High/Low 8.31.05 BIG DAY!!!!

Hey ya'll...

What? Either noone reads my high/low anymore.. or my website is SO good that I doesn't need tweeking. If you get a chance.. will you take a peek and let me know what you like and what you'd make changes to (constructive criticism I'd like to call it) I'd really appreciate your feedback.

Yesterday was a BUSY day.. and a very eventful day... I had 3 appointments for work yesterday.. 2 in DC and one out by my parents house.. so i wasn't in the office but maybe 30 minutes... I have a LOT of work to do today and tomorrow before I go on vacation for 5 days.. but I am hopeful that with some focus.. I WILL get everything accomplished!

I went to visit my parents after my last appointment.. my mom's body chose itself to have rhumatoid arthritis in her feet and hands. She's been off her R.A. medicine for 2 months now because of the surgery/other medications... and somehow her body chose to react to the R.A. She has an appointment with the R.A. doctor today, so we will know more.. but she's in a bit of pain. I send her love.. and surround her with her highest good today.. If you know my mom..even if you don't.. will you surround her with love for a moment.. She could use it.

It was a bit challenging to see my mom in pain.. I am conflicted because i see her in pain.. but I know that there is WAY more in this world than what we see and feel.. and i know that her pain can be healed. I know that when I have the flu.. i might not be consciously be thinking "Heal thyself" (well... maybe I would) but I am conflicted.. one side I know she can conquer her pain.. and the other side of me knows that pain, albeit a metaphor for something within, is not fun or comfortable.

It was a challenge to be home.. watching the devastation from the Hurricane.. My boss said.. "Why are you not going to Savannah. The hurricane missed Savannah by a long shot!" I thought about reconsidering... and thought.. I do not think I should be flitting around enjoying myself.. when others don't have homes and/or are missing their family... No... I will meditate this weekend for those affected... and send light.. that's my plight.

ok.. you ready for the BIG BIG news??? BIG.. HUGE.. ENORMOUS!!!!!! Ready?? ok.

I spent the evening test driving and looking at cars with Peter... I test drove a few cars... both Toyota and VW.. and I put the paperwork thru to find out what my payments would be on a 2001 Jetta. Yes.. this is me.. Kerilyn Fox... actually considering the possiblity of buying my first car... big decision??? you BET your sweet patootie it is.. I will not say that I am not nervous... for i have never owned my own car before (anything significant for that matter) but my Toyota Camry.. with 194,000 miles.. I know.. is nearing the end of her life.. and if not.. our Sunday bout of my car not starting is enough to get me searching.... So.... after many hours in the dealership.. finding out that I don't have the worst credit in the world ( a BIG thing to hear for this kerilyn girl) and finding out how much my insurance would cost... the whole kitten cabootle... the dealer let me take the car home to test drive for the day... WOW... WOW WOW WOW.... i dont' think i've ever really driven anything other than my families cars.. for any significant period of time.. This Jetta.. 50,000 miles.. RED.. Manual (stick)... V6 (ok.. i don't drive fast.. but this thing has POWER!) and a 6 CD changer in the trunk ( we didn't know about till we drove it off the lot last nite) I have today to think about it.. to drive it.. Who knows.. maybe the whole purpose of Angela coming is so I can take on this challenge. For more than half of her rent.. would go to my car payment and insurance... I have to think long and hard today.. i meditated on it.. in my meditation.. my grandpa's presence was near.. it made me cry... i cried for a while.. I got some good thoughts from him.... thank you grandpa..

Anyway... here is a pic.. from my front door.. I am ok to walk away from this... knowing that I accomplished something.. I can buy a car. Here is the proof.. I have been nervous for so long.. but I am ready or almost ready (depending on what i choose) to take this leap... I do not wish to succumb to the fears.. I need to be practical.. but not to let the good in this situation to be underfelt...

So.. I have a BUSY BUSY BUSY day ahead of me... my mind will be RACING...... so you know where to get a hold of me.. if you want to send me notes of encouragement.. I need my peeps... that's you..

ok.. gotta run... thanks for listening.
onward and upward.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 8.30.05

Morning my chocolate covered love bunnies..

How are you? I would like to ask you to take 20 seconds to bring light to the people affected by Hurricane Katrina. Just our thoughts alone can bring about positive change to a devastating situation. We have more power than we think.. we just need to learn how to tap into it.

So Naomi and i decided not to go to Savannah this weekend. Of course I'm bummed but a part of me is relieved too, not sure why though... We will rain check till probably the spring.. Memorial Day 2006 maybe... oh well.. will have to hold out on eating Kyotos... :( I am still taking this Friday and Next Tuesday off (Monday is Labor Day) and I am planning on sitting my butt at the drafting table and knocking out at least 50 cards.. I'm going to try for 100. That's over a 4 day period.. I am also going to order the fortunes.. for inside the cards.. and the clear sleeves that protect the cards. I would like to get to the pool sometime this weekend, for this is the last weekend before it closes for the season. I would also like to go to Ikea ...yea Ikea!

After work I ran 2 miles... 1st mile felt really good.. then the silly treadmill went demonic on me.. and just started slowing down, then going faster.. on it's own.. i changed treadmills.. and then I guess my psyche was off .. cause the 2nd mile was a bit more challenging.

I came home and watched this AWESOME Disney Movie... that i had never seen before.. called Lilo and Stitch .. it was SO good.. I was crying and laughing!!! Then I did one card (I could've done more but i was tired!) and went to bed....

My girl Kyra updated my website!!! Hopefully I am going to get hosting this weekend so it can go live!!! YEA!! Let me know what you think.. it still needs some tweeking.. but it looks really good!!! The 'who am I' is being edited by my friend Marge, who is a true linguist!

Ok.. gotta boogie... have a great day.. don't forget to take a moment and send your loving thoughts to those affected by the hurricane..
onward and upward.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
kerilyn

High/Low 8.29.05

Hiety ho my little butterflies...

How was your weekend? Mine was great starting around 1:30 pm on Saturday.. before that.. I was quite sad (as you can tell per my previous posting on Saturday) Then I talked to my Auntie.. and she shed some light on some things.. which felt both awkward and good to hear.. as all of our "stuff" can be.. awkward to see. She told me about this place.. in DC that you can go to receive light.. and it's free... as soon as she told me about it.. i felt compelled to go.. it was a strong feeling.. so I called.. and they were open.. as soon as the Window Man left (he replaced the window in the bathroom with a frosted/tempered glass instead of clear) I boogied myself downtown.. and went to this place.. Sukyo MariKari it's called.. It was a really interesting experience... like hands on healing.. and I can come back any time I wish.. and I will... well, It feels to me.. like doing that broke some of the blocks I was having...

cause from there.. I walked down the street.. to this rug shop.. and had the most in depth and profound conversation with the employee at the rug shop.. he felt like i was meant to meet him.. it was really interesting.. wow.. maybe we'll hang out.. who knows.. then I got a phone call from the lady from Art on the Avenue.. and We're IN!!!!! She said that because of the overwhelming response for craft vendors.. it took a while to process everyone.. YEA!!! That shifted my WHOLE energy around!!! I came home.. made 10 cards... and went to bed... felt SO much better...

