High/Low 12.30.08

Hiety Ho....(And a Shout out to my boy Matthew....Happy Now?)

I know.. I know... I have not written in a week... Where to start??? hmm... So much to fill you in on... Hmm...Well I started with what I thought was a head cold back on the 18th of December... which turned into full blown flu... drs appt... NOT being able to breathe out my nose... fevers.. Ugh.. God Bless Peter.. I have been a handful and then some... The Dr told me that I really shouldn't be going anywhere for a few days.. this was the day before Christmas eve.. so I was understandably really upset.. (again.. God Bless Peter.. putting up with my 2 yr old little girl crying thinking I was going to have to cancel Christmas plans) But.. I pushed thru it with the help of a slew of medicines and forcing myself to rest..

I didn't run in almost a week and half.. Ugh.. I missed it a LOT.... up to TWO MILES NOW!!! Can you believe it... 3 months ago I was trying for a half a mile.. and now.. TWO MILES... Ok so I wanted to be at 3 miles by now but whatever.. At least I'm still running every day and I'm seeing a difference.. That's all that matters to me!!! I will be running a 5K in the Spring.. Mark My Words!!!!

Christmas Eve at my sisters house (We're starting a new tradition switching off houses at Christmas time.. Next Year will be at the Russos - thats OUR house!!! Hee Hee! We will try to get the NJ Russos to our house but we'll see... our place is an ok size but all those people... meh.. not sure) I got my New Sirius Radio (Thanks Mom/Dad/Krissy/Steve) to replace the one that was stolen in my car in September.. THANK GOODNESS... I cannot TELL you how much I've missed listening to the Chill Channel on my way to/from work... and Reggae.. 24 hours a day... Heaven!!! Peters going to reinstall it on Friday.. whew! can't wait!!! ANYWAY.. Christmas Eve/Morning was filled with yummy mom foods... and spending time with family.. After Breakfast we got on the road and drove to NJ despite me still not feeling well.. (Damn my clogged head!) We spent a few days in NJ with Peters family... and can I just tell you...

I love his family.. It's the long lost Italian family that I've been missing since my grandparents "went home"... A loud and exhuberant and loving family... the Francos from Long Island.. and all the Russos... I had a great time.. ate well.. received some loverly gifts.. and just hung out.. the Day after christmas.. I spent the entire day in my pajamas... the whole family did for the most part.. SO NICE!!! I didnt' really start to truly feel better till Saturday, Dec 27th...I had a great time.. Just makes me so excited for what this next year is to bring!!! We drove home Saturday evening.. and I am really blessed.. Peter and I.. singing Frank Sinatra songs in the car.. What more could you ask for (Peter put a "Singing Star" Award in my stocking - yea yea.. I can sing) I will tell you that knowing our story.... Peter and I are more in love with each other now.. than ever before.. It's just like this amazing feeling... I cannot describe it...

Back at work.... still stuffy head but I'm 87% back to snuff.. Yesterday was the "walk through" at the house... in Del Ray... Long story but it ended up just being Kevin and I... and well.. I will say our last meeting was bittersweet..... I handed in the Key.. we made small talk about the house.. and I walked away... waiting for my Security Deposit back in a week or so.. and am DONE!!! What a year.. This has been both the most beautiful and also heart breaking year of my life.. I mean when God changes something.. they don't do it lightly , do they? (yes they) .. I cried on my drive home a bit...not because I am regretful.. but as a releasing.. or closing of a chapter that has brought about much growth.... much pain... along with much joy..... so I can say it.. I'M DONE!!!! DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE!!!!

(It needed it's own line)

No more house to contend with.. no more excuses.. or wondering what if.... no more begging or loneliness... feeling unworthy... No, I walked out of that house and into a new really exciting chapter... already in process... and with this New Year... 2009 promises to bring about some amazing experiences... I am sure of that!!!

