High/Low 1.31.06

Hey ya'll.. (I originally wrote that today was Feb 1st.. whoops.. it's not yet)

How are you? It's weird.. one day I can feel down... blue... without hope.. and I wake up the next day and I don't feel that way as much.. It's strange.. Is it the moon? I don't know... one of Life's great mysteries I guess.

I have been really enjoying reading this blog.. this amazing creative inspirational woman's journey.. an artist definitely.. a Searcher as well... Well I came across this wonderful inspiration she wrote.. that I really have been trying to read slowly.. to take it all in... Take a minute and read this... I think everyone will find this resonates with you.. even if you don't want to break out of the 9-5...How to Make a Living doing what you Love ...

So I got this very wild hair idea in my brain yesterday.. I need something that will catapult my cards into awareness.. and at the same time.. will force my procrastination to end.. I want to bring more energy to my cards.. and in turn.. will try to manifest success.. (and maybe one day I can be Brave on the Rocks and TRY to make a living at it (one day) SO.. there is this GREAT daily email... called Daily Candy ... it sends out emails about what's hot in a few cities.. Well I thought.. what If I advertised my little cards there.. a little corner of the daily email.. So I emailed them.... wow.. it's expensive! But someone from Daily Candy contacted me already.. and we're going to talk about it.. who knows..I think it's WAY out of my budget.. but Dive into the Fear.. Could you imagine??? I do this.. and millions of women see my link.. go to my website.. and find my cards resonate with them too??? Right now it's just an idea.... so we'll see.

I came home.. made dinner.. did dishes and had already made coffee for today... all by 8 o'clock! A rareity... I was in bed.. reading.. at 9. I read for a half and hour and shut the light out at 9:30.. oh it was SO nice to read in bed.. I really need to do that more often.. Why do I feel like i have to stay up? Because the "tribe" says... that 9:30 is too early? (that's why I think) Anyway I am glad I went to bed early.. I think that's partly why i don't feel so blue..

On the other hand.. I woke up at 3am... it was raining all nite here.. and I woke up to sounds above me... it really creeped me out.. cause Angela is not here.. thinking "oh god.. someone is in the house.." but I am sure that somehow those sneaky squirrels found a way into the attic... They were loud... I don't know what they were doing.. but they finally settled down.. unfortunately it took Kerilyn almost an hour to do the same..

wow i'm chatty today aren't i? Anyway.. I hope you have a good day..
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.30.06

Hey there...

Monday again... ugh... I feel QUITE tired today... wish I had the day off... It's funny.. when I am busy.. I want to rest more.. when i have nothing to do.. I want to be busy.. Where is the Happy Medium? I don't know.

Did lotsa things this weekend.. Went Dancing.. had a good time.. I drank too much which RARELY happens to me.. Spent Saturday recooperating.. felt like I lost my saturday.. I had all these plans to get shakin on my cards.. uh no... Hard to do that Hung over.. Hung out with my friend Janet Saturday nite.. Yesterday my friend Kristy came over.. and I made breakfast for Naomi and Kristy and I... Yesterday afternoon I went to see 'Broke Back Mountain' with my friends Stephanie and Scott it was great acting.. the portrayal of a cowboy's life seemed accurate (from the few Cowboy Romance Novels I read in High school... 'on the range') but I was left with an unended feeling... sigh. We then went to eat Thai.. really good meal! That sat patiently while we chatted about what's goign on in my life... etc..

And if you can believe this.. (i do this to myself... ) I'm already busy next weekend.. sigh.. I laugh at myself because now I'm yearning to rest.. to lay low. I think this happens to me every year.. I get all gung ho with plans.. and then I have to force myself to stay home.. I think the only answer is DEMANDING that there be more hours in the day... heh.. yea right...

OK.. that's all.. I wish you a good day.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.27.06

Howdy.

Ahhh.. Friday. Thank Goodness!!!

I'm in a good mood today... woke up this way.. I love it when that happens! Maybe I had some cool dreams last nite... (i don't remember my dreams) i had a really good meditation this morning too.. :) And it's Friday.. which means I can wear jeans and the guys in my office are out today on sales calls.. so I can catch up on what I'm doing..which makes me happy.. I don't like feeling behind. Tonite is Chiropractor.. then I MIGHT go out with my girl Davina.. not sure yet.. depends on how I feel. (trying to be more spontaneous)

Tomorrow I'm just enjoying the day... no plans.. (that's how i want to keep it.) REALLY want to work on cards.. and I REALLY REALLY want to clean my house that , in my opinion.. is SUCH a mess.. it needs vaccuming.. dusting and overall wipe down... it's been annoying me GREATLY... My friend Janet's friends are having a Party Saturday nite.. who knows.. maybe i'll feel inspired to be social... I hear the weather this weekend will be above average.. so that's good! Sunday my new friend Kristy is coming over .. i'm making breakfast.. and then my friends Steph and Scott and I are going to see Brokeback Mountain.. Hopefully it'll be a nice relaxing weekend!