Sunday.. got up early..my car wouldn't start.. ugh.. i guess at 194,000 miles.. my car should be praised for running so well.. for so long.. It started eventually and has been ok.. I LOVE my AWESOME CAR!!! Peter and I went to the Eastern Market in DC (I can't WAIT to take Angela.. roomie) so many cute things.. I feel " so much myself" when I'm doing that kinda stuff. Unfortunately Peter doesn't have the patience for walking around.. so we were there shorter than I would've liked (in his defense, I had a timeline to meet.. so it was probably good that we didn't stay long) Then we went to have brunch at the Carlyle Grand. I had never been there.. it was really good!!! Wow.. it is one of my favorite restaurants.. bit pricey.. so this just confirms my enjoyment! Peter dropped me off. and Naomi and I went into DC to see Wayne Dyer speak! After like almost 40 minutes of driving around trying to find parking.. it was frustrating.. we were 15 minutes late.. but under 'everything happens for a reason'.. we got a great seat.. probably closer than if we were to arrive on time! IT WAS AMAZING!!!! I mean... you want to talk about inspiration!!! Wow.. I know he touched me... I was crying a bit from time to time (go figure) and I know it also touched Naomi.. his daughter Skye sang these beautiful songs.. and we heard from this survivor of the genocide in Rwanda.. wow. it was POWERFUL!!! I think Naomi and I have become changed a bit because of this experience.... came home and made cards.. Peter and I got some grub, Mexican yum! .. worked on cards some more.. then went to bed..

I can say that I had a blessed weekend.. a confirmation that life doesn't just happen willy nilly.. that there is a certain pattern to it.. that we are able to manifest what we desire.. if we focus on what we desire hard enough...

So I think Naomi and I are postponing Savannah this weekend.. but I will still be off... working on cards.. going to the movies.. sleeping in.. cleaning... We aren't 100% yet about not going..we'll see how Mother Earth moves.. but it's a possiblity..

side note: I am running this week! more than normal.. i chose to eat some not so healthy for me foods this weekend.. and I need to work it off..

ok.. have a great week all!
onward and upward.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
kerilyn

Saturday... I wish I was in NYC this morning

Sitting here...

drinking coffee ... rainy, gray day... feeling a little melancoly.. got things on my mind.. things not accomplished.. challenges... daily opportunities to reach for my faith... the fact that I can look in the past.. but not the future....

looking at submissions for Photo Friday and I stumble upon one that is taken at 5PM on a Friday in Penn Station... and I think.. I wish I was in Manhattan this morning... waking up.. to the sounds of cars whirring by... people.. birds.. putting on some jeans and a t shirt.. ponytail secures the hair... flip flops.. and I would take to the street.. in search for a cup of coffee and a bagel... a place to read or journal or cry... stumbling upon great photo opportunities... and that feeling of freedom... in such a relatively small place...

i love how i feel when i am walking around new york by myself.. a friend of mine used to live in Manhattan.. and when i used to visit her.. i got that rush... you know.. that "i can do anything I want at anytime I want" feeling... so liberating.. i used to get up before she did and go for a walk.. sigh.. I felt complete... even though there were holes and dents there.. prodding at my mind.. at my emotions.. for the moment.. walking down the street.. seeing the store owners open up shop.. i felt whole...

anyway... I wish I was in Manhattan right now... cause I could use a dose of that 'feeling whole' feeling today.

onward and upward.
kerilyn

High/Low 8.26.05

Hiety Ho my sugar cookies!!!

How are ya? I am great! It's friday.. and I am on a sugar rush at the moment.. I majorly cheated just now... someone brought in like EIGHT dozen donuts from both Krispy Kreme and Dunkin Donuts here at work.. I chose not to resist.. and had 2 glazed Krispy Kremers.. YEOWEE!!! I can feel the sugar rushing thru my veins!!! It's Friday.. life is SWEET!!! (no pun intended) so I choose to enjoy it!

I didn't write this morning because Angela and I sat on the couch and drank coffee and caught up with each other.. I know i said this yesterday.. but I"m glad she's around... She left me a chocolate chip cookie this morning... left it on the coffee pot for me to find.. so nice... She's leaving town for the weekend today.. so we sat and chatted a bit.. she is SO a searcher just like me.. it's so nice to converse with someone who's able to articulate what she's "working on"... I love that!

OK! So.... Peter came up with a GREAT idea.. that I am going to use for my cards!!!We were eating somewhere a few days ago.. and i showed him the fortunes that I keep in my wallet from my past jaunts to eat chinese food.. Some of the best sayings like "You constantly stuggle for self improvement" (which I think i do.. although I choose to not say I struggle with it) and 'You are a deep thinker with a knack for problem solving" (ok the deep thinker part yes, but i'm not so sure about problem solving) Peter said I should make up my own fortunes and put them in the cards.. I thought that was a great idea but when am I going to have the time to make fortunes... I'm going to be spending the time making cards? SO... I found a custom fortune cookie company online.. and called them.. This company will make me 100 fortunes for $5.00 and.... I can create (4) different sayings! I'm going to do it (next week when I get paid.. lol!!!) How awesome is that? Custom made fortunes in each card!!! Isn't that a great idea!! I want to create 4 sayings that are really personal.. and touch each person on an inner soul self level.. I have a week to think about it.. If you have any ideas.. please let me know!

On the card tip.. I made (2) cards last nite! I coulda made 3 or 4 if I didn't suddenly have a yearning for something sweet and went on a trip to get chocolate covered macadamia nuts.. and bought an AWESOME pair of earrings while I was out satisfying my sweet tooth...only $10 bucks.. (ok I'm not raking in the dough right now.. I probably shouldn't of spent the money on new earrings.. sigh)

This weekend I am READY for.. tonite i'm running for sure. Friday is always a good nite to run.. noone is there.. everyone is out.. I can have the run of the place! (no pun intended!! boy i'm funny today!) Then I don't know.. I might hang out with my friend Derek.. who I haven't seen in a long time... tomorrow is SLEEPING IN!!! doing cards (I WILL have 30 cards done by Monday! that's my goal) and dancing around to good music... then the window people will come in the afternoon to replace the window in the shower.. to a frosted glass... (who knows if my neighbors can see me in my birthday suit...while I lather up my hair... :) lol!!!) More cards and more cards.. Sunday sleeping in again.. and then.. Naomi and I go see Wayne Dyer at 2... yea!!! i'm psyched!!!

This time next week I will be en route to Savannah! yea! I hope the weather is nice.. (and no hurricanes suddenly affect the warm fronts!)

ok my buttercups.. you have a great weekend.. let me know if you come up with some simple and personal sayings for my fortunes..
onward and upward.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 8.25.05

What's up buttercups?

It's Thursday... I wish it was Friday... It just doesn't seem plausable, after the day I had yesterday that I have another day to go thru... today should be the end of it.. another georgeous nite... cool breezes.. no air conditioning.. love it!

