High/Low 6.27.07

Hey there everyone...

Wednesday... SO wish it was Friday... Sorry I've been MIA.. lots going on.. and without me starting to cry again (too late.)... I'd rather not go into it today.. please bear with me... Let's just say that today is the day that I really wish I didn't have to see anyone.. or talk to anyone.. I feel raw... empty... and exposed... I should be proud of myself... I guess... but I just know that all I feel is extreme sadness.. with a tear stuck in my eye...I just pray the rest of this week goes by fucking with a quickness... (excuse my language) cause this is SO challenging..

but I will try to focus on what is good... onto 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:
1. The way the early morning feels.. I totally ran out of my coffee 1/2 and 1/2 yesterday and so at 6:30 this morning I ran to the grocery.. I love the stillness..the silence.. feels like I should be tip toeing around.
2. Thanks to Kevins love of a Good Bargain.. Been considering getting serious about buying a bike to ride to work.. the daydreaming of it makes me happy...
3. I talked to my boy Matthew last nite for a while.. I just love him.. and miss him.. he's on his way to going to Iraq soon.. and he might... be passing thru here on July 3rd.. I will soak in every second I get to spend with him if i am able..

2 things i am looking forward to today:
1. I am going to make it so people leave me alone today... I need to be left alone.
2. Going home after work.... and just chilling.. I'm predicting this day to be a tough one.. so I .. ooh.. maybe I'll go to the old town pool after work by myself.. can't see my tears in a pool...

2 long term things I'm looking forward to:
1. Can't think that far ahead right now....

1 person i am going to appreciate:
I don't know... You... Me.... the ants in my kitchen sink who are not there anymore... Endings... and sunny days... hearing birdies outside... and my kitty girl... my parents... god love them... and my wonderful wonderful sister who has been my rock.. MY ROCK GIRL... My friends.. and their support... and amazing insight... for my tears.. which keep me in check with God... My spirit family.. PLEASE PLEASE be near me today... Ok.. this is turning into a personal journal entry... so I'm signing off...

have a good one.
love YOU.... no matter what..
kerilyn

High/Low 6.21.07

Morning!

Thursday! And WHAT a beautiful morning!! Actually yesterday was a beautiful day as well!!! I hope your having a good week! I am! Anyway let's just move onto 3 things 2 things

3 things that make me happy:
1. Wow.. I got some really great compliments yesterday... About how I look good without my glasses.. and that my nails look nice.. but the most amazing compliment was.. a group of us were walking out to our happy hour and I am in a good mood so i'm smiley and joking around.. and someone stopped and said in front of everyone...a boy no less... "Did you know that your smile is contageous?" And then my friend Bianca said.. "I have told her that." Wow.. How awesome is that.. MY smile is contageous? Is that not the nicest thing anyone could say to someone??? Uh yea.. that totally made my day..
2. I AM FINISHED with the large job I'm working on!! I'm going to get back the final crosscheck from another designer who checks it..today..so I can send it on to the salesman and get it off my plate! and I ALSO was couriered the signed and Approved Dwgs for the first large job!!! YEA.. it was so nice.. I was walking around doing the happy dance.. when I looked at the dwgs that i did and they had NO EXCEPTIONS!!! Whew! That also made my day!
3. Happy Hour was really fun.. I'm so grateful to be at a job where everyone (for the most part) is really cool and fun to be around.. It was also good to get outside of work and talk to the design intern who is with us for 2 months or so... Really great time last nite!!! I really do hope we do this on a monthly basis!!
2 things that I'm looking forward to today:
1. I'm so excited to get those sign off dwgs.. today I get everything together so we can get a proposal to the client for the job... So THAT will be off my plate too!!! (There is a stinky small job that is PRESSING that I have to get onto on Monday.. eww)
2. I am hanging out with my funky cool medina girlfriend Kellee tonite! We're going to grab some grub and then going to a movie! I haven't seen Kellee in a long time.. and I'm so excited.. I love to be around her because she takes good care of herself.. she always looks nice.. and being around her makes me want to take better care of myself... with regards to what i wear.. and makeup.. hair etc...

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. Having Saturday day to hang out.. to do errands.. and rest before my dad comes to go to the Nationals Game (looks like the weather might be perfect!)
2. Truthfully.. I have had so many jobs that I have rarely had the opportunity to have a review and discuss yearly increases in salary. I guess I look forward to the opportunity to learn what I can do to improve my job.. as well as to discuss that yearly salary increase... I am excited because I really do enjoy what I'm doing.. so it makes me feel good to be able to do this...finally.

