High/Low 2.28.06

hey.

how's everyone doing? how are you all out there in cyberland ('Rent' Reference)? Why don't you drop me a line... tell me how your doing.....

Waves of "oh man.. I think I'm coming down with something" keep coming over me.. yesterday I had a slight fever.. and body aches.. and then it went away.. then i woke up at 4:30am .. with SEVERE thirst.. and my a stuffy nose.. now i have a headache and a little nauseous.. and i pray that this is just a little anxiety about getting everything done and packed for mexico.. and all work done before i go too.

I am so agitated everybody.. the phone company said that their "elite" technicians will be out to my house by 6pm to fix the line.. i got home.. and they never came.. so i stood outside on my cell talking to the phone company.. i told the women i talked to that i understood that she had nothing to do with it.. and then i got upset, yelled a bit.. So... they "say" they'll be out today... in the meantime.. I am not able to record anything on Tivo.. and while your thinking.. "what's the big deal"... there are the little things in life you enjoy.. and watching my few shows are one of them.. I pray that the phone company sticks to their word and fixes this TODAY.. because it's today or tomorrow then I'm gone.. and I'll be really upset if I can't have my fave shows recorded while I'm away...

anyway.. i'm off to get ready.. tonite i'm going to get a pedicure.. then i have laundry to do.. and start packing.. i also want to go to the mall.. want to get another memory chip for my camera.. and buy a journal.. and would like to see about getting a new bathing suit.. (last minute? uh yes..)

have a good day.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.27.06

Hi ya'll..

Monday.. I stayed over my parentals last nite.. hung out with my sister.. so I wasn't home to do my usual routine.. of writing you so I'm dropping a line now. So Thursday at 4am I'll be at the airport on my way to Playa del Carmen, Mexico for 4 days.. I'm excited about some aspects, and nervous about others.. kinda psyched to catch up on my reading.. i want to buy a new journal before i go.. have my ipod all updated and charged.. with my sunblock... nice there's only 3 days this week.. i PRAY they are not crazy like last week was..

The best part of the whole weekend was I was sitting on the couch.. and the mailman came up.. and opened the door.. which means there's a package.. Angela gets lots of packages so i figured it was for her.. i didn't even get up.. a bit later... i checked the mail and it was for me! It was from my Uncle Ben.. I couldn't think of what it could be... did i leave something in NY when I was there last??? I opened it up... he sent me 2 lbs of my favorite coffee.. 8 o'clock coffee.... how sweet is that?? He wrote a little note.. hoping i enjoy the coffee! I cried.. that made my DAY! Gratzie Zio Ben... voi essere migliore!!!!

Nothing really much else to say.. so I'll get to work now... have a good one.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.24.06

Hey there...

It's Friday Thank goodness.. I have a busy day ahead of me.. so busy at work that I've been taking 5 minute lunches this week... and leaving at 6ish.. i know.. waah waah..

Well my land line has been fixed from the outside of the house.. and it STILL does not work so I have to have someone come in and try to figure out what is goign on inside the house.. LOVELY! I hear it's really expensive to have someone come out.. i'm SO looking forward to that! Sigh..

I really dont' have anything else to say. so i won't.
have a good weekend..
kerilyn

High/Low 2.23.06

Hey there peeps.

What's up? Thursday thank goodness... at this time next week I will be on an airplane.. (yea.. kerilyn does not look forward to that part.. yucky turbulance) and NOT thinking about work at all. It's another gloomy day outside.. no snow like yesterday which is lovely.. but still gloomy...

I have a Drs appt this morning at 9.. so I have some extra time to get ready/fart around this morning... I had a good meditation today... I woke up in that same frame of mind i've been in lately.. feeling hopeless.. and somehow.. the meditation kinda eased that feeling a bit.. who knows...

So the land line at the house is still not fixed.. I talked to the phone company.. the deadline to fix it was yesterday and of course they waited till the last day... the last moment.. so now it's Friday.. it should be fixed by Friday.. whatever.. I'm getting used to not being able to chat at home..