I had a BUSY BUSY day yesterday.. I was, what they call in the restaurant business, being "weeded" or "in the weeds".. I was running around like a Chicken with my head cut off.. trying to accomplish a multitude of things... pertaining to work.. Had to meet with the part owner/woman on a project I'm working on and she is very intimidating.. she STARES at me... right in the eyes.. when I'm talking.. like a challenge.. You know how they say dont' look a dog in the eyes.. that's how i felt.. when she stares at me.. makes me want to yell out "WHAT? STOP STARING AT ME!! GIVE ME A BREAK!!! I'M LEARNING THIS NEW PROJECT!RUFF RUFF RUFF!!! ugh.. then i had to get ready for a meeting downtown.. ugh.. let's just say it was not the easiest of days.. but eh... keep smiling and moving on...

Peter was making dinner, grilling out last nite.. it was his day off.. but I first had to run.. i only ran a mile but i needed to move.. to work off the frustration of the day.. I can say that i can tell my cardiovascular endurance is getting better.. it felt more natural.. Peter made yummy ribs and hamburgers on the grill.. homemade guacamole.. (yum!)

My boss is out today and tomorrow.. and my other boss.. for this new project is out on Friday and Monday.. so I am going to try to get everything I can done today.. so I can have an easy friday... gonna try anyway..

oh yea.. last nite after I got home from Peters.. I made another card! Only 298 cards to go!!! :) lol.. I can do it... i know it!

3 things that make me happy:
- Really happy that Angela is my roommate!! She left me chocolate covered strawberries and a cookie this morning when I got up to make my coffee!! (She's a pastry chef) How awesome is that? I feel blessed that she's my roommate.. I know that i will learn a lot from her.. and she could end up being a great friend!
- I originally had to be at a job site at 8AM this Saturday.. and I found out yesterday afternoon that they needed to reschedule.. so I don't have to get up early!! Sleeping in!!! YEA!!!
- Being able to tell that the running i am doing is working!!

2 things I look forward to:
- Going running tonite then knowing I have food for dinner.. that i don't have to make anything tonite!
- Going to bed early (fingers crossed) I have been going to bed too late for me.. getting up later.. ugh.

2 long term things I look forward to:
- Tuesday, September 6th.. the day AFTER we get back from Savannah and knowing I do not have to go to work!!! I took off the day after labor day too!
- Having a whole bunch of people I know come to my booth at Art on the Avenue!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
- One of my bosses, Ken... He's in his early 60's and he admits that he's still learning.. and till unsure of what he wants to do with his life.. It's SUCH a comfort to hear that even he.. who has travelled around the world.. and owns part of the company I work for.. still thinks the same things I think of every day!!!

ok my lovebugs.. you have a great day.. I'll try to do the same.
onward and upward
ancora imparo "i am still learning" in Latin
kerilyn

High/Low 8.24.05

Hey ya'll...

Wednesday... thankfully.. doesn't the week just fly by? I can't believe that 1/2 the week is over already. Sounds silly.. but true... Yesterday was another glorious day of low humidity and cooler breezes... I even shut off the air conditioning last nite.. and opened the windows.. I hope that it stays like this for a while longer...

Work was fine... a situation with me chatting with a co-worker meaning that i have nothing to do.. ugh... I choose Peace rather than this... nothing to complain about.. just keep smiling and go on..

Then I called the Art Institute to see about the status of the position of Assistant Director of Admissions.. It's been 3 weeks since I last talked ot the Director.. and she told me that they have been put under a budget/hiring freeze and she will let me know when that changes.. I was really really bummed.. it kinda put me over the edge for a while into my own self-pity... 'whoa is me'.. i guess i still feel a bit dissapointed and let down.. but there's nothing really productive that can come from being depressed about it.. gotta just smile and push thru it...

Naomi and i went on a bike ride last nite.. it was so nice... cool.. beautiful sunset... she hit some balls at the batting cages.. nice evening.. then I did a card! yea me! hey.. one card is better than no cards... I have 299 cards to go! :) lol...

I was up WAY WAY WAY too late... round the midnight hour.. and I feel really tired today.. I guess i feel like i need to stay up to talk to Angela when she gets home from work.. and that means I stay up later.. I need to go to bed early tonite.. cause I am pooped today!!!

k ya'll.. have a great day
onward and upward
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 8.23.05

Whats up buttercups..

How are ya? Tuesday... i'm quite tired today for some reason... i didn't go to bed late.. weird... it was a glorious day, temperature wise yesterday.. and supposed to be nice today too... yesterdays sunset was spectacular! I took a picture i was so enthralled..

On Sunday I 'googled' my high school crush; Joey Fratesi.. and I actually found him! Wow.. then I decided to take it a bit farther.. and I emailed him.. to say hi.. what's up.. what have you been doing the past 12 years or so.. and he wrote me back!!!! I was a giggly girl getting his emails.. you shoulda seen me!!!

Work was... uneventful for the most part... came home.. went to gym, ran 2 miles.. returned the card stock that was the wrong color back to staples.. got the right color.. then went over to Peters.. we tried out this hole in the wall mexican restaurant.. and it was really good! I would definately go again...

My girlfriend Roxanne's kitty is sick.. and I feel sad for her.. I know that kitties don't have the long life span as we do.. but I am sad when I think of what will happen when Pez gets old and leaves me...

3 things that make me happy:
- smart, bordering on sarcastic flirting
- good chicken fajitas
- black and white photos of my friends and I

2 things that I look forward to:
- Going to see Wayne Dyer on Sunday afternoon with Naomi.. looking forward to being inspired!
- Going on Vacation next week! 5 days off! The beach.. good food.. hanging out with Naomi..

2 long term things I look forward to:
- consecutive nights of sleeping with the windows open and no air conditioning
- getting up to runnin 3 miles a day!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
- my mailman.. every day, either when i go home for lunch or home for the day.. there my mail is... and sometimes i even have fun mail! My mailman wears a colored umbrella hat.. and he says hi to me when he sees me..

Tonite is the gym and then working on cards.. i brought my original templates and card stock to copy 30 of each card today.. so I have NO excuses about not having cards to make! Kyra and I decided to name our booth "beneath the surface" and she is making a sign for the table!!!

GRRRRRRRR... venting venting... There is one woman at work that does not like me.. she is a very angry and negative person.. and yet.. she affects me quite a bit...I "lose my voice" when I have to deal with her (I chose 'deal' as an adequate word to describe my interactions with her) and I am challenged every day to learn to breathe thru her behavior.. and try to take the high road.. sometimes I am successful at it.. others.. ooh! I just get so angry.. which is not solving anything!

Have a great day.. say a prayer for all the k
onward and upward
ancora imparo "i am still learning" in Latin

kerilyn

High/Low 8.22.05

Hey there my little ponies!

How are ya? I'm good.. as good as I can be.. this weekend was hot.. just plain ol H-O-T. Walking down the street means you should carry a bottle of water with you.. to replenish. They "say" that it's going to be much cooler this week.. high in the low 80's.. yea.. we'll see about that..

all in all.. good weekend..first weekend with roomie... i'm getting used to her being here.. it's actually quite natural.. strange... she's really easy going.. she left yesterday (Sunday) for the Beach.. she went camping by herself on the beach.. how cool... She was telling me stories of traveling thru China and Italy by herself.. (not on the same trip) .. how brave..