Tomorrow is New Years Eve.. and my 34th Birthday... on the itinerary.. I'm leaving work at noon.. grabbing some grub.. and then going to get my feetsies done with my girl Kristy.. then making myself all dolled up for a group of 10 of my friends.. we're going to have dinner and ring in the year at Lias (Peters Restaurant) Peter has to work and I couldn't think of any other place I would watn to be than with my love... Giving him a Kiss to welcome in 2009. What an awesome one it's going to be.. I assure you.

So onto my goals... my 2009 Goals... I don't have many but their very important:

1. Keep Running. No matter what.. Keep running. I WILL be running a 5K in the Spring.. and then many more after that...
2. Get BACK to working on my cards..I can say this past year I have not made a ONE card.. yes.. I said YEAR.. (actually since Thanksgiving 2007) and now that my little studio space is getting all set up.. I'm feeling the energy coming back... It is my goal to get my cards in 2 new shops by June.. maybe more.
3. Take a Belly Dancing Class.. Already have one picked out!
4. Get back into Group Meditation.... Yoga Studio RIGHT around the corner from me.. and I've already contacted them about Meditation class... Next week or so I'm ON it!!
5. Go on a long weekend trip with my boy Matthew..... I have been SO looking to spending some good quality time with him now that he's back from duty in Iraq (get over it Matthew.. I said it)
6. Finish up all the planning I have to do for September 26th... I'm glad it's the Fun stuff!!!
7. SAVE SAVE SAVE money... I am excited because I feel like this year is going to be my most prosperous... financially... and that will prove useful in September!!!
8. *** Take a Digital Photography class - now that I have my nice new Digital SLR Camera.. I want to learn how to use it!!! I am so excited to get out there and take some amazing pics!!!!! Woo hoo!!!

So It is now New Years Eve (flash forward from yesterday) and so.. in approximately 12 minutes I will be 34 years old!!! Amazing how much can change in one year!!! I will honestly say that I NEVER expected to be where I am today... but I am so glad I am!!! I can say that I feel more beautiful.. more loved.. and EXACTLY where I am supposed to be.. I have never been this excited to ring in a new year!!!

PS: AWESOME NEWS!!!!! : About 3 weeks ago.. My friend Kristy suggested we try to volunteer to work at the Inauguration of Barack Obama... so she created a group with her friend.. and we filled out the forms.. it said that there are soo many people that sign up to volunteer that it's not guaranteed that I'll get to volunteer.. WELL.... last nite.. my blackberry goes off (BARRRING!) and it's an email saying that I am selected to be a volunteer.. and I get to now take a training class and information so I can Volunteer!!! !!! WAHOO!!! I'm excited to be a part in any way I can.. to participate in this amazing event!!!!! SO COOL!!!! GO BARACK!!!

Thank You everyone... for supporting me.. for being there.. for carrying me when I was too upset to walk... for listening and letting me cry.. for celebrating with me... I am a very blessed and lucky woman... and don't think for a SECOND that I don't know that!!!

I'm off.. into the Great Blue Yander... to celebrate!!! Go... do the sameth...
Happy New Year!!!
Much Love
Kerilyn

A movie you HAVE HAVE TO SEE!!!

Hi Everyone!!!!

OH my gosh.. If you know me you KNOW that I feel SO strongly when I find something that inspires/moves/touches me... oh my gosh...

I want you to all run out/log on.. do what you have to do and see this movie...

Angel-A

I caught it on Showtime (I think) this weekend..A French Foreign Film... (images of Valentines Day Proposals in Paris made me want to spit (heh heh) but Meh.. get OVER yourself Kerilyn!!! Random Thoughts...don't mind me)

I think I'm going to rent ALL of the movies (foreign and domestic) that this Director (Luc Besson) has done... Yippee!!! He moves me.. He did The Fifth Element and The Big Blue (Some of my ALL TIME FAVORITE MOVIES!!!!)

HOLY MOLY!!! I haven't even seen it from the beginning (yet) and I was moved.. (now granted I have a nasty head cold so maybe my emotions are fuzzy cause of that... NAH.. I just LOVED this movie!!!)

