High/Low 1.23.09

Hi folks..

What's up? Friday.. another cold day... I don't feel like being chipper and happy today... Feel down right blah to tell you the truth... I feel like I need a really need a good cry.. into my soul cry...a cry that lasts a long while.. and leaves me feeling spent..where I then fall into a deep sleep and wake up a while later... feeling refreshed and anew.

This week for me has definitely been about Change.. I'll tell ya... Change for the country and Change for me individually... I feel a Shift.. Funny.. I'm reading this rockin book called "The Shift" right now.. (Thanks Auntie) and it's about an energy shift in the way in which we look and deal with our government.. And didn't that totally shift this week... I had an amazing experience on Tuesday at the Inauguration.... blew my mind...

There is definitely something Bigger going on here.. again...individually and universally.

My wonderful Auntie sends me my Numerology Chart Every year.. This year has never been so RIGHT ON.. As I share with you all..

"PERSONAL YEAR 2009 – 9

The tide is out in a 9 year, but the harvest is in! This is the year of rewards for all the effort you have made in the past eight years. This is the end, the conclusion of your nine-year cycle, so the seeds you planted in your 1 year are now harvested.

When the tide goes out, it means that the ending of a cycle is at hand, and the energy of this year is more about letting things go, finishing, and dreaming about the next nine years. It is time to re-vision, dream and envision once again how you would like your life to proceed, to allow things to conclude, and wait, because the beginning that you sense is coming is for next year. This is also a time for healing and dreaming on both a figurative and literal level. Have a massage and pay attention to your dreams.

On another note, this is a good money year, because efforts of selfless giving and loving are favored and rewarded this year. Of course the reverse can be true as well.

If you are behaving selfishly and needing to revamp your money picture, with this number of endings, it may be a trying time for money. Do not despair, next near is a 1 year and starting anew is always favored under a 1.

The 9 year means it is a time for you to forgive and forget. Use this year to complete things and bring things to closure on every level. More than any other year, this is the time to follow your intuition and seek to perfect what was begun eight years before.

It is a time for tying everything together, and if you do not take time for finishing things this year, you will most likely find your unfinished business lurking about and needing to be faced again, in nine years."

Holy Moly.. I don't know if I could have said it better myself! Now (2) ships; 1 relationship and 1 friendship have now ended. It has found me running the gammit of different emotions.. back and forth, round and round like a pendulum.. anger.. abandonment...sadness.. fear... dissapointment..a freeing as well... the feeling of loss of someone no longer being in your life... that once was very important. Their energy is still there.. I can feel them... in my heart.. like the warmth in a bed.. reminder of what was just there.. but knowing that when you look over or put your hand there.. they're no longer there.

Another eyeopener for me is this surprise discovery of the importance and unwaivering faith I put in my deepest 'ships' (Relation and Friend). Finding myself taking them down off the pedestal that I have put them on.. admittedly....And deciding to either give them a dusting off to bring back their shine or taking them down all together.. Amazingly 2 doors have closed now and I find other doors are re-opening in my life in the same amount of time... rekindling of old friends...Who knows why? But I'll ride the wave.. buckle my seatbelt as my beloved Auntie says.. and continue to go for the Ride.

Only God knows where it will take me next?

This week I am also very proud of myself.. I love myself. I love who I am.. I have really grown.. I can feel it... Today I feel quite vulnerable and quiet.. underbelly exposed... But I feel I have went into the frey.. sparred with a Kindred Spirit and came out.. bruised and tender to the touch.. but standing strong that I followed my gut.. I didn't second guess myself.. It felt right. I am proud of myself.. I want to give myself a Gold Star for all the expansion I've seen in myself this year.

Have a good weekend.. I will have a quiet one.. as I continue to heal.. and grow stronger as the wound closes up a little bit more every day.

Much Love,
Kerilyn

PS: While I'm feeling a bit melancholy today.. do NOT let me let you think how EXCITED and EXPECTANT I am for all the BEGINNINGS that are coming this year too.. I am SO BLESSED!!!! Whew.. blows my mind!! Yippee! just feeling the dark side of the moon today...