As for me... saturday I had a date.. there were no sparks but it was a good time.. we probably will hang out as friends at a later time.. who knows.. after the date i became a bit melancoly with respect to what i ultimately desire in a mate vs. where I am currently... ugh.. makes me sad...

yesterday i hung out with my friend Lyle... we went to brunch and chatted.. then I drove us to Pulp , we looked around a while.. went down to Cake Love and had a cupcake (yes.. I knowingly ate grain.. I have been really slack with the no grain.. ugh..) Lyle is awesome and I enjoy spending time with him every once in a blue... he is an old soul.. and is quite wise for his young age (23)

Yesterday afternoon...after hanging out with Lyle (but not before or during) I was in a really bad mood.. and the sequence of events that happened.. I don't even want to go into it.. grrr!! I was so frustrated... ever have one of those days... when everything seems to go wrong.. or take much longer than you expected.. i was unsuccessful at releasing expectation...

Strange and silly news... I found, on the internet, where my crush from high school is.. and what he's up to... hee hee hee..

ok... i gotta roll... Angela's not here.. so I can play my music while I get ready..
have a great monday.
onward and upward.
kerilyn

High/Low 8.19.05

Hallelujah!!!! Friday has come!!!

Not that I had a bad week or anything... I didn't.. pretty good one I must say... but I'm really looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow.. and getting a pedicure... relaxing.. Looks like it's supposed to rain throughout the weekend.. I will be sad and happy.. sad because I have some outdoor things to do this weekend but happy because the plants are in serious need for some watering.

Well my land line is back on.. Hallelujah to that too.. whew.. I think you'd laugh at me.. walking thru the house on my cell phone... trying to find a signal... well no more..

I wish I didn't have to go downtown today.. I kinda feel like just sitting in the office all day.. waiting for the day to end... but alas.. I have a meeting downtown at 10:30..ugh. just not in the mood today...

Yea!! I made a T-Shirt to wear during Art on the Avenue.. it has an empty bench on the front..and text saying 'Benchmarks' on the back, Check it out!!!!.. i'm SO excited to see how it comes out.. yea! I think.. you could order one too!!!.. that would be cool.. having people wearing my t-shirts!

I got a phone call yesterday from a design firm... she has a position available and saw my resume online somewhere.. Well I called her back.. and said that I am not interested in seeking design positions anymore. It was kinda liberating to express that.. to someone that could've had an opportunity for me.. It confirmed that I really want to take my career down another path.. (Art Institute maybe.. still no word.. poo)

Anyway.. i must go.. running late.. making T-Shirts.. Have a great weekend!
onward and upward.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 8.18.05

Hey there...

Thursday... I wish it was Friday.. but oh well... time already goes fast.. i guess i shouldn't wish each day away huh? The humidity isn't so heavy the past day or so.. which makes for happier people walking around.. actually driving with their windows open.. I hope it stays like this.. I actually felt a glimpse of fall yesterday.. cooler breezes... i really enjoy the fall...

i had a good day yesterday.. everything seemed right with the world.. in dealing with me.. I can always tell when I'm doing ok.. I whistle a lot... yesterday I couldn't get the theme song for 'The Munsters' out of my head.. went running after work... really good run.. then.. i was doing an arm workout.. and i caught a glimpse of my body in the mirror... was like.. 'oh my gosh.. this is disgusting' and felt the need to get out of that gym before the 'Fat Police' were to escort me out of the gym.... ugh...

Angela and I went to Wholefoods/FreshFields last nite.. so I could show her where it was.. I got stuff for smoothies this morning... it already feels so natural.. her being here.. it's interesting.. i hope it continues..

My land line phone goes back on today sometime.. thank goodness.. an unsuccessful attempt to try to save money... but an attempt no less... if you don't have my land line no.. email me.. and i'll refresh ya... Whew... if you knew how frustrating it's been this past week.. NO reception with my cell phone in the house.. ugh!!!!!

Ok.. so originally I told myself that i was to make NO plans this weekend... but I have anyway.. I have a date on Saturday.. (refraining from making any decisions/divulging any information about it till afterward) and Sunday I'm hanging out with my absolutely cutie pie friend Lyle...without feeling about Saturday.. and excited about Sunday!

I got my digital camera back... they said they didn't find anything wrong with it.. WEIRD!!!

oh yea.. Naomi and i are going to have a yard Sale (I've never had a yard sale) on Sunday, September 18th... I have SO much stuff that I do not use on a daily basis.. so in an attempt to try to practice minimizing my life's "stuff" i'm going to just give give give (ok.. sell sell sell) it all away... i hope I have a lot of things to sell.... cause i have a lot of stuff...

3 things that make me happy:
- Opening my email and seeing that I actually have emails from people I know vs, the amount of junk emails I get... Makes me happy.
- Getting invited to the 25th Anniversary Party of the National Building Museum... Not that I am going to go, $100 tickets, ugh, but still.. makes me feel a part of something big.
- One of my clients emailed my boss and told him that he wanted my boss to know that i did a wonderful job on one of the furniture installs.. my boss wrote back something nice too.. SO nice to hear something good...
- My co-worker/friend Erin.. got accepted into Massage School yesterday!!! I was talking to her about overcoming her fears and going for it! And look! She's going to do something to help her fulfill her dreams! That made me SO happy to hear yesterday!!!

2 things that I look forward to:
- Cleaning out my refrigerator from the party (potato salad, corn and beans and LOTS of beer (that I don't drink) so I can actually go grocery shopping.
- Sitting there... in the massage chair.. while one of the ladies gives me a pedicure on Saturday, my feet are in desparate need!!!.. (I cannot WAIT!!)

2 long term things I look forward to:
- Shutting off the Air Conditioning and having the windows open all day long.. AHH FALL!!!
- I am determined to run a 5K this fall.. (3.1 miles) I want to wait till it gets cooler.. so maybe in October.

1 person I am going to appreciate:
- My dad... for in recent years.. my dad and i have become quite distant.. (makes me sad) but I appreciate how much patience he's exuded over the past few months helping my mother heal.. I have seen my dad do things (laundry) that I have NEVER seen him do.. I appreciate my dad for taking care of my mom. (Side note: She's doing well.. went to doctor on Tuesday.. dr said she's coming along better than he expected - and no going back to work for 2-3 months)

ok my lovebugs.. you have a wonderful day.. keep smiling.
onward and upward.
ancora imparo "i am still learning" in latin
kerilyn

PS: HEY!!!! I FOUND OUT THIS MORNING THAT PETER IS GOING TO BE INTERVIEWED ON THE TODAY SHOW'S WEEKEND EDITION ON SATURDAY!!!! Every year.. the restaurant does a calendar.. and i guess it got some attention.. if you are up when it's on.. take a look see at the Today show.. How exciting.. I asked him if he'll find out if I can come down there.. NOT that I want to be on TV.. I just want to support him! COOL huh???

High/Low 8.17.05

Hiety ho....

What's up? Wednesday... day closer to my weekend of no plans.. ah... waking up whenever... relaxing into whatever on Saturday... I can't wait.. daydreaming about it...

So Angela moved in last nite... she seems really cool.. i can tell i'm going to learn some stuff from her... she tries to eat as much raw food as possible.. which is awesome.. and is really into yoga.. and has travelled all over the country by herself.. and is really about not having "stuff" define her.. which in a strange coincidence (which there are none) is what I'm beginning to grasp onto myself...beginning to consider it anyway..

