High/Low 5.25.06

hey ya'll..

long time no talk.. i know.. haven't been motivated to chat with ya'll honestly.. forgive me?

Last weekend Kevin and I had a great weekend for the most part.. we went to pick strawberries on saturday.. GREAT drive out to the strawberry farm.. picked almost 10 lbs of berries.. it didn't take long either.. it was a great day.. then we went to Historic Fredericksburg, VA and walked around a bit. Sunday Kevin helped me pick weeds, he was so helpful! So many more weeds to pull.. to try to get the outside to some semblance of a garden is going to take some serious work.

Anyway.. lots of changes going on around me.. Naomi moving.. Angela (roomie) told me she is moving home to Michigan in August. Even though we dont see each other often.. i've enjoy her energy in the house.. i'll miss that. All in all.. not sure what the HELL is going on.. Work is.. sigh.. no comment. Found out yesterday that I'm being shipped permanently to the Beltsville office. Commute should be same (SUCKY) and it's going to be a LOT louder and more distracting with more people.. where here it's quiet.. and I can focus.. eh.. the ONLY good thing that I'm looking forward to is that I'll be with my friend/co-designer Kellee. She's awesome and I could use a friend at work. We'll see.

Have an appt to talk spiritually with someone on Monday morning (for those who understand.. I have a reading scheduled) Hopefully spirit can help direct me.. cause I have NO idea where I should go.. the good thing is that i've been having stronger and stronger feelings that a change is coming.. well yea.. Naomi is moving away.. she signed with real estate agent :( shouldn't be long now before the house sells. Been feeling my faith revive itself incrementally each day.. probably for about 3 weeks now.. so that makes me happy.. been feeling pulled to read again.. which might sound like nothing to you.. but when i am excited about reading.. means there is hope there..

ok.. so Naomi's Post secret show is tonite!! Woo hoo.. I am leaving work early today so I can help volunteer.. i know it's going to be a BIG success.. i woke up this morning to check Daily Candy today and Naomi's show is in it!! Check it out!!! Postsecret and FOUND Magazine.. seriously.. Naomi has basically headed up this whole thing!!!

lol.. and last nite i had a focus group.. to discuss office furniture.. from 8-10.. $150 bucks CASH... well the people doing the group didn't like that I had so much experience with office furniture.. so they let me go an hour into it.. AND they paid me!!! I felt a bit at first like i was being reprimanded.. but eh! i was home by 9:15 and was on the couch watching my tivo'd show of Will and Grace by 9:20!

Tomorrow I'm going to the Richmond office to go to a client meeting with Salesman Mark.. hopefully it'll be an easy day.. and I can get the hell home.. got a LOT on my mind..

I hope you have a great holiday weekend.. whatever you do.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 5.18.06

Hey all...

just wanted to say hi.. mornin..

thursday.. thankfully. week going by ok.. how bout you? Want to say CONGRATULATIONS to my good friend Lisa.. who welcomed her 2nd Baby Girl to the world... Alexa.. what a pretty name!!! Congrats honey!!!

It's been raining a bit here.. my near serious car accident on Sunday.. been flashing on my mind... things could've been really different if i didn't pay attention to my gut.. Anyway.. yesterday the rain brought forth a BEAUTIFUL rainbow.. very vivid.. even saw indigo and violet.. *u know... ROY G. BIV? :) it reminded me of a great quote from Steven Wright.. "If you want the rainbow.. you're going to have to put up with the rain."

Well I hope your doing well.. i'm keeping this short..
onward and upward
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 5.15.06

Hey all.

how are you.. just a quick note to say hi.. hope your well.. Happy Mothers Day to all the mothers out there.. it's rainy and dreary out today.. just want to go back to bed..

