High/Low 7.29.05

Hiety Ho my love bugs..

Wassup? It's Friday.. this weekend went by quickly, to me anyway. BUSY weekend coming up.. NEW windows being put in tomorrow~~~~ How EXCITING!!! I"m psyched! I also have a lot to do prior to their install.. have to move all the furniture and take pictures/mirrors off the walls... I think it's going to be a late nite for me tonite.. I have my monthly event at Chapel tomorrow most of the day.. so I won't even be around for the install... oh well.. I"ll come home hopefully surprised. Currently, there are birdies living in the Box Air Conditioner on the 2nd floor.. i hope that they are not too disturbed when we take the AC out.. i am concerned about that.

Tonite, pending the weather.. Naomi and I are going to see 'Shrek 2' outside in the park around the corner from us. An outside Film Festival this weekend... It looks quite omninous today.. they are calling for thunderstorms.. I hope it stays dry for the movie~!!!

Tomorrow nite is Naomi's stand up gig! I know she'll do great.. a lot of her friends are going to be there.. a few I know from Chapel.. so I'm sure it'll be a nice time.. catching up in between jokes! :)

Side note: I love my sister. I just want to say that today. No particular reason but that she is a wonderful sister and I am blessed.

3 things that make me happy:

1. Remembering that I have Chocolate Ice Cream in the Freezer!! WAHOO!!
2. Trying to plan out my outfit for today so I can wear these COOL earrings I got at the beach!!
3. Knowing it's Friday!

2 Things I look forward to today:

1. Enjoying my smoothie (Strawberry, Banana and Mango) while checking my email when I get to work while listening to the radio and bopping along.
2. Reading a little more of my book 'Many were called, few were chosen' which decodes the reasons for obstacles in this life.

2 Long Term things I look forward to:

1. After you spend HOURS cleaning.. that really clean feeling wherever you go (I am predicting that i will be cleaning a bit after the windows.. I enjoy cleaning.. burn incense, listen to music, dance around.. and get that really clean "AHHHH..." feeling.
2. Talking to Kyra about our idea to create a website that gathers really talented people in all artistic arenas.. and how this could possibly spawn something amazing!!!

1 Person you are going to appreciate:

1. only 1? ok.. today I appreciate Naomi.. she helps me in more ways than I can type here.. and I have become a better person for knowing her!!!
   
   Hope you have a great weekend!
   ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
   Kerilyn

High/Low 7.28.05

Hey folks..

What's up? Thursday! yea! What a great day huh? Wow.. I am so grateful for everything I have.. for the knowledge I have inquired in this lifetime.. I feel full of gratitude for all that I have!

I am very very excited to report that on Saturday the new windows in the house are going in!!! I am SO psyched to be able to open all the windows! Wow.. it's kinda surreal... Currently there are birdies living in the box air conditioner on the 2nd floor. I hope the window people take care to not mess with the birdies much.. I guess I should tell the birdies what is about to happen.. maybe they can make their home somewhere else.. or just be out of their home temporarily..
Wow.. new windows. How great!

I'm sorry everone.. I can't really write much today.. got something on my mind and I am kinda all over the place.. I can't write excitedly today..

anyway... have a good day
kerilyn

High/Low 7.27.05

Hiety ho my lovelies..

How are you today? I'm doin alright.. yesterday was probably the hottest day of the year so far.. Whoa.. it was quite unhealthy to be outside for any length of time.

First off.. I want to say that I am blessed.. I woke up feeling off.. like something wasn't right, bit of anxiety for some reason.. and I don't know why exactly.. Why is it that I seem to never be content with what I have.. always yearning for more? Can't i just sit back and be satisfied with all the blessings I have to date... trust me, I'm aware that I do not appreciate what I have often enough... I needed to snap out of it.. so I meditated on it.. It helped quite a bit.. so I express to you...I am very grateful for my friends.. and my family.. for my mother's recovery.. (she's doing well.. one day at a time) and that I have a job that supports me (My friend Derek is still looking for a job, it's been a month now) I have a car that gets me where I want to go, and to me it's a luxurious car, I am grateful for that. I live in a beautiful house.. acts as a vehicle for my own expression and relaxation. I am truly grateful. I am able to exercise.. to go to the gym and hit the treadmill.. for there are those that do not have legs or the ability to use the ones they have..I am grateful. I have Naomi who has taught me so much about myself.. about accepting who i am.. where I am.. I am very grateful for her. For Pez.. and the fact that she wakes me up every morning in her own little kitty way..for her I am grateful. I am grateful that I am tall, and that I do think I'm beautiful (even though I don't express that to myself enough) I am smart(wow.. I don't think I've ever said that out loud or to myself, hmm, why is that?).. and like to read..I am grateful. VERY important.. I am without words grateful for my faith.. for the understanding that this.. this life.. that we all take for granted.. and use and abuse to varying degrees.. is about conquering fear.. it's about fear. The amazing gift I have received to understand that... I am so blessed. I have SO many creature comforts that I take for granted.. one of them being Air Conditioning.. for there are millions of others in this world who do not have access to being cooled off.. So many things.. I am grateful..

It's really about fear.. this life.. It's about facing what we're afraid of. And if you don't think your afraid of anything.. take what makes you angry.. and vengeful.. and break it down.. why do you feel that way.. dig deep into that feeling and I'm sure "I'm afraid" comes up somewhere.. And if you resist this sentence.. if it makes you want to thrash around a bit.. or write a comment to me saying "Nu-uh.. not me!" then there's your "stuff" the thing you need to face..

So let's try to shine a light into the darkness.. for when we bring light to the situation.. it doesn't make it as scary.. I am trying to do that.. and one day.. maybe in this lifetime.. maybe another one.. I will reach the point where I no longer suffer anxiety.. or fear. But all along.. enjoying the ride.. no matter where it takes me.

Today, I vow to enjoy today's ride.. no matter where it takes me. I will tread lightly on myself.. KNOW that it's the fear that I let diminish my light. And my what a big light it is....

Kyra showed me this AWESOME blog.. called 3 Things 2 Things.. http://3things2things.blogspot.com/ I feel like I want to do this today..