Strangely enough.. I found myself a little sad last nite too.. while she's talking to me.. and moving in and such... I am sure this is normal but I kinda felt sad that i was losing my solitude a little bit.. but at the same time.. I'm sure it will be awesome to have someone there.. i just have to adjust.. and Pez! wow.. I'm kinda amazed at how chill Pez is around Angela.. like she was always here.. the only thing we have to curb pez of is scratching at Angelas door.. that spare room door is not used to being closed...

Naomi and I got the hotel for Savannah! It's official! We're goin'!!! I'm psyched!!! It'll be a nice drive down... lotsa talking.. book on CD maybe... I can't wait.. and.. it's only 2 weeks away.. wow.. time flies.. September already!

Gosh how I wish it was Friday...

Maybe tonite I will go to the gym... we'll see..

My sister made an appointment for me to get my hair colored, high and low lights, and a cut.. in September.. I think i want to do a more vibrant red.. but not sure.. i'm excited.. I haven't had my hair highlighted in a LONG time.. since Savannah...

I'm going to make this one short... I don't feel like saying much today.. just kinda adjusting to the new energy in the space..

OOH... ok... during the party.. the back door was opened a bit.. and ALL these flies got into the house.. and they haven't left yet.. and it is annoying me!!!! I try to shoo them out every morning.. but there's more.. ugh.. this is frustrating!!

ok anyway.. have a great day peeps.
onward and upward.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 8.16.05

twinkle twinkle my little stars...

how i wonder... what your up to? obviously I feel a bit better today... thankfully. I'm still quite pooped.. haven't caught up on rest... still feel like i'm going going going... Today Angela Foster becomes my roommate.. she'll be here around 5ish..after her orientation.. I have everything out of the spare room for her to lay down her stuff.. I still get really good vibes from her.. i hope this works out.. I'm a little nervous.. I haven't had a roommate since 2000 and I've enjoyed every minute of it... I will have to adapt to having someone around.. good thing is she works from 2-10pm.. so we're on opposite schedules..

let's see.. what else is going on?

i have NO plans this weekend besides getting a desparately needed pedicure and eyebrow waxing.. spend some time tilling the ground (maybe) so I can plant lilac bush in the backyard..and some more pretty flowers on the sides of the house.. and DEFINATELY... without a doubt.. make at LEAST 10 cards this weekend.. at LEAST.. I'd love to make 20..

3 things that make me happy:
- Fixing the Wireless router this morning so I can write to you all.
- Early mornings.. when the world is still.. it FEELS differently.. softer.. I love it!!!
- Knowing I have NO plans this weekend!!!

2 things I look forward to today:
- Hopefully, a light day of work today.. nothing too crazy.
- Going thru the things/boxes of stuff that were in my spare room and throwing away/giving away LOTS of stuff I do not need. Practicing giving away everything..

2 long term things I look forward to:
- Hopefully scheduling with Kristine's (sister) hair dresser a time to change my hair color (different color red maybe???maybe dark brown???) highlights,lowlights and a cut (nothing drastic.. don't worry Matthew.. I won't cut it short.. yet)
- I look forward to my life.. as I know it.. being different.. than today.. once I get into the flow with my cards.. and back into exercise... maybe (fingers crossed) traveling to Rosslyn every day to be at the Art Institute.
- Seeing the movie In the Realms of the Unreal - about a great artist!!! Want to rent it soon!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
- Whoever it is that restocks the shelves at the grocery store... so I always have what I desire right there.. in front of me.

side note: I am a little dissapointed in myself... I know this life is about free will... choices.. and facing our fears... I try to bring awareness to that fact every day.. but I get dissapointed when a situation arises and I behave as though I do not know what the REAL situation going on is... like yesterday's sadness and frustration with the weekend.. status quo of things... it's there to test me.. to test my faith.. and sometimes I let my awareness fade into the abyss... thankfully I can kick start is when I power down my thoughts.. and get myself to a place of peace.. I'm working on it diligently..

ok my little chicks... i wish you a fuzzy bunny slipper day..
onward and upward.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 8.15.05

Hey all..

I wrote a LONG posting this morning ... and then my computer crashed.. now I have to get ready for work.. and I"m a little agitated by this occurrance.. trying to breathe thru it because I'm really tired.. a little dissapointed at myself for having expectations that, as I KNOW better.... I guess I still have a lot more to go, didn't go as I expected with respect to the party and the weekend in general... also being frustrated with not hearing from the Art Institute yet... i was doing SOOO well.. then bam.. this meloncholy feeling hit me midway thru the party.... hasn't subsided yet... I pray it does because I do not enjoy feeling angry, and frustrated as I do right now.. sigh... it'll be ok.. i just gotta breathe thru this.. get back to my place of peace....

So.. when I have time.. might not hear from me till tomorrow.. we'll see...

onward and upward.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
kerilyn

High/Low 8.12.05

Hey there flower pedals...

So it's friday! Yea! Today it's supposed to be close to 100 degrees today! ICK! and tomorrow (party day) they say 30% chance or thunderstorms and high of 95.. double ICK! I'll just have to do a rain dance to keep it away during the party...

LOTS to do today still... Today I have to go out to Ashburn (Where my parents live) for a customer.. so I'm going to surprise my mom this afternoon with a visit.. then I have to come home and mow the lawn and get a few last minute food items AND make potato salad (I didn't get to it last nite.. lazy) i know what your thinking...exciting for a friday nite. Tomorrow will be a flurry of setting up outside.. putting up lights.. and getting everything ready.. I'd like to get a run in there sometime between today and tomorrow too.. we'll see how that goes... what will be will be..

Rare.. I don't have much to say today.. i have a lot of running around to do.. so I have to maintain focused... Sunday I'm volunteering at National Building Museum from 12-4 so I have a jam packed weekend.. but i'm looking forward to seeing everyone.. and taking some good pics.. i have to find a really cute shirt to wear.. Pictures will be posted sometime so you can see pics..

3 things that make me happy:
- A new issue of Real Simple magazine! Cup of coffee and turning the pages!
-Wearing sparkly purple earrings
- Watching Veronica Mars that I Tivo every week. Great Show!!!

2 things I look forward to today:
- Driving out to the furniture warehouse this morning; saying hi to the guys who maintain the deliveries/storage.
- Leaving work at 2:30 ish KNOWING I do not have to go back to the office!!!

2 long term things I look forward to:
- Seeing all my friends on Saturday.. and catching up with them and taking great pics of them!
- Hendrick's Banana Pudding he's bringing to the party!!!

1 person I am going to appreciate:
- I want to appreciate every single person who has helped me become who I am today.. in good times and bad.. for I am really proud to be the person I am.. even the not so fun sides of me..

hey that's what ancora imparo's all about.. learning more and more every day.
onward and upward..
if your coming to the party on Saturday.. can't wait to see ya! If not.. i hope you have a GREAT weekend!
kerilyn

High/Low 8.11.05

Hey there silly sunflowers!

What's shakin? I'm in SUCH a great mood this morning! It brings me such joy to know that lately... i would say ever since my mothers surgery.. I've had many more days of happiness than of blah-ness.. that makes me SO happy I can't even begin!!! Of course the blah days will come.. but then they will go and I will have another good day!