1 person I am going to appreciate:
You... just for being you... Thank You.

Ok.. gotta dive into my day... Juicy!
It's MY life!!! MY LIFE!!!
Love,
Kerilyn

High/Low 6.20.07

Morning....

Yawn.. I'm weirdly really tired this morning.. Maybe it's the weather.. maybe it's the cycle of the moon.. who knows... I just know that I could totally lay back in my bed and sleep a few more hours. Ok.. I just have to say this before I go on appreciating... I'm really bummed... last nite the forecast said STRONG thunderstorms with damaging winds to start around 4:30.. so we decided not to go into DC to the FREE REGGAE CONCERT (just saying that makes me cringe) well.. there was absolutely positively NO RAIN! Ugh... It was probably a kickass concert.. and we weren't there..double ugh!

Ok! Now that that's over... onto 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:
1. I am happy that it's Wednesday... that i don't have any meetings and that I can just plug away at work today... AND.. tonite everyone at work is getting together to have happy hour.. Thankfully there is a core group of us have fun together.. Which makes me liking my job so great!
2. I am REALLY happy that my eyebrows are looking SO much better after getting them waxed after almost 2 months! (Thankfully they grew back in after my regular nail woman Ann wacked off 1/4 of my eyebrow 2 months ago!)
3. I been having an itch to do something nice for myself lately... buy something.. or do something... take an afternoon by myself.. and go shopping.. or visit a shop that inspires me... or go somewhere that inspires me.. OOH.. or to seriously take some time out and create a new card...
4. I also have been having an itch to go to the pool in the evenings.. I might start doing that next week every nite after work! Maybe.. I'll bring my bathing suit and towel and go straight from work!

2 things that I am looking forward to today:
1. Going to happy Hour.. yea!
2. Just going thru my day... nothing major today...

2 long term things that I am looking forward to:
1. Looking down at pretty painted toes and manicured feet.
2. I want to do something spiritual sometime soon... I need to step up my vibration of spirit around me..

1 person i am going to appreciate:
I have been looking at all these AWESOME WEBSITES.. I'm just going to list some here. that WHEN I open up my shop in the future.. THIS is some of the cute stuff that I want to have...

http://www.seejanework.com
http://loftparty.com
http://store.sprouthome.com
http://shopgrun.com
http://www.wrapables.com

ok.. that's about it for today... I hope you have a good Wednesday as well!
Much Love.
Kerilyn

High/Low 6.18.07

Morning!!

How ya doin? i'm feeling much better... weirdly..I owe a BIG hug of Gratitude to my Auntie.. Thank You Auntie for helping release me from the churning churning inside my head.. Thank you for helping me remember the God Given Fact that IT IS MY LIFE... Seriously.. i feel liberated from emotional broken record playing (and feeling) over and over again... So Thank You...

Ok.. I feel a large part of myself come back... and I'm ready to hit the play button on the movie that was paused called.. 'Kerilyn DOES believe in The Secret'...

Onto 3 things 2 things

3 things that make me happy:
1. Kevin and I are taking my dad to a Washington Nationals Game on Saturday as a Fathers Day gift!! YEA! AND.. the first 25,000 people get a FREE HAT! Yea! I'm so excited that my dad wants to come!! YEA!!!
2. I got all my laundry done last nite!!! Such a good feeling! AND.. I spend a few hours on Saturday cleaning my apartment that I'll say.. looks pretty good!
3. Someone that I look up to spiritually.. told a friend of mine that I do have a Gift..that I am talented and that I have great spirit on my side... YEA I've always felt that inside.. but to get validation from someone I revere (SPIRITUALLY SPEAKING) makes me happy inside.

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. I have a 1:30 meeting today where I HOPE AND PRAY that the client will sign off on the drawings so we can give them a proposal tomorrow and we can order this large job! FINGERS CROSSED!
2. I have nothing to do tonite.. I am going to make a yummy chicken caesar salad wrap and enjoy a nice glass of wine..

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. I have a busy week but a fun week ahead.. Tomorrow is a FREE REGGAE CONCERT!!! that I am going to sneak out of work early to go!! Then Wednesday I have Happy Hour with my job.. then Thursday I'm hanging out with my girl Kellee!! We're hopefully going to go to see 'Once' and then.. Friday..I'm going to the finals of Naomi's comedy show!! Then Saturday the BaseBall Game!! See.. busy week for me!
2. Painting my apartment!