I'm not going to tell you too much... but It's about EXACTLY what I'm facing.. Loving OURSELVES!!!!! In such a beautiful and artistic way.. (a such a Parisian way...)

GO... Check out this movie and let me know what you think!!!!

:) Kerilyn

High/Low 12.17.08

Hiety Ho my loverlies!!!

How ya doin? I'm groovy.... Wednesday.. how i wish it was Thursday... But hopefully this day will fly by... heh... I want to do a 3 things 2 things AND I want to tell you what my New Years Goals are... (Resolutions are so.... Resolute.. Goals sound much better.. not as Rigid)

So let me get to it...3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. Last nite.. my friends Stephanie, Scott, Sarah, Peter and I met up at this Seafood Restaurant called Black Salt for a christmas dinner.. (Check out Flickr Photos) a few cocktails before hand... and some really yummy Seafood (Their Butterfish Appetizer.. HIGHLY recommended!!!) Good Talks with Good Friends..... that's what this time of year is all about!!! I'm glad that my friends got to spend time with Peter again.. Steph and Scott have met him before.... so it's good to reconnect.
2. Since I went to Macys last weekend and bought some new clothes to fit my slightly smaller body.. I have been wearing new clothes every day this week.. It is nice to wear something new...
(Side note: There is a really good article that Oprah wrote about gaining weight after losing so much... anyone interested in the psychology of losing a lot of weight and putting it back on... this is a good reference from an emotional point of view.. just saying.)
3. Just happy to be so blessed with wonderful friends... and happy that I can see how many things I have to be happy about.

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Getting a lovely Steak and Cheese Pita for lunch today.. YUM!!!
2. Running... next week I'm going up to 2 miles a day! Yippee!!!
3. Tonite.. I am going home.. doing a load of laundry.. making myself a loverly Pork Chop dinner and catching up on my Tivo Shows.. in my PJ's.. and trying to go to bed early. I've been a busy bee this week and I'm tuckered out!

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. I CANT WAIT to see Matthew again.. to get and give a BIG HUG.. to see his face.. and hear his voice in person... Don't know when.. but hopefully soon!!!
2. Having Sirius in my car again.. I have been going thru withdrawl since September!!! Miss listening to the Reggae channel and CHILL channel.. Sigh.. :(

1 person I am going to appreciate:
My friend Sarah.. I don't know her super well.. but she has such a GREAT positive attitude... I get this girly tee hee inside when I hear her talk about how great life works out.. (talking to her about the events of this past year) and how happy she is for me.. It just makes me that much happier.. and grateful.. I really hope that I get to know her better in 2009 before she leaves for UCLA in June....

I'll have to do my New Years Goals tomorrow... not feeling it now.. typing them out.
Much Love,
Kerilyn

High/Low 12.16.08

Hi there folksies..

Here's me... on a Monday afternoon.. Peter text me a picture of him saying... "Show me how happy you are?" So I sent him this picture of me... I thought I'd share with you.... for obvious reasons.. This is me in my station... And I love my job.. location.. people...all of the above so it's not too hard to show how happy I am... I loved my new outfit that day.. catch a glimpse of the bright purple dress I was wearing.. I looked good too... tee hee..

Yesterday it was warm out.. mid 60's.. unusual.. We had a little shin dig at our neighborhood.. Eggnog.. Cider... Booze... Hot Chocolate... PLENTY of sugar treats.. cookies.. etc... Roasting Chestnuts on an open fire.. (no really we did that) Santa (aka Peter in a wig and Beard) My girl Kristy came.... chilled with us a while.. Unfortunately the little party had a MUCH bigger potential than what actually manifested.. not many people were there and it didn't have the energy i was hoping for... oh well.. there's always next year! Today it's back down to the 30's..BRR cold... Ugh!

anyway... onto 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:
1. Hot Pho on a cold and yucky Day...My favorite Salesperson Bob and I just got back from Pho after going to a job site to do some field verifications.. SO yummy in the tummy on this dreary kinda day..
2. Seeing the Christmas Tree lit up in the front window .. as I drive down the street... The lights going up the stairs.. our stockings.. playing the Christmas channel on Sirius... Just that sense of Spirit... I love it!!! Seeing my kitty girl sitting underneath the tree. Precious.
3. At nite.. when Peter and I go to sleep.. we always intertwine our feet together so they touch each other.. it's such a nice feeling when going to sleep.

