High/Low 10.6.04

hola mi senoritas y senors...

how art thou? Is it Friday yet? dang.. it's not. well it's official.. officially chilly out.. officially the break out the sweaters and lightweight jackets season.. put away the flip flops (a move I resist till I HAVE to) and break out the knee high stockings. It's FALL. I have a feeling this fall might prove to be a very good one.. I can sense some changes around the corner.. and what a great time for change.. love it!

High: First off.. I went to this Interior Design trade show in Baltimore today.. originally my boss and I were going to go but my boss got in a car accident (don't worry, he's fine) and so I was able to go by myself ... was SO happy about that. My high of the work day was seeing 2 specific people at this trade show... two very genuine and beautiful people in a sea of, TO ME, those that could care LESS about others and more about their own welfare. When I saw these two kindred spirits, I felt 'so much myself'. I look forward to getting to know them more in the coming months.. I called the woman at the Corcoran today.. and she called me back!!! She's going to call me on Monday (she is out of town till then) to set up an appointment!!! WOO HOO!! Getting her message tonite was like hearing I won something.. fingers crossed!!!! and THEN.. I had a date tonite.. a tall drink of water (6'3") named Lee.. a fellow former New Yorker... I had a great time..went to eat yummy food.. he loves to read.. (love that) and is a cutie pie... (is that dorky to say? cutie pie?) anyway.. I'm looking forward to our next date already!!

Low: That trade show.. eww.. I was surrounded by Interior Designers.. talking Interior Design.. something I really.. have no yearning to talk about.. True.. I am completely intrigued with the things I saw.. the fabrics, furniture, etc.. but seeing all these pretentious, stuck up people.. COMPLETELY reconfirmed my distaste for my profession..and actually made me so happy that my passion for it has morphed into something more for me. Maybe I feel this way because I feel my spirit has been broken with respect to design.. going thru 5 jobs in 5 years.. but part of it is the fact that for the most part.. and this I didn't really, honestly know.. how much Interior Design involves dealing with superficial and sometimes mean people (Davina, Jen Nelson, Shannon, Mehri, Megghan .... KNOW I am not talking about you AT ALL!!!!) I was at this show.. like almost repulsed.

Anyway.. as I ramble.. I wish it was Thursday nite.. and tomorrow was Friday.. I'm ready for this weekend.. ya know what??? I have Monday off! Columbus Day!! Woo hoo! (I have been feeling lately like I'm always taking a day off.. but ya know what.. this one is paid!) k.. I'm off to bed.
thanks for listening my friends.
ancora imparo - "I am still learning" in Latin.
love you all,
kerilyn

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