I was in bed last nite by 9:30.. reading this AWESOME magazine that I somehow got in the mail (Auntie? Did you send this to me?) called Spirituality and Health magazine.. wow.. SO up my alley..

Wish my faith was stronger at this phase of my life.. it makes me quite sad.. I don't for the life of me know what happened.. What? two years ago.. I was brewing with hope.. and newfound education of spirit.. and how we manifest our destiny.. and now.. I still believe in all that.. but I guess I am not enthusiastic about it as well as I am challenged to believe it pertains to me.. just to everyone else.. lol. silly kerilyn.. I desire it would turn around... right now. Words my auntie said to me last year have been bouncing off the cavernous confines of my brain.. "U have all these spiritual things in your house.. but you don't LIVE them.." yea.. I know.. I totally agree.. now how to change that.. that's the question....

Work.. sigh.. so draining... I can't really focus because there is so much to do.. so much to catch up on... to cover the slack left when that salesman just resigned.. the 3 of us in the office are just running around like chickens with our heads cut off.. trying to keep it together... And we're going to mexico.. so there's a lot to do.

ok ya'll.. that's all for me and my ramblings today..
have a good one.
onward and upward
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.22.06

yo.

wednesday.. it's a gloomy day outside... rainy and i'm sure cold... makes for long commutes to work today.. yea lookin forward to that.. not really. REALLY wish I could just go back to bed..

mexico is a week away! I want to be excited at the fact that i'll be laying on a beach.. drinking something fruity while I read/listen to music/etc.. but i'm also anticipatory...I don't know many at my job.. and that's who i'll be laying in the sun with.. eh.. we'll see.

my stupid land line is still not working.. today is the deadline for the phone company to fix it.. sigh..it's been strange and yet nice not being able to talk to anyone while i'm home...

Saw this weeks 'Greys Anatomy'.. DAMN! It's GOOD! Every week it gets better and better! I"m tellin ya.. this show is well written.. cause it keeps me on the edge of my seat!

Not much else to say.. feeling blah today.. well.. more like blue today but i'm not in the mood to chat about it...

onward and upward
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.21.06

Hiya!

Tuesday... not close enough to Friday.. argh! It's still pretty dang cold out... hats and scarves and warming up the car included..

I don't know what is going on with me.. but something is for sure. Something is changing for me..within me... physical, chemical changes(whew).. as well as emotional and spiritual... I can feel it.. I feel like in unfamiliar surroundings with respect to my life.. everything that was familiar has moved out to a distance.. like a mirage.. and I can't really grasp what is REALLY right in front of me.. it feels unsafe so I keep moving.. keep trying to figure out who this new person is.. and trying not to hold on to the sentimentality of the old one too much...

Work was weird... this unsettling feeling in the air at work.. what's going to happen to us (3) in the small office.. layoffs.. moving to the main office... all this unsettled business floated around yesterday.. it was a familiar feeling.... Had to cancel lunch with Kristine.. because the owners of the company were coming.. i was bummed. found out in the afternoon that we're not going anywhere.. and the details of what's going to happen next which made me feel a bit relieved...

Went on a date last nite.. a spontaneous same day date (ok.. the planner in me is still amazed at this phenomenon) 3/4 of the date I enjoyed myself.. but 1/4 of it i was definitely questioning my newfound spontaneous side.. but that 1/4 was more toward the beginning so i was happily surprised by the switch. Got home quite late.. WAY later than this Kerilyn girl would publicly keep her eyes open for..