2 things that I look forward to today:
1. Honestly going to sleep tonite.. I'm tired... and feel emotional today... Not necessarily 100% sociable today.
2. I am looking forward to dinner with Stephanie, Scott and Sarah tonite with Peter. We're going to Black Salt I am hoping they have Lobster Bisque that I keep hearing is good there!

2 long term things I look forward to:
1. Saturday.. waking up with my honey... (he's off Saturdays) and then going to get my hair done at Aveda at Noonish.. then taking my honey to his favorite Fogo De Chao (A Brazilian Steakhouse) and then I'm taking him to go see Jim Brickman - Romantic Evening I hope!!!
2. Sunday just chilling out... Waking up.. Sunday Morning Edition.. Newspaper.. Maybe finish up my christmas shopping.... My sister is probably going to come and keep me company.
3. Finishing setting up the bedroom... Putting all my clothes away in my dresser that i've missed so much the past 5 months.. and getting the room back in some semblance of a shape!

1 person that I am going to appreciate:
My girlfriend Kristy.. I met her on a whim.. on Craigslist.. and we have become really good friends.... I am really grateful she is in my life.. We have intertwined our lives and our stories together.. I am very lucky..

Also.. Peter.. I know that I have been a handful lately.. I think the actual settling in that the stuff with the house is over.. and I have nothing left to worry about.. Shifting gears takes a moment of adjustment.. Starting with a day of doing nothing...

Ok.. yawn.. I'm ready for the end of the day.
Much Love,
Kerilyn

High/Low 12.10.08

Morning my Kindred Spirits...

Ok... I have very strange news... I found another Kerilyn Fox on Facebook.. She's only 18 years old.. but It's CREEPING me out!!! Eww.. knowing someone out there has my exact name.. is creepy. I actually emailed her.. and she feels the same way... (I feel kinda better that I existed first? Is that weird to say?)

anyway.. I had to get that out... eww.

OK.. It's Wednesday... Feeling good today... It's warmer than usual outside.. mid-60's today .. which is FINE with me! I can't find my favorite red scarf and I'm glad I didn't need it today!

onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. Reading this Daily Om today. It made me reconnect with the smaller... little blessings I have. instead of trying to find the big ones everyday.. There are so many smaller blessings that I think I have been overlooking.
2. Good Cup of Coffee this morning.
3. Sounds so silly saying this...but knowing Pez has a fresh litter box! Taking care of my kitty girl!

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Going to eat Lunch with my girl Bianca.. I haven't seen her in a few months so it'll be good to catch up! AND... we're going to eat Pho.. YUM!
2. Running tonite.. I'm going to up my distance to a mile and 3/4. Wish me Luck!

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. Spending a few days up in NJ with Peters family.... Driving up Christmas afternoon...I love his family... and I'm excited to be with them this Christmas!
2. This Sunday... after I am DONE with the final move at the house on Saturday.. reorganizing my clothes into my dresser.. and REALLY settling in to the house just that final bit more. I'm excited to hang my AWESOME Banana Leaf Mirror in the Dining Room.. and to have my coffee table and rug back with me....that is going to go SO well with the Red Sofa!! It'll be nice to have my things in our space more...