Yesterday, unfortunately was an ugh day.. I felt on the brink of tears all day.. frustrated and overwhelmed with everything that's going on.. Work busy... haven't heard from Art Institute, suspended phone line I don't like but I'm trying to go a week without it to see for sure, party stuff to do, copious cards.. but...

that was yesterday.. I've broke all those frustrations down.. into manageable bits in my head.. and I KNOW I can accomplish them all!

Today after work I would like to go to the gym.. but more importantly.. I need to go grocery shopping for party.. and.. I need to make the potato salad for Saturday tonite.. (it tastes better if it sits a day) I'm really excited about the party!

Got message from Angela (new roomie) I"m psyched about her coming! She left a message about bringing her plants! I am an avid green thumber myself.. so of COURSE I love to hear I'll have a fellow green girl living with me! Maybe she'll be interested in helping me put a little pond in the back yard this fall....

ooh.. yesterday after work.. I went over to Peters.. we watched a GREAT movie...The Butterfly Effect with Ashton Kutcher.. now granted.. Ashton is cute to look at.. but this movie was REALLY good (k, you gotta see this movie) wow.. I was hooked the whole time.. and I think his acting was great! wow... everyone.. go see it!!!!

I'm really psyched!! My sister Kristine called me yesterday.. she talked to my AWESOME Uncle Ben and Kristine and I are going up to NYC for the weekend in October!!! It brings me SOO much happiness to hear that Kristine wants to go up to NYC.. wow, i'm so glad she wants to go!!! Hopefully we'll see our cousins (we haven't seen them in SOO long- years!) and their children!! yea! (No Lebanese food Uncle Ben!! ha ha ha!!)

3 things that make me happy:
- Being in this awesome mood right now!!!
- Seeing things changing right before my eyes.. in SO many areas of my life!
- Dancing and Singing to a really great song in my car!!!

2 things I look forward to today:
- Getting on top of all my work today!
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2 long term things I look forward to:
- Going to seeWayne Dyer with Naomi on August 28th!!! YEA!
- Going to see Dead Can Dance with Kyra at Radio City Music Hall in NYC on October 8th!! (yes K.. we're still going)

1 person I'm going to appreciate today:
- Peter.. he's been working SOO hard lately (last week was Restaurant Week, and also one of the sous chefs left TenPenh) and he had his 3rd round of Root Canal done yesterday.. on his only day off.. ugh.. poor baby.

k.. gotta get ready for the day.. keep smiling!
onward and upward.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 8.10.05

Hey ya everyone...

what's up? Wednesday already... thankfully we got some rain yesterday to save the grass and plants from totally drying out.. we need some more rain...

So Angela Foster will become my roommate!!!! As of next Tuesday when she drives down/over from Ann Arbor, Michigan... she will become a part of my awesome home.... I get really good vibes from her.. and I think we will get along just fine..If your wondering why I'm doing this.. it's because I want to have a financial bumper in savings.. so I can do things without fretting over where the money will come from... I do not have credit card debt.. so that's good.. but I would like to have that extra bit.. saving for a car.. or a trip somewhere fun.. (to see my friends everywhere else) I'm really kinda excited for her arrival.. I know it will be an adjustment.. for me and for Pez.. but I think it'll work out just fine! She is starting a job as a pastry chef at the Ritz Carlton.. and she will be working from 2-10:30pm.. so we'll be on opposite schedules.. which might work out really nicely.. whoa.. rambling... anyway.. so yea..

Had a good day yesterday.. got back from job site around 4:30... and quickly jetted over to the gym to run.. I still can't figure out why my I get SO hot after a mile.. which tires me out quicker.. Had a reading last nite.. went well.. extra money for the party this weekend.

Gotta lot to do before the party.. starting today I will begin getting ready for the party.. lots and lots to do.. but it'll work out just fine!!! What is meant to be..will be.. no worries...

Oh yea... NOTE NOTE NOTE: If you try to call my land line phone.. you will notice that it's temporarily disconnected.. I have been throwing around the thought of disconnecting my land line.. because I have wireless.. to save money... So I talked to the phone company.. they suspended my service for a week... so I can see if I like just using my cell phone... I don't like it so far, very very weak reception in the house.. So.. if you need to get a hold of me.. CALL MY CELL... I have a feeling that as of next Thursday when I talk to the phone company again... I'll get my land line back.. I just feel better having it.. So yea.. if you need me.. call my cell.. if you dont' know what the number is.. and you want to talk to me.. email me.. and we'll chat (am NOT giving it out here)

Anyway folksies... I hope your having a good week... I am having a good week.. yesterday I had one of those days.. when everything seemed to fit RIGHT into place.. I felt solid.. snug like a bug in a rug.. weird visual there.. Ever have those days when everything seems JUST RIGHT! Like goldilocks! :)

Naomi is off to California for business... will be back Friday nite.. It's weird.. she lives next door and if I don't catch up with her for a day or two.. it feels like forever...

3 things that make me happy:
- drinking really cold water with lemon in a cup with a straw
- Newspaper articles about the local hot spots where Reggae is the music of choice (I LOVE Reggae music!!!)
- White T-Shirts

2 things I look forward to today:
- Beginning to get things ready for the party this evening.. which will make me feel like I'm accomplishing something.
- Having hope that i could have another really good day!

2 long term things i look forward to:
- Planting a lilac bush in the back yard and smelling the beautiful flowers int he spring!
- Buying my first car (I still want an almost new VW Passat)

1 person I am going to appreciate:
- Kristine, my sister - she's grown so much in the past few years.. and I'm SO proud of her!!!

Anyway.. i'm off.. into another day..
onward and upward!
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 8.9.05

Howdy folks...

What's going on? Tuesday already... it's a dark and overcast day here.. I don't remember the last time it's been dark like this at 7:30 in the morning.. I actually like it like this from time to time.. things are quieter.. softer.. and slower in this kinda light.. I keep the lights off.. and it's a soothing feeling.. unfortunately it makes me want to go back to bed...

Yesterday I successfully accomplished MORE than what I originally set out to do... I had to go to a job site about 60 miles away (nice drive though.. drove in silence.. thinking) and I came back to the area a bit earlier than quitting time.. i had enough time to make it to the gym.. so I did.. ran 2 miles.. felt good.. then I met Angela Foster.. very nice.. I hope she decides to be my roomie.. i think it'd be cool.. I'll find out today or tomorrow.. I hope she does.. but was cutting it real close to making it to the focus group on time.. but I did.. by the hair of my chinny chin chin... focus group about internet use.. got out around 9:20. (eww) but made $100 bucks.

The gym gives out this smoothie card.. buy 10 smoothies get one free.. well... yesterday I cashed in my free smoothie!!!! I was SO happy!!! You want to see a happy Kerilyn.. you should be there when I'm driving home.. with my awesome smoothie..after running.. euphoria i tell ya... :)

Today I go BACK out to the job site 60 miles away (it's fine.. I'm getting expensed for the mileage) then I have a private reading tonite at 7, which is good cause it's extra money... and my guides are ready for it!!! Spirit power!!! :) lol.. no gym tonite (unless I can get back here early like yesterday)

Still no word from the Art Institute of Washington... but I have hope.. She said she won't make a decision for 2 weeks.. so that's next week... I still have hope!!!

