My kitty girl Pez.. Ain't she adorable? She's my girl.. 

Me and Kyra.. my best friend from High School.. We look great!  

High/Low 4.29.05 New day, new post

Ok... that's better.. I wanted to start a new.. since I feel like writing again today.. so I figure you all should know it's a different day.. so woo hoo.. 2 days i write.. a record for 2005 for me!

Today is an overcast day.. gray... blah-ish.. the kind of day for Shortbread cookies dipped in a great cup of coffee.. just how i like it.. really creamy and sweet.. too bad the cookies are not on my 'no grain' things to NOT eat..

I feel good today.. feel pretty... pretty and girly.. pink sweater on. Truth be known.. i've always liked pink but i guess since it's in style more... i find myself wearing it more.. hmm.. am i a fad-ist.. God, I hope not... I've always thought of myself as up to date.. even for a big girl... tall.. big.. whatever you want to call me..

Why am I suddenly thinking of Tiger Balm? Weird.

So i'm not going to catch you all up.. i'm just going to start where I am... Here. Friday.. in my pink sweater. So i decided, a few weeks go with a little help from my friends, to create an area in my house where I can sit, focus and make my greeting cards with more ease.. and space than sitting at my coffee table.. watching TV. If i want to take this making greeting cards thing seriously.. i need to seriously do them then.. So I went on http://washingtondc.craigslist.org/
and posted an ad for a Drafting table.. and found one for 20 bucks.. this week was the drafting table stool.. which I picked up today from a nice gentleman who met me in the parking lot of a restaurant to do the "exchange".. (I don't want strange men coming to my work/home thank you) my dad put up some shelves above the drafting table.. and I "kerilyn'd" my area out with art and japanese lanterns, looks REALLY cute.. all i need now is a light to shine the way and there I go.. if you need me you'll find me in the basement.. walk around and knock on the window instead of the front door cause I won't hear you if i'm down there...

I also need to get my butt going on giving more stuff to kyra to put on my website.. I want to have this website up badly.. but how is it going to get done? um.. if i sit down and do it!

Ever go thru those periods of time when it's hard to sit still? Like you always have to be doing something.. EXCEPT what you have to ACTUALLY be doing? Yea.. that's been me.. well, I'd say since the new year, hmm.. Coincidence with that and turning 30? hmmm....

You like this? My rambling thoughts or would it be better that i put my High/Lows back in it's original format.. Truth is.. this is ACTUALLY how I think.. this disjointed like this.. this, run-on like this.. Eh.. We'll see how I feel tomorrow.. (hopefully I won't be wearing the pink sweater again)

So life is no less confusing than when I wrote every day to you all.. I"m not as depressed as before.. admittedly. There is a chemical reason why I'm not depressed.. and an ever "Woman at Work" emotional reason too.. I'm still as unsure today as to the future of my future as in the past.

I mean.. I still have the 'Big Girl Dreams' (no.. not the dream of being a big girl, I already am that.. but the kindsa dreams a little girl has when she thinks of being big.. conquering her world) I still can't figure out the love thing.. the lust thing.. the "how do i do what I want to do with my career" thing, the "I'm not a party girl and that's OK." thing, the "Everything happens for a reason, even if you don't like it" thing.. yea.. still pondering that one..

anyway.. I'll have you know that it makes me happy to write you all... I feel a creative surge arise in myself as of late, so who knows.. maybe you'll hear from me more often.. God I hope so.. this journalling thing is truly theraputic..

This weekend I'm going to Ikea.. that always makes me happy. Even though I go there and don't buy anything/much. Eh.. And I have a date on Sunday.. a first date.. so we'll see how that goes..

If only the blue sky would come out..

Have a great weekend.
Kerilyn
Ancora Imparo 'I am still learning" in Latin

"Don't ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive." -Harold Whitman

High/Low 4.28.05

Hiety Ho Folks!

Surprise!!!!! How the heck are you all? Have you missed me? Truth is, Today is no different from any other day.. no difference between today and yesterday.. and tomorrow.. it's just that today I decided to write to you, so I guess that's different huh? Well it's spring, time for rebirth and reform. Time to take your winter coat to the dry cleaners and leave it in your closet with the plastic on it for the summer so when you, on the first cold day in the fall, rip through the plastic keeping your coat so nice and clean and crisp (and in my case, SANS cat hair thank goodness) it's all ready for you to go.... Time to dust off that lawn mower and take it for a ride around the lawn, for more fresh fruit in season, and eating Corn on the cob, for keeping the windows down in the car and doing that wave thing with your hand in the wind. For me, spring is the time of the year when I begin to consider eating ice cream on a warm day (I have sensitive teeth so it has to be warm out for me to enjoy it.. has to practically melt in my hand) and for one of my favorite summer pleasures.. Listening to the Crickets at nite as I go to bed with the windows of my bedroom open...

Here is my thought for the day... wanna hear it? Good, that's what I thought. :) kiddin. Anyway, I am one of those kindsa people that are constantly in my head.. trying to figure out the code behind this life, trying to figure it out.. take the puzzle apart and put it back together. Sometimes life, the universe, God, Yahweh, you name them, slaps my hand and says "your not supposed to do that Kerilyn.. your supposed to just live in the now and enjoy it." (note: hand slaps from the universe can hurt. )"Yea, yea..." I tell life, the universe, God and Yahweh. I still want to know.. I'm still curious. There's this movie.. "I heart Huckabees" ('deep thoughts' kinda movie) and there's a GREAT buncha lines.. Lily Tomlin says "Many people claim they want to know the ultimate truth of reality, they want to pier under the surface at the 'big everything'. But this can be a very painful process, full of surprises, it can dismantle the world as you know it, that's why people prefer to remain on the surface of things... Let sleeping dogs lie." Yea.. I agree it can be.. BUT... I would rather be the kind of person who's constantly exploring to find it.. even including hand slaps from life, the universe, God and Yahweh, from time to time.. cause it's more meaningful than just not asking.. not searching.

That was my post for Thursday.. rambling thoughts... that wasn't finished but today is friday and I am not in the same frame of mind exactly.. so fresh day gets a fresh posting.

Kerilyn