Thanks to Naomi suggesting it.. I think I came up with a new card! I was chatting with Naomi...about pursuing dreams.. vs. the STRONG fear that comes up... how it's like a see saw.. one day the dreams win out.. the others.. the fear.. she said that would make a great card! i agree!!! So.. i'm going to work on that.. and a sympathy card tomorrow... If you need me.. I'll be in the basement. :)

Ok ya'll.. have a great weekend!
onward and upward...
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.26.06

Hey...

Thursday Thank God. I am SO looking forward to this weekend..

weird day yesterday... work was ok.. we had a staff meeting that was strange..and I'm not SLAMMED at work which makes me QUITE happy. I hope it stays like that for the rest of the week.

ugh.. what to say today? i have stuff on my mind but i'm not knowing how to articulate.. actually it's that i don't know if i want to share.. well screw it.. i don't care.. peter i think finally 'got' what i've been trying to say... about wanting to be friends.. i think he got it to the point that he said he knows he needs to move on.. now at the same time.. historically he's been my security blanket.. or, as I call it he's my "woobie" (taken from the movie 'Mr. Mom') Well i've been holding on to the woobie for comfort (which is unfair admittedly) because of my own fear... (ok guys..one of my fears..that I'll end up alone- tread gently ok? please...) well he took the woobie away and I think that while I know this has been SO necessary.. i'm still in a bit of shock.. AND at the same time..excited and SCARED as hell... because i can begin to work thru my fear.. and try to better myself.. and well change something...(maybe really meet someone??? eh?) my hope is that his newfound revelation and our gradual acceptance of the situation will shift my energy and allow me to let go of the blinders and negative thoughts toward myself...that i've had for so long... (If I don't stay with Peter.. noone else will love me) Again.. please go easy.. vomiting my insides... Does this make sense? Funny.. a friend told me once "I have to be the bad guy.." and I didn't really understand what that meant.. I think I finally do... and it sucks.

Saw a good show on last nite.. well i like it.. it gives me hope. 'Love Monkey" ... kinda silly but basically about one guy.. holding true to what he believes in.. I soak that stuff up...

then.. I saw 'Miami Ink' (a show on TLC about a Tattoo Parlor) and this woman wanted a tattoo of this artist.. Mark Ryden .. Wow.. his work is both shocking in a very creepy way.. and also very beautiful and ironic... i found the painting titled 'Rose' to touch me.. wow.. I was kinda blown away...

I also started journalling last nite for myself... feels damn good.

Finally.. I saw this great quote (hopefully Keri Smith won't mind that I also feel like it pushes me toward getting off my but.. stop wallowing.. and just DO it... maybe you will too..

"Learn to say, 'Fuck You' to the world once in a while. You have every right to. Just stop thinking, worrying, looking over your shoulder, wondering, doubting, fearing, hurting, hoping for some easy way out, struggling, gasping, confusing, itching, scratching, mumbling, bumbling, grumbling, humbling, stumbling, rumbling, rambling, gambling, tumbling, scumbling, scrambling, hitching, hatching, bitching, moaning, groaning, honing, boning, horse-shitting, hair-splitting, nit-picking, piss-trickling, nose-sticking, ass-gouging, eyeball-poking, finger-pointing, alleyway-sneaking, long waiting, small stepping, evil-eyeing, back-scratching, searching, perching, besmirching, grinding grinding grinding away at yourself. Stop it and just DO. Don't worry about cool. Make your own uncool.

Make your own, your own world."

(excerpted from "The Accidental Masterpiece" by Michael Kimmelman)

I say Hell yea to that. Thanks Keri Smith for bringing me to that..

OK.. well that's all I have to say... I think it's enough.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.25.06

Hey folks..