3 things that make you happy: 1. How Pez seems to follow me wherever I go in the house 2. I found this AWESOME new magazine called Breathe, quite spiritual, enjoy going thru it page by page 3. Last nite I went to the pool.. and took a dip for 15 minutes by myself.. SO relaxing!!!

2 things you look forward to today: 1. Meeting Roxanne tonite for Chipotle and catching up 2. Enjoying my smoothie while I check my email at work.

2 long term things you look forward to: 1. OOH.. that fall day when the leaves have changed and it's cool.. and I have nothing to do but appreciate the day 2. Naomi and my summer party!!

1 person you are going to appreciate: My Auntie Sue.. for she is doing a wonderful job... peering thru the veil of this life.. facing her fear.. and helping me remember what it's about.. I have her motivation and inspiration in my head when I need reassurance.. even when I don't talk to her. It's about Fear Auntie.. I get it.. gotta breathe thru it.. I love you!!!

k.... have a great day all...
onward and upward
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 7.26.05

Hello tulips!

Tuesday.. it's always a bit slow going when you have a few days off.. especially when your doing something out of your normal daily routine.. then you have to go back into the frey... The good thing is.. I'm one day closer to the weekend.

I had a relaxing time away this weekend. Peter and I left late 11pm on Friday nite, and go to the Rohoboth/Dewey Beach (Delaware) area around 3:30am after being lost for about 40 minutes. We didn't go camping, but stayed the beach house of one of the owners of TenPenh. Beautiful beach house all to ourselves for 3 days... So nice to be away... and among others that have relaxation on their minds too.. We ate yummy food, walked on the boardwalk, looked in the shops, slept in, I got quite sloshed one nite, took some pictures (on my regular camera, poo) It was nice to not have an agenda.. got back yesterday afternoon.. still haven't unpacked or anything..

I got a call back from the Art Institute!!! YEA!!! After we got back from the beach, I went over to the offices and picked up step 2 in the interview process which is a personality test (Caliber profile? anyone ever heard?) This test is harder than it seems, to me, cause I know there's a rhyme and reason to it.. and I'm a thinker.. all these sentences I want to choose.. ugh.

I feel a bit sad today for some reason.. woke up this way.. can't put my finger on why.. but I feel a bit meloncoly today. Isn't this a little normal the day you have to go back from after a vacation? Wish I could just lay around today.. and veg out.. do laundry, mow lawn..etc...

Anyway.. I will make this short.. I"ll catch you all later..
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
kerilyn

Pro and Con: Surprises

YEA!! Surprise for me!!! Peter called me this afternoon.. asked me if I could take off work on Monday.. I pondered with this a minute. decided.. "What do I have to lose" (corroborated with Naomi too) and asked boss who said go for it! SO... I'm off Monday..

Then.. My sister called.. apparently Peter had called Kristine to ask her a few questions about this weekend.. So she knows the plan!! She wouldn't tell. (good for her.. I like surprises)

Anyway.. I won't be writing you on Monday.. but hopefully will have some fun things to share with you on Tuesday!

Ancora Imparo "I am still learning" in Latin.
Kerilyn

High/Low 7.22.05

Hiety Ho my little chickadees!

How art thou this Friday morn? Beautimus? Slendiferous? Erroneous? Yea... I'm in a good mood, can you tell? Well the humidity hasn't been so cumbersome the past 2 days.. delicate breezes placed intricately where needed.. when the suns rays become penetrating... (waxing some poetic today too apparently)

It's friday and THANK GOD for that! I actually had a pretty good week overall... I think Tuesday was the only slightly downer day for me.. which overall.. is pretty darn good!

Yesterday's interview at the Art Institute of Washington went really well I think! It's so much easier to express your desires to someone whom you ACTUALLY think can give you the chance to do something you really wish to do (help prospective and current art students).. than to try to fake enthusiasm (ugh.. being fake is tiresome) toward something you really see as extraneous and unimportant in the larger scheme of things. (i.e. current position) There are some interesting aspects for this position, as the Assistant Director of Admissions. A slight sales aire is required for this position.. but I think I would have a better time trying to assist young people about their future successes, than to placate someones need for the illusion of luxury (read between the lines here) Anyway (rambling) It went well.. fingers crossed!

I think I found a good match for someone to become my temporary roommate.. she and i are playing email tag..but I hope to get her to come over tonite to check out my rockin pad (yes, I said rockin pad) and see if we'd be a good fit but I get a really good feeling from her. She does mosaic tile work in her spare time, which I"ve always wanted to learn.. so maybe she can teach me. Hope I can meet her before I go away tonite.

Speaking of going away.. Peter has me totally convinced that we are going camping, he even pinky swore to me that we were. Uh... if you don't know me well.. I'm not so much of a camper.. true, it's not the forest, it's the beach but still.. sigh.. we'll see.. it's an adventure.. gotta loosen up.

Anyway my fine feathered friends.. I wish you a wonderful weekend!
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 7.21.05

Hiety ho everyone.

How are you? I feel good today.. it's thursday in this snowglobe of days, weeks and months.. it's almost August.. whoa. Yesterday was another hot one but there was some breezes.. I hear that this summer has been a brutal one, from people that I work with.. but I think in the history of summer temperatures, it's been fairly normal.. Some hot days.. some cold fronts which bring in a few cooler days. At least in this area anyway.. it's not been without rain for months at a time.. the grass and trees are actually green where you look.. not brown.. so in that respect it's been a good summer.

I want to thank Phyllis for her comment on my high/low yesterday.. VERY nice to hear your support honey! Yesterday in my attempt at trying to figure out where I would go, besides my parents house which I would honestly use as a last resort, I talked to my aunt about considering the possiblity of me moving to Phoenix for a few months. This wouldn't happen for a while.. 6 months or so.. but I need to see if it's feasible. I also emailed my friend Autumn about going to Texas for a while. Both of them seemed to be up for it. Feels quite liberating to know that I have choices besides the ones I live day in and day out. When I got the sense that this is possible.. of course I felt a little fearful of actually doing this.. but that's why I have to see if I can do it.. to conquer my fear! We'll see.. I'm in research mode right now. I talked to my favorite store here, Pulp (www.pulpdc.com) they aren't hiring.. oh well.. we'll keep trying.