1 person I am going to appreciate:'
ME!!! I am sooo damn proud of myself (thanks to you auntie) for helping me see that It doesn't HAVE to be the way I think or anyone else thinks it to be.. that I CREATE THE RULES FOR MY LIFE!!! Whew.. I feel SO much better I can't tell ya!

Ok.. I'm off to swan dive into my day... I hope you have a good one too!
Much love,
Kerilyn

High/Low 6.15.07

Morning...

Happy Friday to ya...what to say... I'm glad it's Friday... looks like it's going to be another cooler day... but a dry one so that's good.. (NOT that I think we don't still need the rain)

Not much I want to talk about right now.. so onto 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:
1. A moment of clarity where I feel my own self-empowerment.. KNOWING that everything is happening exactly as it should...
2. Waking up feeling refreshed (would be even nicer if it was on a Saturday)
3. The Smell of everything Aveda - I use the Color Conserve Shampoo/Conditioner and the Face Wash.. and I LOVE the way they smell!!! Oh.. and the Essential Oil Madagascar.. Smells SO nice!
4. Yesterday I got a voicemail from the End user on the RSM McGladdery job that i've been talking to you about.. we installed a "mockup" so they can see what their new space will look like.. and the End user left me a voicemail saying she approved the mockup so ALL the work that i did does not have to be changed.. I have a meeting on Monday afternoon for her to sign off on the final drawings before we give her a proposal for the 84 stations! Yea me!

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Tonite.. I'm spending time with my friends Stephanie and Scott... we are doing our traditional Birthday hang out/catch up.. (Stephs birthday was Tuesday! YEA GIRL!) so we're going to listen to some jazz at the Smithsonian.
2. Finishing up with laying in three floors of furniture for the other large job i'm working on (154 stations!) I SHOULD (if things go smoothly) get done with this job by the end of next week which is EXACTLY on my internal schedule! Yea Me again!

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. Maybe putting up flowerboxes in my windows again??? Maybe.
2. Spending some more time with Naomi in the next few weeks... I miss her.

1 person I am going to appreciate:
I want to appreciate Fate today.. Destiny..Our Life's Chart Fulfilled... Whatever you call it... I want to appreciate that I might not understand why I feel the way I feel.. but that there is a larger plan.. and that one day I will be able to see the road I travelled more clearly..

"In the end, everything is ok... If it's not ok, it's not the end." - Unknown

Have a good weekend.
Much love.
Kerilyn

High/Low 6.14.07

Morning all...

How's it going? I'm feeling really good today... Deep Breath in......

Looking forward to the weekend... Just relaxing hopefully.. nothing to major going on..

ok.. onto 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:
1. Waking up to a cool morning breeze...so nice...
2. OOH.. my friend Steph sent me this AWESOME WEBSITE! with spiritual music information on it!! AWESOME!!
3. I got a lot of compliments yesterday.. some that the color of my shirt looked good on me.. others that they like the color of my nails (pink red) .. that made me feel good.

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Plugging away at this job.. relaxed..without the pressure of a deadline.. NICE!!
2. Tonite at 5:30.. I have a spiritual appointment...a 'reading'.. I am REALLY REALLY looking forward to it!!!

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. This Saturday there is a FREE SHREDDING EVENT!! My trunk is FILLED with stuff I need shredded.. (I didn't make it to the previous event... cause I was in the middle of moving!) I'm SO excited to get all that paper out of my trunk!
2. Having my shelves put up in my room so I can unpack some more.. and get started making more cards!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Naomi... God Love her.. last nite was the semi-finals of her Comedy competition.. and RIGHT when the first comic started... the impending thunderstorm knocked out the electricity.. 300 people in the dark for like 15 minutes... the power didn't go back on in time.. so we all had to use the lights from our cell phones to get out.. It was a very unfortunate thing to happen...but I think she handled it with the utmost Grace.. and I am sure that the rescheduled show will be just as good.. even better!!!

Ok.. I'm off... have a good one!
Much love to you.
Kerilyn

High/Low 6.13.07

Morning...