1 person I am going to appreciate:
The fact when I REALLY look back on my life the past few years.. EVERYTHING has worked out EXACTLY as it should have.... True it hasn't been without it's painful moments.. but there has also been a lot of amazingly beautiful and wonderful moments too.. Filled with laughter.. love and learning... I honestly wouldn't be where I am today if I had done anything differently... It just goes to prove that I should ALWAYS trust myself.. NOT to doubt myself... no matter what.. That NOTHING I do is wrong.. just takes me to the next step that is next on my journey. Doesn't take away the pain.. tears.. and moments of fear... but that's why we're here to face and learn from them.. so in a Bigger Picture.. it makes it all worth it.

Much Love,
Kerilyn

High/Low 12.9.08

Hiety Ho my loverlies!

What's up? I'm feeling a little blah today.. Nothing exciting going on.. trying to figure out christmas gifts ($).. and cleaning the house..just day in and day out stuff.. Funny.. I tend to feel this way in the middle of the week. Oh well.. Got some awesome things to share so with that said....

onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy: (Going in Sequential Order)
1. Friday nite I had a GREAT nite.. I had a good run.. then I went to get my eyebrows waxed... then I had a GREAT GREAT Therapy Session! It was going so well.. we lost track of time and I ended up being there 2 hours! Then.. I came home.. and Peter and I went to our favorite Mexican Place.. and Had a few Margaritas and a lite dinner.. We had a great time together...
2. Then... (DRUMROLL PLEASE!!!) Peter said he couldn't wait for christmas to give me my present... that it's been driving him crazy!!! So.. He gave it to me.... He got me a Nikon D40 Digital SLR Camera!!! Holy MOLY!!!! I was and still am SO surprised!!! I mean I love to take pictures...but I NEVER ever expected an SLR!!! Peter told me he remembers me telling him years ago that I wanted one... Wow.....I am one lucky woman!! Wouldn't you agree???? Now I need to learn how to use the camera! Just for those that don't know.. a Digital SLR is a Manual.. Digital Camera.. Having to use the Lense..etc.. Shutter Speed.. F Stop..etc.. Now I need to really sink my teeth into learning how to excel at it!
3. Last Saturday, Peter and I put up our first Real Christmas Tree together at our house!!!! Yippee!! I got Stockings for the Kitties.. and put them on the railing going up the stairs.. and Hung Cards in the Doorway....Candles in the Windows.. Looks so nice.. and Christmassy.. SO nice to sit with all the lights out and enjoy the twinkling of the Tree!!! ALSO, We spent a few hours with the neighbors.. putting up another bigger tree outside.. Lights on Everyones Deck... Bails of Hay... Next Monday nite Peters dressing up like Santa.. we're roasting Chestnuts.. and Projecting a Christmas movie on the brick wall outside.. and hoping we win the contest for best decorated Area in Arlington Village!!! It was fun... Peter built a fire.. it snowed a little bit.. don't get me wrong it was COLD! but it was a good time! I love that all the neighbors get together regularly..

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Running ... of course.
2. Peter is off today so tonite I really want some quality time with him. Just being shmoochy and mushy and stuff...He's making dinner, I think Steaks.. Yum!
3. Going to sleep.. I'm feeling tired.

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. My Romantic Evening with Peter next Saturday, the 20th... Dinner and a wonderful Christmas Concert to see Jim Brickman - Get Dressed up.... Maybe drive down King St in Old Town.. and take in the lights in the trees.
2. New Years Eve.. A few of my friends and I are going to Peter's Restaurant to Ring in the New Year (and my 34th Birthday!)!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Honestly My sister.... She and I had a hard conversation with our parents on Sunday and I'm so glad that she was there with me and I was there for her...Amazing how we both lean on each other when dealing with the hard stuff with our parentals.. We went out to grab some grub afterward to talk abou tit.It's amazing how close we've become over the years.. I'm so grateful!!!

Ok.. Rambling..
Much Love,
Kerilyn

High/Low 12.5.08

Hiety Ho!!!

Holy Moly It's FRIDAY!!! Wahoo!!!! Feel really good today!!