I have an interview tonite at the Art Institute of Washington. Who knows what's going to happen.. too soon to tell. Maybe I'll take this job and love it.. wouldn't that be nice. I'll let you know how it goes tomorrow..

check out this AWESOME blog that Kyra sent to me yesterday.. I love it!!! Called "Wish Jar Journal!!!! I think you'll find inspiration here!!! http://www.kerismith.com/blog/

CONTEST TIME!!! CONTEST TIME!!!!!

Ok.. my bestest friend Naomi is working diligently to get a Comedy showcase/talk show started in this old Theater that acts both as showing movies, and hosting performances. Well she talked to the owner about hosting Comics.. and intermingling the comedy with jazz performances and local interviews. It seems that there is a date out there, a Premiere night for this showcase, on August 4th (Still to be set in stone) and Naomi Asked me if I would ask you all if you'd help her come up with a title for the showcase. There is a PRIZE!!!! (you hear that???) Naomi will give out $50 dollars to the person who comes up with a snappy title for the showcase.. The winner will be the one that's title actually get's used as a headline for the show.. and it's marketing, etc..

This is what Naomi said the theme to this showcase is... If you can think of an interesting and creative name.. why don't you leave a comment on here.. I probably will remind you all of this contest a few times.. just to keep your creative juices flowing...

"This will be a late-night talk show format, with a live audience, that features both stand-up comedy, musical guests, and local interviews in Alexandria. The owner wants the show title to be preceeded by "The Old Town Theater's 9:55 Club presents........(and then the name of the show). Looking for a catchy name that will be easy to market, remember and advertise!"

So get your thinking caps on.. cause there's $50 greenbacks on the table for the winner!!!

Went to the gym last nite and ran 2 miles.. actually I was really overheated and stopped running the last .3 of a mile... Cooled down a bit.. said to myself "Self.. I am NOT going to quit.. I WILL run 2 miles!!! and decided to sprint the last 3 tenths.. YEA! So I've run 4 miles this week! yea me!

I really want to get another tattoo sometime soon.. I think I actually want to add to my already existing tattoo... make it bigger and more beautiful.. want to get a ladybug too.. there's this show.. 'Miami Ink' on TLC.. I watched it yesterday.. makes me want to get ink'd again.

I made a Belated Birthday card for my friend at work Jonathan.. and he told me that it was , by far, the best card he's ever received.. how awesome is that!!!

Whoa.. I'm chatty Cathy today huh? (No offense cath.. I'm sure you've heard this before)
Ok well.. onward and upward into my day..
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
kerilyn

PS: Peter and I are going away this weekend.. I'm excited! He won't tell me exactly what we're doing (he knows I love surprises) but he said to pack a beach towel and sunscreen... To the beach we go! (i think) He made mention of camping.. uh... I hope that's not it.. I am not a camper.. but we'll see.. I'm sad cause I wish my camera worked.. wish I could bring it with me.. but I need to return it to get fixed... poo.

High/Low 7.20.05

Hey there..

How are you? I'm fine.. a little tired but fine. It's Wednesday already, i'm telling ya.. July is almost over.. it all doesn't seem real.. flying by so quickly. .. ya know? Yesterday was another hot and sticky day.. i think today is no different. We need some rain to cut the humidity

So yesterday.. I wrote about feeling like I got off the wrong exit on the highway. Well I have been trying to explore where I can get back onto the highway again. I've been having the thought (bear with me.. I'm being serious) of either giving away or selling most of all my possessions except a few things (Music, original art, diaries/letters, spiritual books, photo albums,camera) and move home to my parents (I haven't even discussed this with them.. it's still in thought mode) or somewhere where I can live rent free for a few months.. get a part time job somewhere I like (like PULP www.pulpdc.com ) and work on my cards the rest of the time. Would this be easy? no. But I am thinking I am the ONLY one that can make my dreams come true.. noone else. And what is it I have really? A house full with stuff that doesn't necessarily support my dream at the moment. It's about fear. Right now.. I go to a job I am not interested in because I fear I won't be able to pay my bills. If I gave away everything.. and didn't have that fear anymore.. it would probably free me to actually try to accomplish what I really wanted.. what made me happy. True, it would probably present other obstacles and fears, but at least I'd be working thru the trials that making my dream come true would bring, instead of fretting over something that means very little to me day in and day out. I know, this is a BIG thought.. it still needs some serious mulling over.. I've already talked to Naomi about it and she feels similarly with respect to making her dreams come true with Comedy. It's interesting we both feel similarly (she's felt this way a while now). What do I have to lose? I'm already working on accepting that I am going to give away everything? So what would I REALLY have to lose? My integrity? I compromise my souls integrity every day by doing something that stifles my spirit.

I am sure this brings up lotsa feelings for you.. either positive or negative. That is the tribe talking to you.. either you feel similarly.. of the desire for the big dream... and your yearning to be free to stride for whatever it is you want to do... OR.. this makes you feel uncomfortable.. which is also the tribe.. society telling you that you shouldn't break out of the mold.. to just lay low..sit still and it will all be ok. Change is difficult.. but not impossible.

after work, I went to the gym.. ran 2 miles. Felt good! Then did some more weeding! The yard is looking better, not so forest-like!

THEN (in a slab of irony to my previous paragraphs) I got a phone call from the Director of Admissions at the Art Institute of Washington. There are a few positions in the Admissions Department. I have an interview Thursday evening. We'll see.

Anyway... I hope you have a good day. Thinking about following my spirit yesterday, all day made me feel less lost.. made me feel like for once, I was facing something that I've struggled with.... fear of failure. Is it easy to face, no. But it's no less easier than pretending it's not there.

Side note: I am so bummed that I cannot take pictures because I have to return my camera (and i have to wait till payday to send it off) I am really enjoying keeping my camera with me at all times, and the fact that the camera won't stay on really bugs me. I will ship it next day this weekend and hopefully have it back next weekend!

oh well.. onward and upward!
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 7.19.05

hey there...

how are ya? oh my gosh it was SO humid yesterday.. your sweating walking from your house to the car.. and from the car to the office.. today i think it's supposed to be the hottest. whoa. Throwing todays high/low in the old format, because I don't have much to say today and this makes it easier for me to delineate between the duality of my day.