Wednesday.. thankfully.. this week is going by nice and fast...

ok.. cutting to the chase... 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:
1. The way the earth smells RIGHT before it's going to storm.. last nite.. a thunderstorm came in with a quickness and it smelled pure.. and earthenly right before the rain hit the pavement...
2. My friend Anis from SCAD... is in a Spoken Word Competition... check him out!!! his poem is GOOD!!! How he memorizes all those words... Rock On Anis!!!
3. Naomi's Funniest Fed Comedy Competition has almost sold out of tickets!!! WOO HOO!!!

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. HOPEFULLY.. by this afternoon I'll be plugging away at a 180 station job.. that I don't have an IMMEDIATE deadline on.. which makes me happy!!!
2. I'm probably going to go support Naomi at her show tonite..if I can get a ticket!

2 long term things that I'm looking forward to:
1. Seeing Liz and Matthew sometime soon in Atlanta!!
2. Thursday at 5:30... I'm getting some spiritual help for my churning churning head...

1 person I am going to appreciate:
All of you... for being wonderful.. and artistic..and helping to make me the wonderful person I feel I am today!

Ok.... gotta boogy!!!
Much Love.
Kerilyn

High/Low 6.11.07

Morning!

Deep Breath IN...... How was your weekend? It's Monday.... Another week....

I'm not feeling so chatty today.... been feeling out of sorts with myself lately...
so I'll just skip to 3 things 2 things

3 things that make me happy:
1. Thanks to Kevin and my Dad... Having Ceiling Fans in my apartment again.. SO nice over my bed when I'm going to sleep.. makes for a deeper nites sleep... (Last nite I fell asleep at 6:30!! I was pooped... )
2. Having wonderful friends.. I got a wonderful email from my friend Mary Ann... Thanks Honey!! Let's get together and catch up soon!!!
3. Being one step closer to having my kitty girl Pez Dread lock free (I dont' understand how quickly she starts to turn into Bob Marley with the dreads.. Thanks to Kevin for that too...

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Um... Starting a new project this afternoon... gotta finish up what I have been working on.. and can get started on my new project today!
2. Going home.. and possibly going for a walk if it doesn't rain..

2 long term things I'm looking forward to:
1. OOH.. I'm so excited to start going to the Old Town Pool to swim.. and bask in the sun (WITH 50 spf on though) I love the times going to the pool!!!
2. I really really really want to see this movie!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Naomi for her perserverance... Pez for laying there so still when we cut out her Dreads... Kristine for being the best sister in the world... early morning organizing of my file cabinet feels good!... a new Reggae CD that rocks.. having my dad compliment me on my apartment...my wonderful friends Liz and Matthew saying they need a Kerilyn 'fix' (that made me feel really good).. my friend Kellee saying the same thing last week.. (Am I the luckiest woman in the world?? uh yes!)

Ok.. that's where I am...

Have a great day!
Much Love..
Kerilyn

High/Low 6.8.07

Happy Friday to you all!!!

Yea!! I feel a burst of happiness and gratefulness of all that is around me.. I got THIS in an email yesterday from the creator of "The Secret" and it totally rejuvinated me... you KNOW I am going to hang this in my station at work... If you check it out.. I hope it revives you too...

SO... Anything exciting going on??? fill me in if there is!

ok.. onto 3 things 2 things

3 things that make me happy:
1. Spending time with my sparkly friend Roxanne.. I love being around her.. (especially since she's in the same business I am.. we can "talk shop" and she understands EXACTLY what i'm talking about!) I am grateful for her.. and for our talks last nite.
2. Those A-HA! moments when I really am ACTIVELY focusing positively on my life and what I desire. When I really realize that it IS me that is creating my reality.. that the only person to "find fault" with.. is myself for thinking and manifesting what I do not want.. cause I know I get it..
3. I got an email from my AWESOME girlfriend Kellee last nite... she wants to hang out next week.. yet ANOTHER girlfriend that makes me love who I am more!! YIPPITY SKIPPITY~!!!

2 things I look forward to today:
1. I am really happy that today.. I have to make changes to this floor plan.. put the tiles in.. and check it.. and then send it off to crosscheck and then... I CAN GET STARTED ON THE OTHER LARGE JOB I HAVE!!! WOO HOO!! I love when my internal schedule looks clear.. and not totally booked!
2. After work.. I'm going to hop to and get my nails done.. then my sister and her FIANCE.. are coming and we're all going out to dinner.!!! (I'm still trying to ponder where..) YEA!

