I am praying for myself too. Ugh.. this is a difficult one for me.

I guess I'm kinda down today, you know when you can tell your body doesn't feel well? I had a hint of a sore throat yesterday.. that went away.. this morning it's back.. I can kinda sense that my body wants to get sick.. but I pray it doesn't.

Good meditation this morning.. toward the end I went really deep. I love when that happens.

ok.. I say "God Grant me the Serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it's me." - Unknown

into my day I go. Wish me luck!
Ancora Imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn