High/Low 4.4.06

Howdy folks...

Tuesday... windy morning.. I have a feeling it's chilly out there too.. brr. I can't wait till I can sleep with all the windows open.. ah.. can't wait!

What to say? Mom still not feeling good.. but she's home.. same as yesterday.. she says she has no energy.. poor mom. My friend Danielle.. the cutie pie that she is.. wrote my mom a letter for me to give to her.. how SWEET is that! (Danielle.. you're a keeper! Love you! I'll give it to her soon and I won't have to remind her who you are.. she knows)

It stormed here a bit last nite on my way home.. I worked late.. (ugh) and it was kinda nice.. the sky got dark.. and the trees were blowing around... then light rain.. then bing! pouring rain... lightining.. and bam! thunder... it didn't last long which was good but it was a nice cleansing of all the crap going on around here.. made all of us go slower.. and take cover.. metaphorically we need to do that from time to time...

I'm still feeling a bit edgy emotionally.. bout work.. and my purpose in my career.. Actually who am I kidding?? this feeling hasn't gone away for a second.. just gets stronger and stronger.. ebbs and flows.. i try to push it away.. hide it.. put a plant in front of it.. but it is still there..makign it's presence felt in my everyday life.. True.. I can (and want to desparately) learn how to handle it.. cope.. manage... change it.. but I don't know where to begin.

So instead I'll go get dressed and try to get thru this day. Outside of this subject matter.. my purpose.. I'm quite happy right now.. enjoying spending time and energy getting to know Kevin.. gathering information.. it's a new experience for me that i'm really quite enjoying.. I have yet to begin to learn how to balance my life as it has been.. just me.. with sharing it with someone else.. I know that I will get the hang of that eventually...

oK.. rambling.. have a good day
onward and upward
kerilyn
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