Let me not dilly dally.. onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. Sitting here.. listening to Jai Uttal on my IPOD as I'm happily working on a project. Jai's music is enchanting.. Kirtan music.. music that makes me want to take a DEEP breath in.. and surround myself with the white light.... I feel so peaceful when I listen to his music.. same with Krishna Das. Chanting Indian-esque music.. OHMMMM......
2. Last nite I got a package from my Auntie!!! A book that I can't wait to sink my teeth into Called "The Shift" Thanks Auntie! I love getting mail!!!!
3. Today is payday and starting today.. instead of paying rent.. I begin my savings account.. for Next Septembers festivities.. SO nice to have the money going toward something that will bear an amazing outcome!

2 things that I look forward to today:

1. Running tonite.. I had an office event last nite.. and by the time I got back to my car..it was late ..Meh.. that's an excuse.. Truthfully ever since Thanksgiving.. with those dang Rice Krispy Treats staring at me everynite (I ate them all up yesterday..doh!) and Peter making YUMMY meatballs on Tuesday.. (LEFTOVERS!) I feel like I've been slacking in the watching what I'm eating department! Gotta get back on Track!!!
2. Eyebrow Waxing appt then Therapy. I like therapy so I'm looking forward to both.

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. Putting up our first official Christmas Tree in OUR place tomorrow.. Decorating.. I KNOW we are going to laugh a lot!!! And lots of singing christmas Carols!!!
2. UGH.. Just have to say it... NEVER having to freaking hear from Kevin again with regards to ANYTHING that has to do with this house..... at this point.. it's aggravating!!! Get a email from the owner yesterday that he was obstinant with the Realtor whos trying to sell it.. The owner understandably said that if we don't cooperate he won't let us out of the lease until the end of January like originally discussed.. But Mr Eternal Pessimist started a broo ha ha and I don't even LIVE there!! You talk to him on the phone and it's all about ME ME ME ME ME ME and it just pisses me off! Ok.. UGH.. just had to vent that!!! UPDATE 5:07PM: HOLY MOLY THE HOUSE THAT WAS PUT ON THE MARKET YESTERDAY.. IS ALREADY SOLD!!! AMEN ALLELIUIAH!!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Me. If your happy and you know it clap your hands.. CLAP CLAP!!! Feeling really good today..proud of myself.!!!



Ok... Happy friday and have a good weekend!
Much Love,
Kerilyn

High/Low 12.4.08

Morning Lovebugs!

Wasabi? Anything good going down? Thursday... Thank goodness tomorrow is the last day of the week... I've been feeling time space continuum of Groundhog Day.. you know.. day after day.. do the same thing..get up, shower, meditate, drink coffee.. fart around.. go to work... eat oatmeal at desk..see the same people everyday...run after work... etc. you catch my drift... I know sometimes life just works like that.. but I'm noticing it...

ANYWAY.. I also just wanted to say that I know it may seem to some of you like I'm still having a hard time with the events of this year.. And.. I'll admit that it's been an interesting journey.. trying to heal from one door closing at the same time trying to be in the moment of all the wonderfulness that is Peter and I... a GRAND RE-OPENING of another door...and that it's happened at the same time. I don't know what to say... It's just how it happened. I know you hear me talk about feeling twinges.. and being hurt.. etc.. and I won't lie that yes, that is happening..it's part of the healing process.... But I want to tell you that I want you to TRUST ME... If you know my story.. you know that a lot of strange things have happened in my life.. at odd times.. I mean 7 jobs in 9 years? Talk about weird timing.. I didn't know what was happening but EVERY job that i've had has lead me to the one I have now and I LOVE what I do!!! SO I have faith that everything works out the way it's supposed to.. whether we know WHY it's happening or not... I know it's a BLESSING that Peter came into my life when he did.. I am lucky and I KNOW it... I am really happy... I'm SO excited about our future.. I feel MYSELF again...i'm exercising and seeing my friends again.. and laughing and being me more than I have in the past 2 years.. I will admit that I lost myself a bit trying to make a relationship work that wasn't destined to last.. and God/The Universe.. set things in motion.. If you know the whole story of the transition.. God had his/her hand in that for sure!!! Anyway.. I want you to know I'm STRONG enough to handle this... even though yes.. sometimes you'll see me struggling.. It's just part of the process I think.. I'm emotional and sensitive so of course I FEEL it more..but it doesn't mean I feel like I'm doubting my decision.. WHO BETTER to stand by my side than someone who TRULY loves me... sometimes more than I love myself... and who sees what I'm trying to accomplish?