High: yesterday after work.. i bravely spent two hours mowing the lawn and cutting weeds from the forest that's growing on the side of the house and in the back yard. Between the mosquito bites and the sweating.. I actually got a bit done. Feel proud of myself! There are MANY more hours of work to do.. and time is running out before the party Aug 13th. I am considering posting a classified ad to see if I can get someone to help. I emailed a few people that own stores along the line of the store I want to open, and asked them to give me advice about how they came to open their store. I hope I hear back from them.

Low: Still feel out of sorts still. I keep trying to remember what my aunt told me.. that I have all these inspirational and spiritual things around my house but that I don't convey them.. don't LIVE them. That's the weird thing..I know this is an illusion.. i know my thoughts form my reality, I know I am not alone.. I really do know this, believe this with everything I am...but still I feel like i'm off track somewhere. You know when you get off at the wrong exit or take the wrong train on the subway? Kinda tense, unnerving feeling until you get back to what you recognize? You have to turn the radio off, and stop talking to those around you until you figure out where you are? Ever happen to you? That's how I feel. And at the same time, I know that the more I fight that lost feeling, the more lost I'm going to feel, going to miss the signs. I try to let go and just keep on.. hoping that I will find a sign that will direct me back onto my path, but all along it feels like I am not where I'm supposed to be. See I guess that's how i've been feeling for a long time now.. I know every single one of you feel this from time to time.. some more than others... I pray, wish, meditate, to be placed onto the path that makes me feel most alive, "so much myself" but I still seem to miss the exit back to the road that leads me to my chosen path. But then again.. there are no mistakes and everything happens for a reason, so there's a reason why I feel off track and that's the track i'm supposed to be on.. i guess. Sigh, I desire to know what i'm thinking that's allowing me to feel in this rut, I wish right now for an opportunity to come into my life today that will assist me back to feeling like i'm on the right road.

oh well.. onward and upward. I hope I don't depress you with my high/low today. Sorry If I have.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
kerilyn

High/Low 7.17.05

Hey there folks..

How are ya? Good weekend? It was absolutely, positively the most humid weekend of the year so far. Oh my.. walking outside my glasses would fog up. We have to be cautious to spend too much time doing active thing outside in humidity like this.. heat exhaustion.

Friday nite, my sister and I had a GREAT time going out to this amazing meal at one of the sister restaurants of TenPenh called Ceiba. Wow.. some awesome food! Kristine did a great job tasting food, trying new things! We were fed like Kings! Then Peter took us to this live jazz club (that was WAY too expensive to get in) but it was nice listening to jazz.. I really enjoy live jazz.. it's awesome to see how 'into it' the musicians get.

Remember I wrote that something was wrong with my digital camera? yea.. It is broken. I am quite annoyed by this. It's like the connection between the batteries and the camera short circuits after a minute of it being on.. IF it comes on.. I was on the phone with someone in Manilla named 'Matthew' for Kodak to get it returned. Ugh.. takes 5-7 days to fix..

My digital photography class isn't turning out to be what I expected. The class is too big.. and the class has ended up being how to alter your photos in Photoshop rather than how to take photos (aperature, ISO, shutter speeds) I already know enough to alter photos.. it's how to take them in different lighting, etc.. that I was looking to experience. I learned a few new things so I am grateful for that.. but all in all, I think a bust. oh well, at least I tried it, and at least I spent time in the Corcoran.. the place where I want to be.

Saturday nite, Naomi and our friend Marge came over. I made dinner and we chatted about life and Marge's trip to Spain.. and ultimately about my cards. I've come to the conclusion that it's really not that it's not that I don't know what I'm doing, it's that I'm not doing.. what I'm supposed to be doing in order to have all these cards made for Art on the Avenue. Ugh. This week I want to start chugging them out (but I say this all the time)

Yesterday Peter and I went out to visit my mom. I'm telling you.. she looks great! She's getting around.. and has lost a bit of weight too (to be expected) but all the pain medicine she is on.. is causing her some discomfort with her tummy. So her back is healing.. but her tummy is hurting. Made me sad to see a little. Peter made dinner and we just hung out last nite.

The girl who was supposed to come look at the spare room cancelled today. Wants to live in DC. It's kinda turning out that maybe I'm not supposed to have a roommate at this time. The few people who have responded have ended up cancelling because they found something else. I've shown the room to 2 guys so far.. both seemed disinterested (and they didn't seem like a good fit anyway) but still... Maybe I forget the roommate thing for now. Hmm..

I got up Sunday morning when hearing the sound of my neighbor turning on their lawn mower. I thought " I want to mow!" I quickly put on some clothes (considering the severe humidity) and found that the grass was too wet to mow. So I started pulling weeds from the front yard. Whoa.. I was sweating so hard! YUCK!!! I've made some head way with the weeds.. but SO much more to do and it's too hot to spend too much time out there. I have to get this yard in order for the party next month.

I am grateful for today. I am grateful for everything I have and know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I am still learning.

Kerilyn
ancora imparo

High/Low 7.15.05

Hiety ho there!

wassup? it's friday.. another overcast and sticky day I predict with more rain and probably some more thunder. eh.. it's still Friday.

I have to go to Baltimore today (an hour away) to meet with the lead installer/owner of installation company to do a preliminary field survey prior to the furniture install. I have never done this before so this will prove interesting. (trying not to be disparaging about it.. but to see this as a new experience) but the good part of today is..

when I'm done in Baltimore.. I'm done for the day! Kristine, my sister is coming over so we can hang out... I haven't spent much time with her lately so I'm excited to see her. Tonite Kristine, Peter and I are going to do something.. dinner.. maybe a jazz club.. not sure yet.

Something is going on with my digital camera!!! When I turn it on.. the lense doesn't open.. I don't know what's going on but I don't like it. it started yesterday.. I am going to try to take it to Staples, where it was purchased from.. but I don't like this... I am growing quite attached to my camera.. and the possibility of it malfunctioning doesn't make me a happy camper much...