So needless to say.. I'm tired.. and feeling out of sorts this morning.. procrastinating getting ready.. slept in a bit.. didn't meditate as long.. so my morning routine is thrown off a bit.. I want to say that I really really want to go to bed early.. but why is it when the evening comes.. and i'm sitting on the couch watching my Tivo'd shows.. that I can't walk my self up them stairs before my usual slatted time for rest.. hmmm weird.

ok.. enough rambling...
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.20.06

hey ya'll...

monday (eww) presidents day and i don't have off (double eww) .. guess the only good thing is the traffic will be light.. low key weekend for me... which is good i've just not been in the mood to do much..

i am not feeling too well today.. feel a bit nautious.. ugh.. don't know why either.. not feeling very chatty either..

so my land line phone is still out.. and i get really bad cell coverage at my house.. so if you've tried to contact me... it's probably not worked out really well.. HOPEFULLY the phone company will have my phone fixed by mid week.. (ugh) so I can resume normal chatting..

ok.. bear with me.. i'm not feeling chatting today... SOOO wish i didn't have to go to work today..
:(
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.17.06

Man.. I'll tell ya..

Thank God it's Friday because I don't know how many more odd and upsetting things can happen in one week.. this has been one of the LONGEST weeks i can remember.. and i'm OVER IT!

Ok.. yesterday I was slapped upside my head that the one salesman that sometimes gives me anxiety was on his way to the owners to resign... the company had begun making changes in the process to which the business is handled.. and he didn't like it. I also found out on Wednesday that the lead designer is resigning to be home with her daughter.. So shit.. now i have that unsettled feeling in my stomach that i'm OH so familiar with... What are they going to do now? Are they going to decide they want me in Beltsville full time (i don't like Maryland... i don't like the energy at all!) I dont' want to do the commute to MD every damn day.. sigh.. So I'm working on all these projects for a salesman who no longer works here.. Sigh.. I can say that yesterday was QUITE an unproductive day for me... I was in shock basically all day..

Then my date told me he wasn't ready for a relationship... which bummed me out.. put me in victim (whoa is me) mode for a while.. but I"m getting a little better pulling myself out of that.. We'll see what happens.. he emailed me and apologized... we're going to chat this weekend more.. Sigh.. BIG SIGH...

And THEN!!.. My stupid land line phone at the house won't work.. !! OOOOOOOOH!!!! I am still SO agitated and frustrated with that.. it's not that the service is cut off.. the bill is paid.. but i noticed that when the snow came this weekend.. that the connection was staticky.. and now.. nothing.. i tried making a phone call last nite and got nothing.. I went into rage mode last nite trying to figure it out... I came downstairs this morning to call AT&T to have a service call but forgot.. I don't have a phone!

And I have to go to Beltsville this morning for a furniture presentation.. I"m not psyched about it..

Thankfully though.. I went ot the gym last nite and had a GREAT workout!!! Ran another mile.. I"m SO glad I'm running.. I feel SO much better when I do. Then came home and ate leftover mexican food.. yum! That's about all that happened good yesterday..

So it's friday.. and I"m agitated at the phone... and not ready for whatever changes come from this salesman/designer leaving... sigh.. Why wont' the freaking Corcoran just call me???? gRRRRR

Ok.. gotta go get ready for another installment of "this is Kerilyns life." (insert sarcasm here)
heheh.. i'm laughing at myself...
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.16.06

Hey ya'll...

What's shakin? For some reason.. I'm really tired today (no.. I went to bed around 10:30) I'm really really ready for this week to be over..this one has been a long one.

Yesterday was a strange day, almost from beginning to end.. At work..we had our weekly staff meeting and it ended up in a loud arguement between 2 people... which made it uncomfortable the rest of the day.. Actually our staff meetings really throw a wrench into my day.. I shouldn't complain it makes it shorter.. but it still was quite awkward.. I kinda thought there was going to be a fistfight... thankfully no.

The afternoon went quickly.. my good friend Matthew fedex'd me a cool CD that i totally enjoyed on the way home.. Matishayu.. Reggae music... and the guy is a hasidic jewish man.. makes for an interesting combination.. Music was pretty good! Really good beat boxing track.. that i listened to a few times..

Then I had date.. we went to eat Thai.. chatted.. and came over to my house to watch 'Broken Flowers'.. we ended up chatting till 10 and never got to the movie.. I am working on my 'stuff' at the moment.. because I've experienced most men being one way.. and he is the universes response to me wanting to be proven that guys aren't all alike.. (i'm being vague and ambiguous.. don't want to vomit this to the world.) We're going to hang out this weekend again to actually watch the movie.. (Good sign eh? that he wants to continue to hang out with me?) Silly Kerilyn.