2 long term things I'm looking forward to:'
1. Looking at my card inventory and feeling like I have PLENTY!
2. Hmm... this weekend Kristine and i are going shopping (want to get more storage for my place) i'm kinda psyched about it..

1 person i am going to appreciate:
My wonderful wonderful friends Liz and Matthew... I love them very much!!! They are wonderful examples of what a successful Marriage is... and what.. to me, True Love is...

Ok.. gotta float into the abyss of this day.... Gracefully and with love toward myself!!!
Have a GREAT GREAT weekend!
Love you all!!!
Kerilyn

High/Low 6.7.07

Morning!

How are you? It's THURSDAY!!! Ok.. cutting to the 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:
1. When I go for a walk with Kristy in the evenings.. we chat and walk fast.. through the streets of Del Ray which I love! I always feel so much better after a little exercise..
2. The fact that tomorrow is FRIDAY.. and PAYDAY.. and my sister is coming!!!
3. My dad called me last nite and told me that he's coming on Sunday morning to install my ceiling fans.. and hopefully (fingers crossed) he'll put up the shelves over my desk so I can unpack more boxes..
4. My afternoon meeting went well.. i was really nervous because I had to run the meeting by myself.. and as much as I am really happy doing what I'm doing.. I still get really nervous that i might look stupid or say something wrong.. And meeting with a client is always nervewracking.. especially these 2 ladies.. but it went GREAT!!!!

2 things that i'm looking forward to today:
1. I've had this strange EXTREME itchy feeling all over my body... oh my gosh... for the past few days.. and I'm going to go to the doctor this afternoon to see if she can help... (I know.. it's TMI.. but it's been making me want to scratch and scratch...)
2. I'm having dinner with my girlfriend Roxanne!!! YEA!!! After Drs appt.. I have to go to Job Site.. and then to dinner... so it'll be a busy afternoon but I end up with my sparkley girl who I am excited to talk about 'The Secret" with!!!

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. My first consignment checks from the places in Savannah!!! I really do gotta get on my cards.. Supply.. Demand... I feel the Demand coming.. but the supply is low!
2. My neighbors when I lived in NYC (lived there till I was 7) emailed me and wants my address.. they're having a reunion in Long Island in August.. and I'm kinda psyched to go.. Part of that group is my Aunts and Uncles.. and my cousins... that I RARELY SEE!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Yellow Butterflies on our walk, Meowing Kitties in my ear, trying to wake me up... Sleeping with the windows open all nite... Morning Coffee... Planning on organizing my things....

K.. gotta rumble.. TTYL!
My love.. to each of you.
Kerilyn

High/Low 6.6.07

Morning!

Yea... I haven't been in the mood to write... Meh... now I am.. and i gotta make it quick cause I gotta boogy to work!

onto 3 things 2 things

3 things that make me happy:
1. Wow.. Been feeling a bit distant from "The Secret" and thinking positively.. and i read an email this morning about Gratitude and creating Gratitude lists.. and it washed me in the energy of being happy and remembering that what i'm thinking about.. I'm bringing about... Good Times!
2. My kitty girl is now at my apartment again.. and just looking at her cute orange face makes me happy.. waking up in the middle of the night and feeling her near me.. sigh.. no better feeling!
3. I'm excited to have dinner and catch up with my girl Roxanne on Thursday.. AND..my sister is coming out to spend some time with me this weekend.. YEA SISTER TIME!
4. I had an hour long conversation with my boss yesterday... I really do love my job.. (95% love it!)

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. I have a meeting at 3pm with a client and I'm looking forward to it being over? (Is that something to look forward to?) HA!
2. It's Wednesday... I am going to try to go for a walk after work.. (Kristy.. I know you busy but I'm going to hit the pavement anyway)

2 long term things I'm looking forward to:
1. Hmm... A job thing... Getting RSM McGladdery DONE! DONE DONE DONE!!!
2. I'm looking forward to the day when I DON'T FEEL the way I've been feeling...

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Life... Ladybugs on the window when you go to Target (Thanks Bertha!), Late nite talks with my love Matthew, Espadrilles, The Weather Channel and it's elevator music, Kevin and his coupons for free cat food, Surprise Picnics, The breeze at nite when I'm drifting off to sleep, my beautiful (clean) red car!... just to name a few things...

Ok.. I'm off... Hope your doing well!
Much love.... I'm thinking about you.
:) Kerilyn