Went to this awesome art opening friday nite.. at the Hirshorn Museum in DC.. all the cool Art people were out and about.. Kevin and I felt a bit uncool... but it was so good to remember that there are always things going on in DC that keep us up on the culture.. Walked thru the mall to the fallen police officer memorial.. it was a stoic moment.. went to parentals for mothers day dinner saturday.. yum meatloaf! Sat outside on back porch with lilacs in full bloom.. SUCH a nice smell! ah.. then Kevin and I went to Naomi's Comedy show.. it was REALLY GOOD!!! We had a great time!!!! Yesterday Kevin made an awesome breakfast.. and then I went to volunteer... at National Bldg Museum.. on way home.. wow.. I almost got into a BIG accident.. this guy was driving TOOO fast and hit this BIG FLOODED area at 60 miles an hour.. lost control.. God was totally watching after me cause i swerved when he hydroplaned across 3 lanes of traffic and the lady behind me swerved to avoid hitting me.. it happened so fast..was a bit shaken up but it was amazing how i KNOW that that was NOT a coincidence that my "gut" told me that I needed to be more aware of the large flooded lane.. wow.. miraculous..

Been feeling a bit melancholy lately.. maybe the weather.. rain. but maybe cause i was reminded that i really have no idea where my life is going.. It's true.. I don't. I know I have ideas.. wishes..and hopes.. but I'll tell you that I've kinda given up fighting my brain.. my yearnings.. i've let go a bit and I guess that seems.. to the outside world.. like I've given up.. I haven't given up.. I don't know what it is exactly that's happening.. but i just don't have the energy to pursue with the risk of it being in vain.. I'm really kinda tired of churning churning churning this brain of mine... worries of the future.. and where i'm going to be.. it makes me sad cause it does feel a bit like hopelessness.. i'm taking the stand that it's just a phase... so we'll see.. I'll say that I haven't really cried in a while.. which also isn't "like me" which is interesting to me.

k all.. talk to you all soon.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

another good quote!!

"Life's not about expecting, hoping and wishing, it's about doing, being and becoming.It's about the choices you've just made, and the ones you're about to make, it's about the things you choose to say - today.It's about what you're gonna do after you finish reading this." - Mike Dooley

High/Low 5.10.06

hey..

ok so i found a great quote... want to share.

"Here is a test to find out whether your mission in life is complete. If you're alive, it isn't." - Richard Bach

this quote speaks to my condition.. (borrowing the phrase Michelle) my mission in life. HA! wishing i knew where to begin to even find my mission..

then i see another quote... "Strength is nothing more than enduring life - to be able to survive the heartaches and agonies we go thru with our heads held high. Sometimes just walking throught adversity to get to the other side is a sign of strength." - Sylvia Browne (I have this quote facing me on my desk everyday)

k have a great day.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 5.9.06

hey ya'll..

how have you been? i know.. i haven't written in a while.. last week was difficult.. I lost just about everything on my computer due to a virus/worm... thankfully the tech guy was able to reload my songs from my IPod so I didnt' lose my songs.. but all my photos.. and documents.. gone.. it really kinda made me not want to sit and write anything.. i felt a little robbed..

oh well.. what can you do? nothing.. just keep moving...

but on the other hand.. i haven't written cause really nothing is going on.. i don't have much to say.. cause there really isnt' anything TO say.. so i think i'm going to just take a few more days to chill.. and spend those moments in the morning watching the news.. catching up.. I'll write when I got something juicy going on... right now it's just waking up.. getting thru the day and going to bed... no sense in trying to make sense of it all... it just leaves you standing there with a pocket full of hope and nowhere to put it..

truth is... i'm tired of fighting.. fighting life... fighting my expectations... i'm just going with the flow.. which is a bit unlike me I'll admit.. but it can't be any worse than getting SO excited for something to happen and then it doesn't..

so.. whatever.. it is what it is.. what will happen.. will. i just don't want to fight anymore. fight myself.. my brain.. my heart.. just leave it alone and let what is supposed to happen.. happen.

anyway.. u can email me.. if you wish.. but i'm just not in the mood to chat.. to vomit my insides..
so when i got something interesting going on.. i'll let you know..

thursday is my little sister's 30th birthday.. that is exciting to me.. yea Kristine! We're getting old girl..

ok.. hope your well..
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net