How are ya? Thank Goodness it's Wednesday... I've decided that I'm not making any plans this weekend... and I'm going to stay home... want to clean (boy does this house need a good scrub down).. work on cards.. read.. I really feel like I've been going a lot lately.. and I want to really focus on my home base.. I've just been doing the day in and day out stuff and I want to focus on things at home.. and not having to be anywhere.. do anything.. (well Stephanie, Scott and I were going to get together to see 'Broke Back Mountain'.. we'll see.. I want to see that)

Had a good day yesterday..basically... my neck wasn't sending shooting pains down my arm thank goodness! it's a dull ache now... have another chiropractor appt on Friday. I'm really tired.. I am so looking forward to sleeping in this weekend and taking it easy.

My night can be summed up in one word.. Backslide. Don't want to chat it up right now.. I'm still swimming.. ugh silly Kerilyn...will she ever learn?

Ok.. I'm twittering into the day...
onward and upward.
kerilyn

High/Low 1.24.06

Hi there Folksies,

How are ya? I'm doin ok.. I didn't write yesterday because I was in mucho pain.. that pinched nerve in my neck/shoulder.. whew.. it hurt to get out of bed in morning.. so i called out of work and called the chiropractor. I got an appt first thing.. and then spent the rest of the day resting.. or trying to anyway. It was quite uncomfortable to be in any one postition for long.. It actually feels a bit better today,I don't know how but regardless, I am so thankful for that.

Had a good weekend. I think I was doing too much this past weekend which made my shoulder after first appointment with the Chiropractor, which was on Saturday morning, relapse yesterday. So I'm not going to go to the gym this week either.. to give my body time to heal. Truthfully.. I want to exercise this week.. I feel better mentally after I do it. oh well.

Anyway.. I'm going to try to take it easy today.. I pray for a non stressful day!!

Yesterday was my sisters first day at her new job! I talked to her last nite and so far so good! I'm very proud of her!

Ok all.. making this short.. hope you have a good day. Talk to you soon.
onward and upward
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.20.06

Hey ya...

Friday (very groovy) woke up late this morning.. didn't get to meditate (not so groovy). Ever do that thing when you shut your alarm off but you don't remember it..cause your tired and still sleeping.. then you wake up.. it's almost an hour later and your left wondering "did i set the alarm last nite?" while your rushing around to get the morning started? Yea.. that was me this morning.

Yesterday was ok... work.. gym.. (good workout) then.. I met Naomi (it was her birthday!) and her friend Marge to go see Match Point... whew.. from the minute it started it sucked me in.. Intense man! I told Marge and Naomi.. that movie was like 100% Humidity.. can't see it but hard to breathe... I would say it's definitely worth the watch. Whew... Go Woody Allen!

STILL this crick in my neck.. it's saddening.. it's not weaning.. I think i might need to go to a chiropractor.. or acupuncture or something..

tonite i'm going to a happy hour with Davina... I have a busy weekend.. but thankfully i get to sleep in both days.. THAT is worth it's amount in gold!

I got this AWESOME.. make my day email from my girl Danielle.. She said she loved me. Feels good in the heart!

ok ya'll have a great weekend!!! Tomorrow is my girl Kyra's Birthday!!! Party it up girl!!!

onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.19.06

Hey there!

First off I'd like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Naomi! Yea!!! Tonite we're going to see Match Point looks like it's going to be good!

Funny thing.. on my drive home the past 2 nites.. on the side of the road.. u know those mobile flashing signs that say things like 'Right Lane Closed, Merge Right" well this week there is one of those flashing signs that is advertising for a 12" pizza delivered for 11.99. I think it's funny but also a good way to get people to see what they have to offer. I smile every time I drive by it.

Good workout last nite. Still got this annoying crick in the neck.. ugh!!!

Ok..that's all for now folks!
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

PS:hey what do ya'll think of the revised website? Any thoughts?

High/Low 1.18.06

Hey ya'll...

Yea! My girl Kyra made some edits to my website!! (Thanks K!!!) Woo Hoo!!! Check it out!!!!

www.ancora-imparo.net

She added 2 of my Benchmark Cards.. and uploaded the new version of "Who Am I" that I worked on this weekend. It's a bit longer.. but I think more complete. I really don't think I could've narrowed it down to one page.. :)

I still have this silly crick in my neck.. ugh.. quite frustrating... It's been hard to sleep the past 2 nites. I had a good workout last nite... the gym was packed.. I was going to try to run a mile.. (really want to start running again) but the line was long for the treadmills.. so I did the elliptical for 30 minutes.. hard. And nice surprise that Davina came. I saw this cute boy at the gym.. we were making flirty eye contact.. I hope I see him again soon. ;) oh and my IPOD has increased my enjoyment of the gym quite a bit! So much music at my fingertips!

