High/Low 4.29.05 New day, new post

Ok... that's better.. I wanted to start a new.. since I feel like writing again today.. so I figure you all should know it's a different day.. so woo hoo.. 2 days i write.. a record for 2005 for me!

Today is an overcast day.. gray... blah-ish.. the kind of day for Shortbread cookies dipped in a great cup of coffee.. just how i like it.. really creamy and sweet.. too bad the cookies are not on my 'no grain' things to NOT eat..

I feel good today.. feel pretty... pretty and girly.. pink sweater on. Truth be known.. i've always liked pink but i guess since it's in style more... i find myself wearing it more.. hmm.. am i a fad-ist.. God, I hope not... I've always thought of myself as up to date.. even for a big girl... tall.. big.. whatever you want to call me..

Why am I suddenly thinking of Tiger Balm? Weird.

So i'm not going to catch you all up.. i'm just going to start where I am... Here. Friday.. in my pink sweater. So i decided, a few weeks go with a little help from my friends, to create an area in my house where I can sit, focus and make my greeting cards with more ease.. and space than sitting at my coffee table.. watching TV. If i want to take this making greeting cards thing seriously.. i need to seriously do them then.. So I went on http://washingtondc.craigslist.org/
and posted an ad for a Drafting table.. and found one for 20 bucks.. this week was the drafting table stool.. which I picked up today from a nice gentleman who met me in the parking lot of a restaurant to do the "exchange".. (I don't want strange men coming to my work/home thank you) my dad put up some shelves above the drafting table.. and I "kerilyn'd" my area out with art and japanese lanterns, looks REALLY cute.. all i need now is a light to shine the way and there I go.. if you need me you'll find me in the basement.. walk around and knock on the window instead of the front door cause I won't hear you if i'm down there...

I also need to get my butt going on giving more stuff to kyra to put on my website.. I want to have this website up badly.. but how is it going to get done? um.. if i sit down and do it!

Ever go thru those periods of time when it's hard to sit still? Like you always have to be doing something.. EXCEPT what you have to ACTUALLY be doing? Yea.. that's been me.. well, I'd say since the new year, hmm.. Coincidence with that and turning 30? hmmm....

You like this? My rambling thoughts or would it be better that i put my High/Lows back in it's original format.. Truth is.. this is ACTUALLY how I think.. this disjointed like this.. this, run-on like this.. Eh.. We'll see how I feel tomorrow.. (hopefully I won't be wearing the pink sweater again)

So life is no less confusing than when I wrote every day to you all.. I"m not as depressed as before.. admittedly. There is a chemical reason why I'm not depressed.. and an ever "Woman at Work" emotional reason too.. I'm still as unsure today as to the future of my future as in the past.

I mean.. I still have the 'Big Girl Dreams' (no.. not the dream of being a big girl, I already am that.. but the kindsa dreams a little girl has when she thinks of being big.. conquering her world) I still can't figure out the love thing.. the lust thing.. the "how do i do what I want to do with my career" thing, the "I'm not a party girl and that's OK." thing, the "Everything happens for a reason, even if you don't like it" thing.. yea.. still pondering that one..

anyway.. I'll have you know that it makes me happy to write you all... I feel a creative surge arise in myself as of late, so who knows.. maybe you'll hear from me more often.. God I hope so.. this journalling thing is truly theraputic..

This weekend I'm going to Ikea.. that always makes me happy. Even though I go there and don't buy anything/much. Eh.. And I have a date on Sunday.. a first date.. so we'll see how that goes..

If only the blue sky would come out..

Have a great weekend.
Kerilyn
Ancora Imparo 'I am still learning" in Latin

"Don't ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive." -Harold Whitman