Was up till 11 last nite.. working on my website. I think it's coming out really good!

oh yea.. didn't go to the gym... was conflicted.. girl time.. crampy.. ugh.. decided to relax.. catch up on watching 'Veronica Mars' went to Chipotle with Naomi... yum.

A situation with a co-worker and myself came to a head yesterday. ugh.. i don't even want to go into it.. but to say that i hope and pray that this resolves some negative energy that has been there for the past 6 months.

Okay my little munchkins... you have a great weekend. i hope you do something fun!
ancora imparo ' i am still learning' in Latin
kerilyn

High/Low 7.14.05

Hiety ho...

How are ya? i'm still doing really good.. and really happy about that! It's Thursday.. really overcast and humid here.. calling for thunderstorms on and off today.. with terrential rains.. yesterday i heard some lightning crack.. it's such a powerful sound.. makes you take notice... it's interesting.. when lightning and thunder are about.. how everyone seems to lay low.. you can almost feel it in the air..

Another 2 miles down last nite! Did a good leg workout too... I'm proud of myself. I'm going to go to the gym tonite too, I will have run 7.5 miles this week if I go tonite. Now my goal is to run 30 miles a week.. slowly. one step at a time.. literally

I am actually writing you using wireless!!! ROCKIN!! It's SOO much faster.. and smoother.. I love it!!!

I got an invitation to an old friends wedding yesterday.. looking forward to it.. I haven't seen her in years.. and she is a part of who I am.. so I am happy she invited me to share her wedding day with her.

I haven't done my assignment for my digital photography class yet. Eek!! Have to take some still pictures.. in different lighting, settings... gotta get on that.. it's only 2 days away!

Kristine, my sister, is coming down on Friday.. we're going to hang out with Peter.. go out to dinner.. and maybe do something fun afterward. I'm looking forward to it!

Ok.. I feel at a loss for words today.. So I will bid you adieu.. and catch you tomorrow.
ancora imparo " I am still learning " in Latin
kerilyn

High/Low 7.13.05

Hey there

What's up? It's mid week already.. for me, it's been a great week up to now.. everything seems to be flowing along splendiferously! I hope it continues this way...

First off.. today is my mommy's birthday!! The amazing 6-0 today! She is doing well.. taking it one step at a time (literally) and recovering a little more each day!!! I think it's awesome!

Good day at work.. got a lot done.. to the point where i was floundering to find things to do.. (not for long) always a good feeling! I found that there is a magazine just for greeting card creators.. so I signed up for a free issue. Hmm.. working on a new card right now... i think it's coming out really good so far...

Went to the gym.. ran 2 miles! Rockin! Felt good.. I was talking to my co-worker Barbara (she plays tennis) about how for me, I choose not to drink water while i'm working out.. (running/elliptical) because it throws my focus.. and we were talking about making sure we got enough water that day.. So.. i drank a cold thingy of water while driving to the gym.. (i usually don't do that) and i'll tell ya.. it kinda worked.. I didn't feel so overheated. I know it sounds like a simple thing.. but I didn't think of it.

Made a yummy dinner! My friend Frank helped me hook up the wireless internet! I was SO happy.. it took a while.. was on the phone till almost 11 last nite.. but i went to bed and it worked! I also came downstairs to write ya'll.. and it worked too.. BUT..i have the antenna on the floor.. and the connection is too weak.. I need to get an extender.. or move my CPU. So I am writing you on dial up this morning.. BIG poo. :( I need to fiddle around moving my cpu and hopefully i'll pick up a stronger signal.. not now though.. maybe tonite.

Had a great meditation this morning.. Yesterday I wrote an email to the owners of Pulp.. that store I went to in DC this past weekend. Told them i'd love to talk to them about how they opened their store.. because it's my dream to open a similar store in Del Ray, Alexandria, VA. I haven't heard from them yet, but I have a feeling I will, if not, i'll go in there to talk to them. Well my meditation was 20 minutes of visualizing my store. yea!

Ok my fellow spirits.. off to another day.. My thought for the day.. at least for the past few days.. I can see with clarity the fact that I need to focus on the positive.. trying to handle those moments of fear and dissapointment in the moment.. instead of trying to wish them away totally (for that's not what we're here for) this is school.. we are learning.. different teachers, classrooms, and tests.. If you are up right now.. feeling good..remember this feeling.. try to imprint it on your brain.. because there will be a moment when you need to hold on to that memory.. to help lift you when you are in the dark valleys.. If you are low right now.. feeling sad and/or angry.. frustrated and overwhelmed.. You too, need to remember this moment because when you are on top of Cloud 9.. the memory of the black cloud overhead is a reminder for us to be grateful.. gracious for all we have accomplished... for it is a lot.

Ok.. that's my thought for the day.. it's where i'm at.. today anyway. :)
ancora imparo "i am still learning" in Latin
kerilyn

High/Low 7.12.05

hey...

what's up? anything fun going on? yesterday was HOT and STICKY!! I don't mind the hot part.. but the sticky part.. not fun. I hope today isn't as humid.. driving to the gym.. looking onto the DC skyline.. you can actually see the humidity.. eww.

feel good again today.. yesterday i had a good day! Got a great postcard from my friend that went to Spain. It's sad.. we don't really use the postal service any more to communicate. Therefore.. I think we should all start writing letters to each other.. if your interested.. I'll write to you if you'll write to me.. actual letters.. shoot me an email. Would be a good way to keep the art of letter writing present in our lives..

I finally visited my gym last nite.. after 2 weeks being away/slack... Ran a mile and half.. was shooting for 2 miles.. but i was feeling overheated.. did a great arm workout.. got an AWESOME smoothie (they make the BEST smoothies.. like liquid 'make kerilyn smile') then i turned around.. and got some dinner with Peter.. i know.. I shouldn't of eaten but it was yummy.. and i was hungry.. and the 2 margaritas i had were good too..

yesterday i got basically caught up on ALL my work!!! And.. i got a phone call from a client.. I was working on her project yesterday.. she called me and told me I didn't need to continue working on it.. YES! It makes me happy to drop what I was doing in the trash.. and forget it.