Ok.. off into this day I dash.. feeling a bit frustrated.. and a flurry of different emotions.. oh well.
one step at a time right?
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.15.06

Hiety Ho my lovelies!!!

What's Shakin??? It's Wednesday.. 2 more days!

My very adorable friend Matthew emailed me to wish me a Happy V Day and told me that a song he really enjoys reminds him of me.. I am really flattered. Doesn't it give you ooglies when someone says something reminds them of you? Makes me feel so special. Well Matthew FedEx'd the CD to my office today. I can't WAIT to get it and listen to it!!! Thanks Matthew honey (Liz, Tell Matthew I said it made my day!)

Hmm.. what to say.... Went to the gym last nite again, ran another mile... yesterdays mile was a bit easier.. usually the second day is harder.. then did the elliptical for 15 minutes then pushed myself on a leg workout.. I am SO SORE today! Whew.. it's like my muscles are saying "Keri.. nice to meet you! We're your muscles!" I say back to them.. "Back at'cha muscles.. don't go away.. i'll be using you more often so get used to me". I fight my ego a bit with the fact that there was a time when I could run 6 miles in a clip.. and now 1 is about all I can muster out of me. Oh well.. one mile at a time.

I felt Great after the gym.. pumped up.. My friend Janet called me and was at a local restaurant.. so I met her out with her 2 co-workers. Well I had a great time! Janets co-workers seemed really cool! Talked about spiritual things.. it's so nice when I can refresh my own energy of what I believe in.. when I talk about it... I'll admit that there's been a layer of dust on my faith lately.. and I don't know why... Also.. and this is SO cool... I was showing the girls my Benchmark Cards.. and the waitress started reading over one of the womans shoulders.. she wanted my business card and said that she wants a few of the cards! Cool! I was so excited. Word of Mouth bebes.. I want to sell them, yes.. but I think part of it is just getting them out there.. in the hands of others to share.. and hopefully it'll boomerang back at me. I hope I get an email/phone call. that would be cool! I also hope we all get together and hang out again.. I had fun.

And.. tonite. I have a 3rd date! woo hoo! We're going to hang out and watch a movie/eat dinner.. I am Psyched!!!! Hopefully this will help propel me into having permagrin throughout the entire day!

anyway ya'll.. I hope you have a good day!
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.14.06

Happy Tuesday to ya..

How are you? ok ok.. happy valentines day... bleck... (secretly I am wishing I had a valentine.. so don't let me fool you) I feel good this morning...

Last nite I found an old friend online (right before I left work) and it brought back a FLOOD of memories... good and bad.. but mostly that there was a time that i was in shape.. that i loved to run.. so i was PUMPED!! I wasn't planning to go to the gym.. but it suddenly became not even a thought in my head.. and there I found myself.. at the gym.. waiting in line for a treadmill.. I ran a mile.. whew.. I haven't run in a while.. since last summer.. and man... carrying extra weight.. I could FEEL it.. it wasn't fun.. it was actually a hard mile.. (I know.. there are a lot of you out there that can run like 3-30 miles...I'm just honoring myself with one mile) Then I worked on the elliptical and then did an arm workout.. pushed the weight up... I am happy to report that I still feel quite energized to get my butt in gear... I want it to stay this way.. it's the only way my middle area will get smaller.. I've also "let myself go" with respect to eating grain.. i was good for almost a year and a half... no bread, pasta, cereal,rice, nothing made with flour.. and now.. I made macaroni and cheese on Sunday.. when did i get off the wagon? Well I'm going to try to get back on the wagon....

I'm psyched to say that my renewed passport came in today! (Well I got a note from the post office that I got a package) whew.. all that procrastination, extra money.. I'm glad in the end that I got it.

ok ya'll.. into the day i dive..
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.13.06

hey there...

how are ya? it's monday... blah.. and it's cold.. and the beautiful snow turned to ice last nite i'm sure.. which will probably make for a not so fun ride to work today.. oh well.. what's the bright side.. the bright side is that it's not snowing now.. that I don't have to drive on snowy roads.. which i'm glad for.

