High/Low 10.14.05

Hey all...

sigh.. friday.. thank God. that's all I really have to say.... an end to yet another extreme roller coaster week for Kerilyn.

OK what is this? day 7 of no sun... Where is the sun? ok.. just checked the weather.. I hear the sun will be gracing us tomorrow.. and sunday... God, I hope so. This gloomy gray, rainyness has caused me to feel really quite blue.. and quite tired...

I went to bed at 8 last nite.. and not surprisingly.. I'm still tired.. I wish I could just stay home today and sleep... I don't know if this is admittedly part of feeling blue.. or what?

My friend Cathy and i are going to an art festival in Bethesda tomorrow morning... that's all i have planned this weekend. That's all I want to have planned.. other than this art festival.. I really feel like being alone... I don't want to talk to anyone.. I just want to go to sleep.... (ok.. if you know me... you'd know this isn't like me to talk like this.... Why am I feeling like sleeping so much? hmm)

ok.. gotta focus on good things... ah.. 3 things 2 things....

3 things that make me happy:
- my cat sleeping next to me the past 2 nites.. I LOVE it when she's laying right up against me.
- Yesterday there was an awesome note from Angela (roomie) about her boyfriend Russ feeling comfortable from the minute he walked in the house.. that makes me SO happy that people feel comfortable in my space..
- It's Friday. I don't have to go to work for the next 2 days... don't have to put up with ALL the gossip and backstabbing.. the glares.. and being completely ignored by unhappy co-workers with a vendetta.

2 things I am looking forward to today:
- Getting this stupid work day over with... walking out the door at 5PM.
- Unless Onyeali says he wants to hang out tonite... going home and going to sleep.

2 long term things that i look forward to:
- Hearing if I qualified for this medical study into Post Tramatic Stress Disorder
- The Spring... sun.. flowers... green grass growing..

1 person I am going to appreciate:
- hmmm.... nope.. can't think of anyone today..

Have a great weekend ya'll... fake it till ya make it!
onward and upward
kerilyn