3 things that make me happy:
- Articles in the newspaper about local Reggae club hot spots..
- Peanut M&M's
- Getting to the job site yesterday and seeing that the installation was ahead of schedule.. and NO issues!!!

2 things I look forward to today:
- Making extra money WHILE helping someone else.
- Daydreaming/thinking while driving out to the job site

2 long term things I look forward to:

- Having everything set up for the party.. white lights in the trees.. tiki torches... food and drink set up.. and taking a deep breath in.. AHHH.... so I can enjoy the party (and take great pics!)
- Sunday evening.. after the party.. after volunteering.. when I can just CHILL and relax..

1 person I am going to appreciate:
- Peter Jennings - I was SHOCKED to hear that he died!! He was a good reporter/anchorman and I know he will be missed. He seemed like such a gentle soul... onward and upward Peter!

Anyway peeps... i hope you all have a great day.. whatever you do...
onward and upward!
ancora imparo " I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 8.8.05

Hey everybody!!

What's goin on? How was your weekend? Mine was really short.. but nice... I feel a little flustered this morning.. lots going on in this head of mine.. I feel all over the place this weekend.. my meditation wasn't very deep or focused today... I have a lot to do in the next few weeks.. a few unknowns out there (the job at the Art Institute of Washington, possible roommate, making enough cards for Art on the Avenue), money and my fear of not having enough... at the same time.. I DESIRE to find time to run.. at LEAST 2 times a week.. 3 times would be better..

wow.. difficult to write this morning.... so bear with me while I flitter all over the place...

Right now.. I'm listening to Sarah Harmer .. I've had this CD since Christmas.. but haven't really gotten into her.. till the past few weeks.. She's really chill.. I like her!

Ok.. so I haven't done any cards this weekend... Why? I don't know.. it really purplexes me.. I HAVE to get on it.. I have been thinking about it.. If I have 300 cards for Art on the Avenue and sell them for $5.00 a card.. that's $1500 bucks!! I KNOW I can do this!!! I just have to sit my butt down... put on some cool music.. and get going... ugh.. I am frustrated at myself today.

Naomi and I are having our Midsummer Party this weekend.. Saturday.. I feel like the house is clean enough for people coming over.. I need to go grocery shopping this week.. need to make potato salad.. and buy corn...get hot dogs and hamburgers (see.. random today) It's not AT ALL my feeling like i can't get it all done.. it's the money that bugs me..

I've decided that starting TODAY.. I am going HARD CORE again on the no grain.. NO more cheating.. no more cheating!!!

Yesterday I went to see my mom.. she wasn't having a good day.. tummy upset... had a moment with my father... (topic for another day) and then I spent the afternoon with my sister and her AWESOME roommates, Jason and Hendrick. We went to dinner.. then sat around... looking at newspaper.. drinking coffee.. and started watching the movie 'Alexander (whoa.. REALLY slow) good day yesterday, minus the dad issue.

I got a very surprising phone call from (wow.. this is difficult to explain today) Michelle... my best friend of 7 years who.. last November (16th to be exact) we went our separate ways... well I was outside with Naomi's sister and brother in law yesterday.. they are AWESOME..they were pulling all the weeds (I can't even say they were helping me.. they were doing it FOR ME!) .. cutting down the monsters in the back yard (SO grateful!!!) (something else i have to do this week.. tidy up outside.. While outside.. I heard the phone... but thought eh.. came in.. to hear her message.. I was a bit, and still am; surprised... and stumped as to what to do... I have faith that whatever is to happen.. will.. so I choose to not overthink this..

Tonite I 1. meet Angela Foster.. she could be my new roommate.. out of everyone i have talked to.. I get the BEST feeling from her.. she's 28... she's moving here from Michigan I think.. to be a pastry chef at the Ritz Carlton in Tysons Corner.. into healthy eating.. I'm going to meet her tonite at 6... then i have to scoot outta here.. because at 7:30 I have a Focus Group...

OK.. in an attempt to get OUT of my angst for the moment... I really desire to do this today:

3 things that make me happy:

- The fact that my nails are growing.. FINALLY.. after all the abuse they've gone thru back in January...
- My boss isn't going to be in the office today
- I bought 2 AWESOME sweaters at Target this weekend, for ten bucks each, Awesome little "kerilyn-esque" embellishments on them.. sparkles.. and flowers.. LOVE!!! I also got this cute handbag for 10 bucks too.. (I went to this global Bazaar on Saturday.. wasn't all it was cracked up to be)

2 things I look forward to today:

- Meeting Angela Foster.. and finding out that she is as cool as I have been predicting.. and we talk about when she can move in.. oh yea.. and that Pez likes her too..
- wearing my new sweater.. and using my new bag...

2 long term things I look forward to:

- Eating Kyoto's in Savannah. (The BEST Japanese steakhouse I've EVER been to!!!!)
- Breathing thru this anxiety today.. and getting to more calmer waters in my head.. and my heart..

1 person I am going to appreciate today:

- Michelle.... it took bravery to call me yesterday.. and for what it's worth.. I give her props for doing it...

Ok.. i'm going to take my frazzled- ness self and get ready for work.. wish you a day of calm waters.. (oh wait.. i wish that for me, right now!!)
onward and upward.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

My Uncle Ben!!!!!

Thank you Uncle Ben....I had a great day today (Sunday 8/7/05) and your voice mail MADE MY DAY!!! Thank you for reading my high/lows.... and making me feel SOOO special!!! And trust me.. you would LOVE Lebanese food!!! Tiamo Zio Ben!!!!

High/Low 8.5.05

YO YO YO!!!!

what's shakin hot stuffs? It's Friday and AMEN to that!!! Feel like doing a dance for that fact! Still hot and muggy out.. but not unbearable in my opinion.. I hope it's not too muggy tomorrow.. for you will find me outside cutting down weeds... weed wacking.. and tilling the ground to make way for fall plants!!! Sad part is I should be wearing long sleeves and long pants.. so I don't get bit.. but sigh.. it's hot!!!

Ok.. lot happened yesterday relatively.. here it goes.

I got concerned about my arm sensations and stiff neck.. so i paid a visit to my doc... she said i could've pulled a nerve from lifting weights and/or it could be tendonitis. I would rather believe the first option. She gave me some anti-inflammatory meds.. we'll see.. my arm still feels weird a little... neck feels better...

This AWESOME artist Johanna Wright sent me a postcard today.. saying that she is interested in Kyra and my idea for a website dedicated to women artists! ROCKIN!!! I LOVE getting mail!! Especially from creative women.. who are REALLY talented!! (thanks K... for telling me how to do the hyperlink inserts)

I grilled a whole bunch of hot dogs for Naomi and I for dinner last nite.. There's something SOO summer about a grilled hot dog.. especially if it's a bit charred... love em burnt a bit! Pass on the bun thank you!

And finally.. I worked on my new card.. check it out.. it's my previous posting called "I would be lying" card.. please let me know what you think!