Ok.. i'm off.. have a good day.
onward and upward.
kerilyn

High/Low 1.17.06

Hey there folksies...

What's up? Tuesday... Yesterday was nice... light traffic with everyone off.. today it's back to normal... traffic. ugh.

Yesterday I turned and pinched something in my neck.. yeowee.. it has gotten substantially stiffer and more shooting pain-like.. ugh. Stiff shooting pain neck makes doing things a bit more difficult... more conscious of every movement.. this happened last year.. it's uncomfortable.. but it'll go away in a day or so..

Really nothing to say today... so I won't try to push it.

have a groovy day.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.16.06

Hey everybody...

What's shakin? It's Monday.. I SO do not want to go to work today... ugh.

So Friday's Medical Study.. was VERY VERY Draining.. my day started out good.. got there at 10am.. and signed in... When I told the woman interviewing me.. that I have 5 metal staples in my lung from when I had pneumonia at 11 years old.... it started the extremely draining process of not knowing whether or not i'd be able to go thru with this study which was dealing with a very sensitive topic.. We ended up going thru with it.. and from 10:30ish to 4:30 i had 6 vials of blood drawn, and EKG and a Chest XRAY.. AND discussing AT LENGTH a topic that I do not discuss very often to anyone... (sorry... if you know me.. you know what happened.. twice actually but if you don't.. let's just say it was a traumatic event from my past) well... after HOURS of discussing it and it's subsequent ways in which it's lead me to panic/feel out of control in my life.. I was SO DAMN tired.. and drained.. i can tell you that i felt like the floodgates.. the wall that protected me from the pain of this experience.. was chipped open and now is at a slow leak.. oh man.. i just don't know if I did the right thing here.. mild earthquakes in process... who knows what will be left standing...

I didn't think I could do it.. but I met my girl Davina out for dinner Friday nite.. We had a good time.. I miss her.. laughed a lot which is good.. I needed that. Saturday morning my dad came and put up this AWESOME chandelier in my dining room that my tres cool friend Janet gave me! It looks SO good! REALLY completes the room!

From when my dad left.. to now.. I don't know.. something has shifted.. I feel on the edge of tears ... I feel exhausted.. and a bit lonely... I took a 4 hour nap on Saturday afternoon.. I hardly EVER take naps.. never I would say.. and last nite i was in bed by 9:30... I know it's probably healthy to let the dam break a bit.. but you know.. the damage that can be left behind where things once were.. a scary thing to face... inevitable but scary.

So onward i go.. to face the day.. try to bring gratitude and appreciation..
try to anyway.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.12.06

hey ya'll.

howdy.. how are ya? i'm really tired.. i've been really busy all week.. relatively.. and I just want to sleep.... no such luck in the near future.. oh well. today is my last day of work.

Tomorrow is the Medical Study.. I'm not sure how long it will take.. tomorrow is the diagnostic test portion.. if i qualify past that.. then there's an MRI where they decipher the levels of adrenylene and cortisol (stress hormone) that is emitted when under diress. I hope I get to that level.. I would love to see where those levels are at for me.. to learn about why I react in certain ways.

I also.. thanks to my new friend Kristy.. made an appt in mid february with a Hypnotherapist. I have always wanted to experience hypnotherapy, ever since i learned about it when I was in psychology. I'm intrigued to see what happens.

Ugh.... sluggish me is going to get ready for work now.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.11.06

Howdy

Wednesday! And I'm off on Friday so... my week is rounding down!

Had a good day yesterday actually.. I got 3 1/2 of the 4 things done on my 'things to do' list at work which is good! I like being in the Herndon office.. there are only 4 of us in the office, which I was a bit nervous about...noone to talk to.. but in actuality.. It's quiet.. and I can plug away at work. I have my little radio on for white noise..

After work I went to the gym... good workout although I had to wait 15 minutes for a dang machine! Grr. People with their new years resolutions.. the gym is crowded the first month... good arm workout too! It's AWESOME with my IPOD.. I downloaded some old dance songs that I really enjoy.. helped make my workout more enjoyable! Then I met Kristy.. a new friend also interested in widening the circle of friends! From the first minute it was comfy... we got coffee and then walked down to the thai restaurant.. chatted... she is around my age.. and owns her own company.. so I got the low down on how she did it.. we had good conversations.. (and the food was good too. LOVE Tom Ka Gai soup!!!)