I had another prospective roommate come by... I don't think he's the right fit.. I really desire someone who, upon meeting me.. is warm and friendly.. open. The 2 guys that have visited are shy and quiet. Who knows.. maybe i'm looking for too much of myself.. We'll see.. got a few more people down the road...

I had a great meditation this morning.. had this "epiphany"-like moment. Here I am.. trying to receive enlightenment so I can relieve myself from all anxiety and fear. But was 'hit' with the thought that I should, instead, try to deal with whatever anxiety and fear i have.. when it hits.. in the moment.. instead of trying to wish it ALL away.. My aunt said something to me last week (2 weeks ago already? wow.) she said that my house is full of inspirational things.. quotes.. and sayings.. but that I don't express that for the most part in my high/lows... that I seem depressed about those things that i can't figure out.. instead of focusing on all that I have.. Yea.. ya know I've known I do this for a while.. but it was a good reminder for me to realize all I do have.. and all I do believe.. that those inspirational things are what help me get thru each day.. and that i should place more focus on them.. instead of the things that haven't worked themselves out... yet.

Anyway.. Kerilyn is in a chatty Cathy mode today huh? Well, I wish you a good day.. if your interested in writing to me.. and i'll write back.. shoot me a comment or an email.. :)

onward and upward.
ancora imparo "i am still learning" in Latin
kerilyn

Here is my "What would I do?" Benchmark Card.. Hope you like it!  

High/Low 7.11.05

Morning!

how are ya? i feel great today.. just got done with a great meditation.. feel envigorated! I already clued you in on my weekend.. so i guess...

ah wait.. I'm posting my latest card... just so ya'll can take a peek.. Let me know what you think...

want to send healing thoughts and prayers to those affected by the bombings in London. Also to those in Florida.. and other areas affected by the weather.. a prayer of protection.

Strange? really drawing a blank at what to say today...
oh well..
onward and upward..
ancora imparo " i am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 7.10.05

Howdy.

Sunday nite.. i'm ready for bed.. and yes.. it's only 9:30 - I've been going to bed early lately.. I can't figure out why i'm tired around this time... oh well...

good weekend.. friday nite Naomi and I picked up the AWESOME picnic table and 2 benches from someone who answered my ad for just that! For 20 bucks no less!!! It's in great shape and like I said.. all i need to do now is spend some hours/days weeding/planting.. that's the rough part.. some of those weeds are taller than me!

Saturday I got my hair cut (i'll try to post a picture this week) it looks good.. a shoulder length bob cut.. i really like it! Its not too short and just long enough that I can feel it on my shoulders..then my digital photography class.. it was good.. i enjoyed actually being at the Corcoran.. instead of pining from the outside.. the class is WAY too big.. and so the individual attention went out the window.. But I learned some good settings on my camera.. eh.. i've learned one thing.. it's worth it! Then I went to this GROOVY store (k.. I'm SOOO taking you the next time you come visit) it's JUST the kind of store (a little more of a spiritual slant) that I want to own one day www.pulpdc.com I spent an hour and a half in there. just looking at all the things.. that's what I want my store to be.. an escape.. into sensory pleasure.. and imagination.. then i went to luna grill in DC by myself.. reading my book.. and home.. sleeping by 9:30 again... today I fiddled around in my studio.. made a card (how sad.. just made one.. felt a bit distracted but that's my issue.. gotta focus!) then i went to volunteer! Had a great time.. i think the reason why i'm doing it is to just be around people.. who are interested in art.. architecture.. I got to work the cash register a lot.. LOVE THAT!! from my sisters and my young girl dreams of working as cashiers when we got older... ah.. innocence.. i hung out with peter this evening.. went to eat at Hard Times .. yum.

Funny.. but knowing my boss isn't going to be in for the next 2 days.. I didn't get that sense of anxiety I usually get like Sunday afternoon.. I have been calm and actually look forward to work tomorrow for some weird reason...

Till tomorrow my lady and gentleman bugs.
keep smilin.
ancora imparo "i am still learning" in Latin
kerilyn

High/Low 7.8.05

bom manhã meu pequeno flor ~

Good morning my little flowers (in Portuguese) How art thou? Well it's Friday.. a rainy and beautiful overcast friday... am I ready for the weekend! Bet your bottom dollar I am!

I came home last nite... went to my follow up eye dr appt.. Found these Kickass pair of glasses!!! oh my gosh.. I am going to save some moolah and purchase them as soon as i can.. I'm also buying new contacts.. so I can go sans glasses a while.. (I think I feel more confident when I go without glasses)

This is kinda strange.. but I got home from the Eye Dr.. and went to bed! I was sleeping at 8:30 last nite... I mean it's only 9 hours of sleep, which is good for my body.. but I haven't gone to bed that early in a long time! I read a few pages of my awesome book... and drifted off.. astral travelling all the way! I woke up in the wee hours... the rain.. woke up in a panic.. having anxiety about some stuff.. tried to put it in a bubble and shoo it away.. it sorta worked.

Today I have a stinky job install in DC... I pray it goes well! Then tonite, depending on the rain.. I am supposed to go get the picnic table.. I might postpone till tomorrow if it still raining hard.. I don't want to soak the table... since it's been residing in a dry area up to now... eh.. hopefully Alfred, the current owner won't mind.. if I do delay...

Tomorrow I get hair cut.. then I have errands..then photography class!! I'm SO excited.. I got the curriculum emailed to me.. can't wait!!!

I am hopefully going to show someone else the spare room soon.. we've been emailing.. she sounds really interesting! Also.. I have an "interview" for a job that I have NO idea if I'm interested in... but the company wants to hire someone that has a good "vibe" (as they put it) and I respect that.. so I want to see if I have a similar vibe.. It's a company that makes trophys.. (WHY NOT? I have NOTHING to lose...)

Side note: 1. I HAVE to get back to the gym... and get back on my regime of no grain.. and 2. I HAVE to sit my BUTT down and get to my cards.. Art on the Avenue isn't THAT far away!!