Have faith in me... Things happen (usually unfortunate or sad ones) in our lives to help bring about the lesson..That's why we're here.. If nothing happened.. and we lived an uneventful life.. What would we learn? Not much.. And Guys (and Gals) I have learned SO MUCH about me.. even yesterday really grasping how much I really don't trust my own decisions.. THAT is probably why all this is happening.

Sometimes life just sucks.. and you can dwell on it.. become victimized (which we all take on from time to time) but we can't let it bring us down.. Have to be "Brave on the Rocks" as Sabrina Ward Harrison says... and KNOW that we will become a more shiner and brighter the more we clear out the gunk..

I was telling someone yesterday.. Where I'm at is this... Ok.. so I have this car and it's not working and I can't get to work.. So one day this AMAZING DEAL of another car comes along.. and I CANNOT and WILL NOT pass it up.. so YEA!! NEW CAR FOR ME!!! And it's shiny and new.. It makes me happy!!! But still.. I have this broken car.. it makes me sad.. I loved that car.. but I know it just won't work...I have to let it go.. and I KNOW that..Unfortunately I have to invest in opening the hood and looking at what's broken.. in order to know what parts will fix it and then take the TIME and EFFORT to fix it (or pay to have it fixed.. uh Therapy!) so you can get RID of it ONCE AND FOR ALL!!!! So you can enjoy the nice and shiny car...

Does this make sense at all? Ok maybe it's not a PERFECT metaphor.. but it works for me.. Sometimes you can't pass up an amazing Deal that you KNOW God had his/her hand in.. You know? So yea.. it sucks.. having to stand in the cold and fix the broken car.. when there is your new one parked right there.... but look what you have to look forward to.. getting rid of it so you can focus on your shiny one that makes you sing loudly while driving it!!!

Peter has been amazing.. he knows me.. he knows my heart.. he knows I feel strongly.. I love strongly..he knows my dysfunction... he knows I HAVE to do this.. face this.. look at what's broken... he KNOWS that I love him more and more everyday.. I always have.. and that I look forward to our future.

Ok so with that said.. I hope you have a great day!!!
Much Love,
Kerilyn

High/Low 12.2.08

Hiety Ho my Loverlies...

How are you? I'm gude!! I'm feeling a bit pissy today for some reason...so I'm going to keep this short and sweet.

onto 3 things 2 things :

3 things that make me happy:
1. Had a good run last nite after taking 4 days off... There was this guy running next to me.. much faster than me... he was a good motivation for me. I think another few days at a mile and half and I can try to up my distance.
2. Last nite Peter got off of work at the same time I was on my way home so we went to get Pho last nite.. (check out my flickr page) YUM PHO! I love it.. it's so good on a cold day... we had a good time laughing as usual.. I feel "so much myself" when I'm with him.. Thank God.
3. Last nite I got my laundry done!! Yippee!!! I know.. it's a neverending story with Laundry but at least I'm good for a little while... heh..

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Running of course.
2. Tonite is our neighborhood "Christmas Lighting/Decorating" meeting... a few of us on the same block are going to decorate the shared back yard area.. Peter came up with this idea to dress up as Santa one nite.. Ha! Peter's off today so that will be nice to have him home for the evening.