I also realized how damn blessed I am that Kyra set up my website.. Kristy was telling me about how much it is costing her to have her site put up.. Kyra, thank you honey.. I SO appreciate doing it for me!! I wanted to tell the blog world that.. I'm lucky.

Thanks to my friend Michelle.. I am SO hooked on this woman singer Sia ... Wow.. two songs I'm hooked on ... "Breathe Me" and "Don't bring me down" whew.. cross between Tori Amos, Fiona Apple and Imogen Heap in my opinion. SO sexy and SO real.

k all.. off to whisper into the day...
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.10.06

Hey there folksies...

For someone that 99% of the time is a morning person... today I wanted to stay in bed and sleep! Yesterday it was in the 60's here.. today I think is close to that.

Really nothing much to say.. got laundry done last nite.. I had my knitting circle but I ran out of yarn.. and needed to get more.. and I can't find the yarn colors that I had.. so I feel stuck. i have to run to this local knitting shop called 'knit happens' here in Alexandria.. I hung out and watched TV last nite...

Anyway.. Really nothing going on... of major importance.

I've been procrastinating BIG TIME on getting my passport renewed.. i have to pay a big fee to have it expedited.. but now I have to pay it... so I can get it back in 2-3 weeks. I'm going to Mexico with my company on March 2-6th.. a resort. Thankfully I can still get it done in time. Why am i procrastinating though.. interesting.

Ok.. that's all for now.. have a great tuesday!
Kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.9.05

Morning....

It's 7 o'clock.. on January 9th.. and it's already 50 degrees here... Hello! It's supposed to get into the high 50's almost 60 today! Wow. If our winters stay like this until it turns spring.. is A-OK with me!

So Friday I dropped my car off at VW to get checked out.. sans loaner car.. Hung out with my friend Janet Friday nite (she was so gracious to be my chauffeur) and then Saturday the dealership called me. They had to change out the catallitic converter... I'm still under the impression that that's a big deal...They fixed the turn signal clicky issue I was having..(both things under warranty! rockin!) but found out that the slight rattling under my car was from a piece of the car that rusted off that needed to be welded on to the tune of 170 bucks. So I want to take it to get an estimate... somewhere else. But I can tell the car is running smoother.. and the turn signal click isn't possessed anymore. Thank goodness!!

The most exciting news of the weekend to me.. is Saturday I got my first (and hopefully not the last) Consignment Check from having my cards in that shop 'A Show of Hands'.. The owners wrote a nice letter.. saying how well the store is doing.. and gave me a check with a list of what's been sold so far.. vs. how many cards are still in their inventory. I am selling my cards to the shop for $3.00 a card, and they sold 5 cards.. so the check was for $15.00. Not a lot of money.. but the most meaningful thing to me is that 5 strangers have MY cards! Can relate to MY experiences.. and hopefully those 5 people will give them to someone who can also relate! That's the most amazing part. very gratifying! And.. they sold 5 cards in under 30 days.. i only gave them my cards on December 10th.... so that's not bad! Anyway.. that was TRES exciting for me! I keep looking at the letter I got.... I'm really proud of myself!!!

ok all. off into another week. I'm off Friday to do that Medical Study with the National Institute of Health about Post Tramatic Stress Disorder. So this is a short week for me!

onward and upward!
Kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.6.06

Hey..

it's friday.. thank goodness!

My random thought for life today.. it really doesn't help much to constantly be thinking of the future... tomorrow.. what have you..it kinda makes life so much more manageable when you just focus on today.. what's in front of you.. and no more.. This week i've tried just focusing on the moment.. and it's funny but I am not so anxious.. not so panicky.. it makes my day more enjoyable..

Ok. I HAVE to tell you all about this show.. if you don't watch it already.. it is HILARIOUS!!! Oh my gosh!!! It is SO up my alley with my sense of humor!! The show, Arrested Development oh my gosh.. I LOVE IT!!! I'm cracking up the whole time.. I love the commentary.. and the short clips explaining the back story.. it's that sarcastic kinda humor that i LOVE .... pushing on rude. I"m so glad I tivo'd it one time on a whim.!!! U should check it out!!!