This weekend was a lazy one.. not doing much of anything.. we got about 8" of snow yesterday.. the sun came out and melted the streets, thankfully.... at the same time.. I felt like i had to do something so I was always going from one thing to another... and never really felt like i rested.. u know when that happens? I worked on my cards a bit... tried to clean a bit.. and tried to read... then ended up on the couch watching TV...obviously something is going on if I can't sit still...

I had a 2nd date Saturday nite.. good times. Don't want to get too excited so I'll just leave it with.. I had a good time. We went to go see 'Walk the Line' .. I thought it was a pretty good movie.. Both Joaquin and Reese are beautiful in this movie.

Oooh. Gray's Anatomy last nite was SOOOOO good!!! I'm tellin ya.. Sunday nite at 10pm (I Tivo it usually so I don't have to stay up) u should see it sometime.. it's worth it! The show ended with a powerful question.. that left me going to bed knowing I have options for my life..

"If you knew today was your last day on Earth , how would you want to spend it?"

It was a great reminder that my life and all that is in it today.. is because of my choices.. my fears.. and that i can, at any time, NOW even.. Choose to make the best of it.. or make another choice.

Ok ya'll.. have a great day.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.10.06

Hey ya'll...

Friday thankfully! Again.. the constant mentioning of snow tomororow which I am glad I have no plans... I can watch the flakes fall from the comfort of my own home. I'm going to get Pez tonite from my parentals (i'm sure my mom will be sad.. she loves Pez.. but I miss her) so I can be in the comfort of my own home.. with my cat on my lap.. :)

Ok.. if I were to title this high/low.. i would title it.. "Let's put our heads together"

ok..the National Stationery Show is in May.. may 23rd or something in New York City. I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to go... BUT (big but) it's only open to the trade.. (poo.. like we fledgling card designers wouldn't love to peer in too) So I'm asking us all to put our heads together to find a creative way that I could go (I'd love to see if my friends Steph, Kyra and new friend Carol want to go too) ... I already emailed my friend that I work with at the National Building Museum.. to see if I can go under that Title.. we'll see.. Any other Ideas? Check out the website (if you have time) and let's come up with some ideas. I'd LOVE to hear what thoughts you have...

That's about it... i'm glad it's Friday.. that's all i can say.. oh.. and i'm SO glad.. they re-aired 'grays anatomy' that was originally shown after the superbowl. My Tivo didn't tape it all so thank GOODNESS they showed it again cause it was GOOD!

OK ya'll.. let me know if you have any idears..
have a great weekend.
onward and upward
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.9.06

Hey ya'll..

How ya doin? U miss me? Well it's Thursday and I SO wish today was Saturday.. and I wasn't up at this hour writing to ya'll... But I guess I'll accept my blessings that it's not Wednesday.. and that there is still no snow on the ground. Thank you God.

It was actually nice to be away from peering out from my eyes at my life.. all the unfinished business.. and unsettled emotions... For 3 days I didn't leave a 1 mile radius (hotel and training place were right next door) I was in bed Monday nite at 7:30 (i got up at 3:30 that morning to drive to NJ) and it was kinda nice.. just kinda resting...

Strange (well I guess not strange for me) but I got to the training and a few hours into it.. this girl says she knows me.. and we figure out that she and i were both in the Interior Design program when I was at West Virginia University... BEFORE I even moved to Savannah.. I KNOW i didn't know anyone in the program (I kept to myself during that time).. so I didn't know her.. (ok there was a slight recollect but nothing huge) well it was awesome.. we hung out all 3 days.. went to dinner.. talked about WVU.. I think I made a friend out of this training... We talked a lot about the disenchantment with our industry.. and what we want to accomplish in our careers.. it was nice to talk to someone doing the SAME thing... feeling the SAME way...

