High/Low 10.6.08

Afternoon all...

Monday.. usually I am just fine with Mondays... but this Monday is different.. I woke up at 2:30am from a dream that my car is being broken into again.. actually got up... and dressed and went out to my car to check on it... then couldn't go to bed till 5am and I get up at 6. It was just a dream... my car was fine.. but now I am exhausted. Physically and emotionally exhausted. This day is going by like beach erosion... Slow and exposing all to what lies beneath.

alright... enough of the grumblings... onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. Going to Art on the Avenue on Saturday. I will admit that I was initially feeling lonely... so many things I ultimately wanted to share with someone.. but halfway down. I hung out with Renee, the owner and teacher from Clay Queen Pottery on Mt. Vernon Avenue for 30-40 minutes in her shop.. catching her up on my life.. asking about the shop.. and how it's going.. Then I met a photographer and got caught up talking to her about her story... long story short.. I ended up having a great time by myself.. I took my time.. and met some really cool people.. so it was worth it.
2. THEN... I picked up Naomi and we were off to the Jim Henson Exhibit . So Cool... He's so inspiring... Really glad we caught it before it left town!
3. My favorite flowers were at the Farmers Market yesterday... bought 2 bunches.. nice! They make me happy. I also like that I can walk up there every Sunday. Makes me feel like I'm in a little community.. which I am. (Even though it's not Del Ray..I guess it's ok)

2 things that I look forward to today:
1. Running after work.. I'm up to a mile today! I found myself thinking about it all weekend.. Good Sign I'd say..
2. That's it.. going to bed EARLY....I'm exhausted.

2 long term things I look forward to:
1. The day when I am at peace with all that's happened this year.
2. Running 3 miles a day? and subsequently going down 2 dress sizes?

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Christy, my sister Kristine, Naomi, Auntie and Roxanne.. they have been there for me SO much over the past few months.. listening to me and watching me cry.. (and cry and cry) basically talking me out of my irrational moments.. Man.. I feel like I'm barely maintaining a baseline of normal thinking... still constantly spinning... and between fighting the inability to rest... to be still.. and my brain going 100 miles an hour..I feel like a crazy person. I feel like my girlfriends help slow me down a bit..I thank God for them.

Who said life was easy eh? Not me.

Talk to you soon!
Much Love,
Kerilyn