High/Low 10.8.08

Hi there.

Wednesday... got my warm sock and shoes on.. amazing how much warmer I feel during the day when I wear socks. It is cooler out.. I should've worn a jacket out this morning but I didn't.

onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. Ok.. this isn't a good thing from first blush..but Kristine found out yesterday that she has Lymes Disease. She's been really tired, with NO energy for years.. and so even though it stinks that she has this.. it makes me happy to know that there is a reason beyond her control that is what's causing this. Yes it will not be fun to go thru the rounds of antibiotics.. but hopefully she will then regain her energy and get back on the path to the rest of her life. I know this has been hard for her.. not understanding why she's been feeling this way.. hopefully before not too long she'll be feeling more energy and motivation.
2. Running last nite! Another mile down! I can't tell ya... I feel great after running! Yea.. Like I said.. my lungs aren't yet ready to jump up and down with excitement.. but this is helping my mind a lot.. I love to sweat.. makes me feel like I've accomplished something.. Looking at myself in the mirror while I'm running.. tapping into the subconscious me saying "YOU CAN DO THIS!!!".
3. My friend Scott emailed me something that made me feel better with regard to where I am in my brain.. helps to give me hope that I won't always be feeling this way. Thanks Honey.

2 things I look forward to today:
1. This morning I was startled by someones car alarm and dropped my bowl of chili on the floor. Cracked one of my favorite bowls and everything.. grr. SO.. that just means I get to have the yummy Steak and Cheese Pita from down the street. YUM.
2. Running tonite... then doing nothing! I should go to the store to get my kitty girl ready to come back to me..

2 long term things I look forward to:
1. I'll say it again.. Being out of the house in Del Ray. NEVER having to go there again.. or having to talk about anything in regards to it. I'm SO ready for this to be over. This experience has me smack in the face with facing my BIGGEST fears.. and it's scary and feels real and I just want to be OVER this and focused on more healthy and productive things! Ugh!
2. Working from home on Friday... being home with my kitty girl.. in my pajamas.

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Me. I am proud of myself today. I still get up and get dressed and put makeup on to make myself look pretty.. and go to work and then exercise even though my brain is swimming in confusion .... not understanding why I STILL feel this way.

ok.. aren't you impressed that I'm writing everyday again? I am.
Much Love.
Kerilyn