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. I found this wonderful artist that is going to make me a custom Cell Phone Holder.. In this awesome fabric.. I found her on ETSY (Here is her shop) Yippee!! I can't wait to get it!!!
2. I know this is neurotic.. but I'm kinda excited to get a new 2009 pocket calendar.. I am the eternal planner.. and the thought of fresh untouched boxes of days with things to fill it with.. OOH!! Exciting!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
My Auntie.. She's amazing... I talked to her briefly last nite and she has been SUCH a blessing in my life... I am so blessed because she holds many roles for me in my life.. a Mother Role.. a Sister Role.. a Best Friend Role.. and a Kindred Spirit Role.... I KNOW that we have known each other in previous lives.. and I am grateful we share this lifetime together.. as family. I love you Auntie!!! Thank You for letting me vent last nite!!!

Ok... Dash away Dash away Dash away ALL!!!
Much Love,
Kerilyn

High/Low 12.1.08

Holy Moly!!

It's December already... SO many things happen in December.. and even more this year!!! Matthew comes home from Iraq any day now... After this month...I NO longer have to pay rent at a house I don't even live at... I close that chapter and really focus on completing my healing .. and looking forward to Septembers festivities and my future with Peter!!! This time next year I will be Mrs. Kerilyn Russo.. Holy Moly!!! Peter and I will be spending our first christmas as Newlyweds at our place... with our families around us!!! I'm so excited!!! This time next year I predict.. there will be some babies in my life as well. (not mine.. yet) so 2009 will prove to be a memorable one for sure!!

without further adieu... I give you 3 things 2 things:

3 things that make me happy:
1. Amazing Friends.. this weekend I spent time with Naomi and Kristy on Turkey Day... A yummy meal had by all. Saturday Janet and Kristy and my sister came to help me move a load of stuff out of the house.. and yesterday, Kristy, Naomi and I went to see Slumdog Millionaire .. good movie.. little violent.. but very touching. I have some amazing People in my corner.. and I am very grateful for all of you. Thank you.
2. Rice Krispy Treats - I made a batch of my moms peanut butter/honey wonderfulness and I can't stop nibbling on them!!! They came out just like my mom makes them.. Peter said he's going to hide them... NO.. don't take them away!!!
3. Leftovers... Need I say more.. I wrote a post a week or so ago about how I feel about leftovers!!! YUM!!!

2 things I am looking forward to today:
1. Running.. I haven't run in FOUR days and I kinda feel sluggish.. on top of eating my rice krispies delights... I feel excited to get back on track (no pun intended).... Depending on how the next two days runs go.. I might push it up to mile and 3/4 on my way to 2 miles a day.
2. I HAVE to do laundry!!! (ok i'm not looking forward to it necessarily but I CANT put it off any more!!) Yesterday it was SO yucky out.. I didn't have it in me to do it.. just laid on the sofa like a lump...

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
1. This weekend..!!! We're getting a tree and decorating for christmas!!! Yippee!!! I LOVE that Peter is as excited about it as me!!! Wahoo!!! I need to figure out what i'm doing for christmas cards this year... (few years of NOT doing them just doesn't feel like me.. so I'm on a mission to send them out this year)
2. Lots of fun things I'm doing in December.. dinner with Steph and Scott and Peter.. US Army Band Christmas Concert with Kristy.. Romantic Christmas Evening with Peter and Jim Brickman.. Christmas Eve/Day at my sisters (a new Fox Tradition!) and then a few days up in NJ with Peters family (soon to be my family!) and finally rounding off the year with my 34th birthday on New Years Eve!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Everyone that has volunteered their time and love to help me... physically by helping me move out.. or spending time with me when I feel sad and alone...emotionally...allowing me to be vulnerable and exposed to my feelings...gently comforting me .. supporting my own decision to face what has caused this experience to happen... it's had it's very scary moments.. Peter who has been ABSOLUTELY AMAZING through all this.. so loving and supportive.. even in my teary moments... He is amazing. I am grateful.. I hope that in this next year.. I can return the favor 10 fold!!! Thank you.

Hope you have a good week!
Much Love,
Kerilyn