Anyway.. I hope you have a good day.. whether it be rainy.. or sunny.. or heck.. snowing by you.. Please take a moment and direct your positive thoughts toward those affected by yesterdays bombing in London.. For those who have passed, I say a prayer of progression... and for those who are injured.. I pray for healing.. and ask the healing angels to take care of them!!!

K... talk to ya later! Have a great weekend!
ancora imparo "i am still learning" in Latin
kerilyn

High/Low 7.7.05

Hiety Ho my lovelies!!!

How are you? It's Thursday.. one more day! I'm ready for the weekend already!

My former neighbor, Nicole is lending me her truck so I can pick up a picnic table and (2) benches that I posted an ad for, for $20 bucks!!! A Redwood table no less! I am psyched.. Now I just need to spend ions of hours in the backyard.. pulling weeds, chopping down 2 monsters of weeds/bush/tree?? that is overtaking everything!!! Would like to get an umbrella for the table (if it has a hole in the center) and put lights on the inside of the umbrella! YEA! Going to pick up table tomorrow!!!

Rushed home to meet up with the first candidate to rent my spare room... well, he was 2 hours late.. and called me lost (that's ok.. he's not from around here) and was here for no more than 5 minutes.. Said he was looking for something closer to the metro. Oh well.. one down.. maybe few more to go?

Am reading this AMAZINGLY AWESOME book called "Many were called, few were chosen" Haven't read a book that inspires me like this in a LONG TIME!!! I wish I could just lay around all day and read it!!

Talked to my mom.. she's doing well... I know she's glad to be home.. in her own space. Honestly.. she sounded a bit winded when I talked to her.. congested.. so I hope she's not doing too much. I hope the Dr's know what they are doing to send her home. I meditated on her healing this morning and have ALL faith that she will have a speedy recovery. She already has recovered a LOT quicker than expected!!!

Made an appointment to get my hair cut on Saturday morning.. I am looking forward to it.. my hair needs a trim desparately! I am going to see what she comes up with for my cut.. I wouldn't mind getting it cut shorter.

Ok all.. Have a good Thursday.
Ancora Imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 7.6.05

Hey there my little lovebugs!

How are you? I feel GREAT at the moment! Wow.. how great to have a moment where everything seems to be RIGHT on track!

Had an amazing meditation this morning.. wow.. i think that's what started my feeling great! I got this strong impression as to where I should look for a job. I kept feeling like I should look into Washington DC Publishing Houses.. Why? I have NO idea.. but it can't hurt to see what's out there. I sent my resume to a few places.. who knows.

Tonite I have someone coming over.. I decided that I am going to consider the thought of getting a roommate. To use the spare room. Eh.. it's extra money that I could save for a car. I am NOT in a rush to find someone.. but want to meet someone to see if they are a good "vibe". I posted a classified ad on Craigslist http://washingtondc.craigslist.org/ So we'll see.. again.. I'm just trying to see if someone 'feels" right... So someone is coming over to look at the room. Why not? Ya know?

Well I have GREAT GREAT news!! My mom was sent home yesterday!!! Can you believe it?? It's awesome. They got a hospital bed delivered to my parents home yesterday evening.. and my mom is hopefully resting comfortably in the comfort of her own space. I hope she just takes it easy.. and doesn't try to do too much.. This is going to make it a bit harder to get out to see her.. (it was easier to visit her in Georgetown) but I will do my best! I am so grateful.. we were told that she might not be home for weeks.. and here it is.. under a week!!! It's amazing.. I believe it's cause she is NOT alone.. getting help from her angels and those praying for her!

Anyway... you have a good day.. I'll have a good day!
see ya.
kerilyn

ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin

High/Low 7.5.05

Hola..

Como esta? How was your fourth? Did you see some exciting fireworks? Eat a yummy hamburger? Drink a cold beer? I hope you did!

It's Tuesday and today I try to return to my routine of work, gym and well.. now visiting mom in hospital. I hope to hear the status of her hospital stay today. Maybe she'll be going home or to rehab in the next day or so. She looks GREAT! It really is a miracle the progress she has made! I'll tell ya.. the Drs told us that she would be in a drug induced coma the first few days to handle the pain and let her body rest. But she never had to get to that stage. She's more mobile and saucy then Ever! It's so great to see!! I hope she keeps it up!

I'm SOOO excited!! This weekend I begin my 3 Saturdays of digital photography class at the Corcoran! I am so psyched!!! I want to learn how to adjust the shutter speed to take different kinds of pics... Then I volunteer at the Museum this Sunday!

Ok.. I won't lie to you all... I am a bit nervous to go back to work today. I hope everything went well when I was gone. I pray for protection and ask that the day goes by very quickly.

I am reading a GREAT book.. I haven't read a good spiritual book in a while. Thanks to Auntie who brought me this book, called "Many were called, few were chosen" by Heather A. Harder. So good to remind myself, even on a soul level of why we are all here. I feel inspired reading it!

Well I'm off... into the abyss of this day. I wish right now that today bring many belly laughs and calm feelings in the solar plexus...

Ancora Imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

Things I want to accomplish in this lifetime

I saw this great posting.. http://www.letitfall.org/todo.html and was inspired to come up with as many goals/aspirations I would like to accomplish.. I didn't want to limit myself to 50.. and who knows.. maybe I'll only come up with 10 (I HIGHLY doubt that.) This is going to be an ever changing (adding/subtracting/check marking when I do it) list.. but I would like to see if I can come up with more than a handful of amazing things to do in my lifetime... because I am only limited by my imagination..the rest.. is fate, will, and determination (with a smidge of luck and wisdom) I welcome you to comment on my list, or tell me your own... (I reserve the right to delete your comments if I feel they hinder my attempt at what I'm trying to do here. just so you know.)