My one grumbling story about the lack of service that the Volkswagon dealership... grrr!!! The used car salesman that sold me my car EMPHATICALLY talked about how he can arrange a loaner car when i bring my car in... GRRR then he re-nigs on it like 3 weeks later when I actually HAVE the service appt.... saying he didn't remember saying that.. MAN! I was on the phone with my insurance company.. seeing about loaner cars.. etc... it isn't a big deal except i didn't make any arrangements for transportation because I left him a message 3 weeks ago saying i'd need a car.. and he'd help.. yesterday.. for some reason.. he has amnesia.. GRR!!! So I had to push my service call to tomorrow.. drop the car off tonite! Thankfully my friend Janet is going to come get me so we can go to the post secret exhibit (she hasn't seen it yet) OOH!!! I am SO frustrated.. on top of that.. when i was getting agitated with the salesman.. he turned around and started yelling at ME! I know.. it's fear and ego.. on my part too.. but still!

ok.. that's all for today.. u have a great weekend!
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.5.06

Hey everyone..

Thursday.. thankfully rounding off the week... today it's supposed to be in the low 50's.. that's awesome... so warm.

Tonite I have to drop my car off.. get this.. started tuesday.. when i turn on my turn signal.. it's fine.. i turn the wheel .. the turn signal light goes off.. and the turn signal clicky sound keeps going!! And it's faster.. and slower.. and it does it sometimes.. and doesnt' sometimes.. it's SO WEIRD.. I also need to get two other things checked on my car.. i PrAY they give me a loaner so I can go to work tomorrow... this dealership has been less than helpful in my car buying purchase.. but i guess that's the job.. hopefully i can get that done AND go to the gym.

i really am enjoying my IPOD.. I bought this gadget.. that hooks onto my IPOD.. and wirelessly sends the songs to a radio station.. so I can hear my ipod songs in my car without wires! it's tres cool!!!

So I'm back in the permanent office again.. thankfully.. it's quieter there.. and I have my stuff around me... easier that way.

Ok.. that's about all for me..for today.
onward and upward
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

High/Low 1.4.06

hey there...

wednesday... already! thankfully.

i'm at a place at this moment when I don't really know what to say... life's going ok.. one day at a time.. but I'm kinda at a loss for what to say.. the same ol same ol... work is still a bit unnerving.. and i worked out hard at the gym... went out for a drink with my friend janet.. to catch up.. it was a great time.. got home late.. quite tired today...

but I want to either give you more... or change the way in which i relay my thoughts... I'm kinda thinking of taking time off.. I guess there is so much going on in this brain of mine.. deep thoughts.. and private thoughts.. that's it's getting a bit hard to journal to ya'll.. while I want to dig deeper.. expose my fears.. unfortunately in this public arena.. airing what scares me.. probably would not be a good idea.. like a diary.. i write you.. but there are serious emotions stirring around my life.. i try to be as real as i can with ya'll... as open.. but there is stuff I don't really write about.. and I am feeling conflicted.. this is where i'm at... in my head...

in an attempt to try to widen my circle of friends.. i did a brave thing and put it out there that that's what i wanted.. online.. and i've gotten quite a response so far.. so i'm coordinating a gathering this saturday nite.. at a cool coffee lounge joint.. who knows? maybe it'll be fun.. maybe it'll stink.. either way.. what do i have to lose? nothing..

ok.. that's all for today.. who knows.. maybe i'll stop writing a while... because I dont' think I'd be good at just surface High/Lows.. it's SO me to want to dig deeper.. and I'm just not sure I want to expose myself to slings and arrows anymore... it takes a shitload of bravery and a bit of naiveity to write about my life.. in as much detail as I feel comfortable.. and I'm getting to the point where .. while I REALLY enjoy the thoughts of reaching out and letting you in on what Kerilyn's doing... I feel like i'm in a fishbowl... a bit... people peering in.. and sometimes tapping on me.. 'hey u! why are you doing that?' well i'm at a loss as to how to continue..

anyway.. whew.. rambling... that's where i'm at... i'm off into another day.
onward and upward.
kerilyn
www.ancora-imparo.net

PS: Felton.. when you get a chance I want to hang out with you... email me.. let me know when you're free.. k?

High/Low 1.3.05 Happy New Year!!

Hey Ya'll..

Happy New Year to ya. Hope you had a nice weekend..

It's Tuesday.. I'm a bit melancoly about going back to work today.. ugh. Past few days have been up and down for me.. and I'm really not quite back in a chatty mood... working on a few things that might be a fun way to start 2006.. as a way to widen my circle of friends.. and another possibility to help others in my day to day.. in the art world.

Anyway.. I'm really not up for chatting.. so I"m going to make this real short... I hope you enjoyed breaking in the New Year.. and I will get back to you when I feel up to sharing what's been going on with me.. bear with me..it might take a few days... but I'm working out something...and I need to focus...

Wishing you a blessed Tuesday.
onward and upward
Kerilyn