The rest of the week I'm continuing the trend.. I want to lay low this weekend... Not do much..(Well I volunteer on Sunday) I hope your week is going well.. and I'll chat with you all tomorrow.

onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.3.06

Hiety Ho my lovelies...

Friday!!! AMEN!!! LOL..... I'm having a sappy moment... listening to' God Bless the Broken Road' by Rascal Flatts...visualizing dancing that first dance at my wedding (LAUGHING LAUGHING!!!!) I love this song.. it makes me cry buckets... silly Kerilyn. Also looking at pictures of myself thinner on my corkboard... sigh.... seems like a distant memory...

So I didnt' go to the gym in DC... i worked later.. and it took FOREVER to drive home... so Naomi and i went to dinner (yea.. counterproductive to losing weight.. I know.) Eh it was good.

Tonite... i have no plans...

Ok.. I must get a goin'.. keeping this short.. I hope you have a great weekend.. whatever you do!

onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

Four..........

My favorite blogger, Keri Smith (Her posting are under my favorite links under 'Wish Jar Journals") posted this today... so i thought i'd follow suit.

:)

High/Low 2.2.06

Happy Groundhogs Day!!!

I'm still waiting to hear if Phil saw his shadow.. but just saying Groundhogs day makes me think of the movie.. with Bill Murray.. and how we all do the same thing.. over and over and over and over... it's actually unnerving.. we're so programmed that it's an interruption when life throws us something else.. Maybe we should embrace those curve balls.. add a touch of spice to our lives.. But it's interesting.. LIVING in Groundhog Day.. REALIZING that it's possible to break the cycle.. but not knowing how to do it.. OR.. being AFRAID of what could happen (that damn fear of the unknown..) GRR. (ooh i just got a good idea for a TSHIRT!) Anyway.. I say to everyone to try to break free today.. break free of 'IT'S GROUNDHOG DAY!!!!" I dare you. ;)

How r ya doin? Thursday!!!! YEA!!!! I'm supposed to go into DC tonite.. to get a tour of this SWANKY new gym attached to the Ritz Carlton..Sports Club LA... Membership is quite expensive (A List Celebrity Expensive) but I hear the design of the place is cool.. so I get a week trial membership.. Not sure it's going to be worth it.. after all the selling they're going to do.. Am I actually going to be able to work out tonite? Ugh. I"m conflicted.. I"ve already cancelled on the Membership guy twice... feeling like doing it again.. ugh.

Tomorrow nite I'm not doing anything.. i'm kinda psyched about that... well now I am.. We'll see if I'm psyched Friday nite.. while I'm home.. and everyone is out (don't listen to the tribe kerilyn)

Made a yummy shrimp dinner last nite... YUM! Buying shrimp is not something that I normally think about as a meal for myself. I usually order it out in a restaurant.. My mom really didn't cook fish.. and i don't think to cook it myself.. but my former neighbor, Nicole introduced me to EZ Peel Shrimp.. so I like to treat myself sometimes.. I kinda see it as an expensive main course.. Aren't you SO excited to hear this about my life? LOL!!!!

I have a good benchmark idea for a card from a mother to her children.. I am trying to think of Valentines day cards... I need to GET ON it if I'm going to make a few..

ok.. i dont' really have much to say today.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 2.1.06

Hey.. Happy February to you all!

Wednesday.. halfway over! Thankfully.

So I'm going to be traveling to New Jersey for 3 days for training for my job. This upcoming Monday thru Wednesday.. Staying in a hotel.. I've never done something like this.. I'm doing this training by myself.. I'm actually looking forward to it.. I haven't been away from the area in a while.. and it would be like an adventure... So I will not be writing for a few days. I won't have the internet though.. so I won't be able to check email (bummer for this email junky girl)

Last Nite, Naomi and i went to see a free screening of a movie that is yet to come out.. called Imagine Me & You There were some funny parts.. but the main characters storyline wasn't strong enough.. and the periferal (sp?) characters actually carried the film. But it was free.. and how often are things free in this world?

Not much else to say today... I pray for a NOT stressful day at work.. so here i go.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net