1. Have a full line of 'Benchmark' cards, and always enough cards made to sell them at any time. (Which means at LEAST 20 of each card at all times!)
2. Have a beautiful, artistic, spiritual, "So much myself" website (and learn how to manage it) so I can always be in connection with all of you... help stretch my creativity and spirituality.
3. Be the subject of an artistic, beautiful.. sexy nude photo shoot (NOT lude or crude) and have my favorite shot framed on one of my walls...
4. Learn how to knit.
5. Jump from a really high distance into the water.
6. Buy my own house, and do a KICKASS job landscaping.. so people would come by and want to take pictures.
7. Go shopping for something and not have to think TWICE about how this is going to affect my account balance, because I will have MORE than enough money.
8. Meet Sylvia Browne (www.sylvia.org) and end up being friends.
9. Visit the places where my grandfather would have gone to, In Italy.
10. Learn to become fluent in Italian.
11. Learn to become fluent in Sign Language.
12. Live in New York City.
13. Lose enough weight to buy a dress/shirt/skirt/anything from Anthropologie, www.anthropologie.com
14. Buy a custom made sofa (5 way Hand tied springs, Custom Fabric, Trims, oak frame, etc..)
15. Have 'stolen reading' party in Bookstores (meet a group of friends at a bookstore.. and just sit in the aisles and read.. drink coffee.. and talk about life and the subjects in the books we're reading/take great pictures of us)
16. Buy my first car.. (I really want a VW Passat)
17. Meet and fall in love with someone who is 'one of the searchers' www.james-kavanaugh.com
18. Publish my High/Lows (the good ones anyway)
19. Find and meet Joey Fratesi (my Jr. High/High School crush) and see what the heck he's done with his life.
20. Run a 1/2 marathon.
21. One day.. when I get older.. get together all my good girlfriends that have been in and out of my life (Denise Degroat, Terri Shenlinger, Becky Krollman, Laurie Moore, Lisa Bertomeu, Terry Vergos, Phyllis Pfeiffer, Kyra Dosch-Klemer, Natasha Schaefer, Heather Bury, Kriss Knestaut, Lisa Scott, Kristen Allen, Michelle Beach, Liz Teston, Tina McNeeley, Davina Foster, Kristine Templin, Roxanne Averill, Nicole Heinze, Naomi Johnson and my sister. (That's just who came to mind in this moment) and meet... What would we do? I don't know... Commune in the fact that our lives have crossed paths.. and what we have learned from each other.
22. Go to a meditation retreat.. where for 2-3 days.. noone speaks.. and we spend a great bit of time in meditation.
23. I desire to "bump into" a female celebrity (in a bookstore would be nice) and find out that she too, is one of "The Searchers" too, and ask her what she did to help her thru the tough times.
24. Get into the nightlife scene more. (Indie movies, art openings, wine tastings, book signings, lectures, theater, etc.)
25. Do a monologue in front of a large crowd..

High/Low 7.4.05

Happy fourth my fiery sparklers!!!

Hey! What's shakin? It's been a long and fast past few days... and i'm happy to report that my mom is doing really well. She was up and walking around yesterday, her physical therapist challenged her to go up some steps..she did great! I am SOOO proud of her! I do not see the same painful look in her eyes from before the surgery.. it's a pain, yes, but it's different.. it's like the hope of pain-free days.. that kinda sparkle in her eyes.. and it's great to see!!! They are saying that she could go home possibly tomorrow, or go into rehab for a few days. I would opt for the rehab.. this way.. she gets more rest.. and someone to take care of her hand and foot! We all could use that

My auntie flew out yesterday morning.. I had a great time with my family (even though it was an emotional reason they came.. we had a good time.. lotsa laughing!) Went to visit my mom after dropping off Auntie.. and then came home.. and crashed!!! I took a really long nap.. was out of it!!

As for me.. something has shifted for me.. inside.. I can't put my finger on it but neither is it bad or good... I can just sense a change.. Some good insights the past few days.. about how I express myself to you all.. that I want to work on..II feel a bit emotional.. (always) but I also feel very rooted as well.. the past few days have been very good for me.. Well it's a lot to talk about.. But it feels EXACTLY like what's supposed to happen.. so that's good!

I want to thank EACH and every one of you for your thoughts and prayers.. I can tell you that I can FEEL your support for my mom and for me.. I can tell that she is surrounded by healing.. and I think that it's your thoughts and prayers that have accelerated her healing! I am grateful.. THANK YOU!!! We need to send healing thoughts to each other more often, in our everyday lives.. the power of thought.. is beyond words!

I am going to enjoy this day.. even if it's doing laundry.. and cleaning... Today is Independence day.. and I am going to celebrate my own independence! :) Hope you do the same!

ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

PS: I've added a few more things to what i want to accomplish in my lifetime.. as well as added a few more pictures to flickr... (The flash icon with the pictures) check them out!

High/Low 7.1.05

hey everyone!

how ya doin? I"m good! Tired and good.. it's been a harrowing past few days.. BIG ups and some downs.. but all in all an amazing 2 days.. my mom is going fine.. Thank you for your prayers.. she went into surgery at 8AM on Thursday 6/28 and we didn't get to see her until around 5:30 that afternoon.. it was a successful surgery.. and my mom is actually doing really well! She has her own room.. and is progressing quite quickly! We are all very grateful to have our mom laughing with us today.. (she actually has been pretty up beat!)

She was supposed to go into a rehabilitation place for a week or so.. but the Dr said if she continues to progress.. she might get to go straight home! What a great surprise! Now there is a lot of pain.. and she is on a bit of pain medication (morphine) so.. we'll see... one day at a time!

It's been great having my family and friends with me.. I am getting to know my uncle a lot more.. whom I just adore.. and my Auntie.. it's been awesome having her here too... We have done a LOT of laughing.. and reminicing.. which is good! Peter spent the day with me in the hospital.. and came to visit today too.. which is a GREAT show of support.. He actually made dinner for my whole family tonite at his place.. I made yummy risotto and he grilled.. yum!

All in all.. a very good past few days.. i'd say the only 2 things that are stinky is i'm SO tired.. on the go go go go.... i am ready for a LONG nap!!! And.. i have strayed from my no grain TREMENDOUSLY the past few days.. eating cookies (i haven't had a cookie since last april) and whatever comes in front of my face... I saw some really bad pictures of me today.. ugh.. i NEED to get back on the wagon again.. my sister is looking SO good!! oh man... i need to try to catch up...

alright.. i can barely keep my eyes open.. check my flickr.. i got some GREAT pics!!!
more later my lovebugs.
ancora imparo
kerilyn