I think starting the weekend after next (Naomi and my party) I am NOT going to make ANY plans and EVERY waking moment of each weekend (except Labor Day weekend cause Naomi and I are going to Savannah!! YEA!!) I am going to be pluggin away at cards! Countdown to Art on the Avenue!! I'm SOOO psyched and proud of Kyra and I for making this brave move.. getting our art out there.. :) yea!

anyway my feathers... I wish I had time for 3 things 2 things... maybe when I get to work i'll edit this posting and do it... but for now.. have a great weekend.. and I hope you'll let me know what you think of my card..

onward and upward...
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

Here is my "I would by lying" Benchmark Card

Tell me what you think..

we all go thru tough times..times when we think noone understands..
truth is.. they probably don't..
I know that when i'm feeling down..
I feel alone..
I figure this card would relate to those..
no matter what situation it is..

High/Low 8.4.05

Hiety ho my lovelies....

How art thou? Thursday upon us.. woo hoo!!! Sigh.. tomorrow.. Friday... so nice..busy weekend ahead of me.. getting outside ready for party next weekend (13th) have lots of laundry to do..and my clothes are strewn all over my room.. wow.. like a fashion tornado came whipping.."no.. no.. no.. eh... it'll do... absoLUTELY not!.... BINGO!!!"

I woke up with a silly crook in my neck.. ugh.. 2nd time this year.. weird.. what is it I don't want to see I wonder??? Hard to relax when you don't have free range of motion. I also have this strange sensation going up and down my arm.. into my hand.. it's weird..my body has unfortunately experienced sciatica in the past.. http://http://www.spine-health.com/topics/cd/d_sciatica/sc01.html and it's the same feeling in my arm.. weird!

So I posted another ad for a roommate.. after the windows were put in.. i decided to change around the spare room layout a bit.. it feels SO much better.... energy so inviting (wait.. i think i already told ya'll that) and i think it's the reason why i was swamped with responses yesterday.. i have someone coming by tonite... at 8 after the gym.. and one Saturday (might postpone) and then 2 on Monday! whoa... we'll see.. i'll keep you updated...

Last nite Peter and I had Lebanese for dinner.. SOOO yummy!!! whoa.. great meal! Peter isn't as into Lebanese but he was nice and agreed to go anyway.. so good.. I was so full!

I made another greeting card.. showed a few people at work the rough draft.. they liked it.. needed to tweek words a bit.. so today I'm going to copy the cards.. and I'll make one tonite.. and show you tomorrow.. I think you'll like it..

3 things that make me happy:
- Getting really great responses from my rough draft card!!!
- Getting the new IKEA catalog in the mail

2 things I look forward to today:
- Printing the cards... and making one to show ya'll tomorrow!!
- shutting out the light and going to bed early tonite.. (I'm tired today)

2 long term things I look forward to:
- finding a roommate that is cool.. artistically inclined... clean ( a plus), someone whom Pez takes a liking too, and someone who could possibly be a good friend.
- Sitting back after some hard weeding.. and really enjoying the look of the backyard.

1 person I am going to appreciate:
- Lisa... my first high/low recipient (it was with her that we came up with the idea) She wrote in her hi/lo that she's frantic about her party.. I completely understand those feelings.. I hear ya Lisa!!!

k... have a great day ya'll.
onward and upward.
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 8.3.05

hey there my georgeous butterflies...

what's shakin? How are you? It's Wednesday.. still amazing how fast the days go by... well the heat is back... oh well.. I can tell a difference with the new windows already.. how AWESOME is that!! The house seems to keep the air in more..

Great mood today!!! yea! Yesterday's wish of an easy run was not fulfilled.. whew.. it was more challenging than monday.. but I did it! 4 miles down.. 2 more to go for the week! i know that if I keep this up (and continue the no-grain diet.. sans pho) I will lose the weight..and become more toned.. i can already tell it's working.. but not yet in the areas that need it most..

Art on the Avenue!! Art on the Avenue!!!! www.artontheavenue.org It's coming.. October 1st is coming!!! I am determined to become a card making machine.. working until all hours of the day and night until I have 300 cards to bring to Art on the Avenue!!! (ok.. maybe not ALL hours of the day and night) but it's getting significantly closer to Art day!!! Kyra and I were chatting yesterday about how we're going to set up our booth.. yea!! I wish for it to be a georgeous day that day! To all of you in the DC area.. I hope you can come to see our booth.. we're coming up with a name for our booth.. maybe i'll throw it out there tomorrow and see what you think..

I called the woman from the Art Institute of Washington last nite.. she sounded happy to hear from me but she said that it's going to be another 2 weeks before she gets all the rest of the interviews done.. but I hung up feeling hopeful... oh man.. fingers crossed!!! I won't contact her for another 2 weeks.. dont' want to be a pest.

Feel really good in the house... I moved the furniture around in the spare room.. and hung the pieces of art that have been staged on the floor all these months.. the whole room feels different to me.. yea!!! Maybe I had to do this.. and now i will find a roomie...

ok.. here we go for today

3 things that make me happy:
- almost every morning.. about 5 minutes before my alarm goes off.. Pez jumps on the bed.. and meows at me to wake up.. she paws at me.. and then.. after I acknowledge her.. she lays next to me (which makes it more difficult to actually get up)
- getting a pedicure and when i'm done..putting on a great pair of shoes that shows of my freshly painted toesies.
- getting mail... like actual cards with hand writing on it.

2 things I look forward to today:
- the fact that my boss is not in the office for most or all of the day.. I always enjoy those days a bit more than most for some reason.
- more chit chat with kyra about our booth at Art on the Avenue.

2 long term things I look forward to:
- I am determined to save enough money so I can get my hair colored and highlighted.. and a new cut... (still want to go shorter)
- sending my digital camera back to get inspected and repaired.. and then.. getting it back to I can resume my daily routine of taking pictures.. and submitting for photo friday www.photofriday.com

1 person I am going to appreciate:
- today.. is Kyra.. she has GREAT ideas.. and is SOOO creative!!! She has been my great girlfriend ever since Senior year in High School (in physics class)! She's going to be BIG in the art world one day.. I know it!!!! www.whykyra.com

Ok ya'll.. have a great day!! OH yea... for you all interested in knowing how to do focus groups.. Google it.. 'Focus Groups in _______" or "Marketing Research in ______" i'm sure you'll have to make a few phone calls to see how to get put into their database.. but I"m sure there are companies like the one here.. everywhere..

onward and upward
ancora imparo " I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn

High/Low 8.2.05

Mornin butterflies!

What's shakin... I am amazed how fast life goes... it's more than 1/2 way thru my 30th year... so far.. not too bad.. some new thoughts.. changing some old thoughts..increased awareness to when I am trying to fool myself.. not too bad...

Had a groovalicious day yesterday.. went by quickly... work kept me busy.. had lunch with Matthew.. or M.A.T.T. as yesterdays comment suggests.. cute.. went to the gym and ran 2 miles after not going to the gym at all last week.. wow.. i felt great! strong and steady 2 miles.. then arm workout.. and then... yum.. I got a smoothie!!! SOOO good!!!

Something I've noticed recently... my circle of friends has gotten a bit smaller.. I used to be doing this.. with this friend..and that with that friend.. now it's not so much like that.. It's interesting to me.. when I notice it.. Naomi and I still talk every day.. and I talk to my girl Kyra every day (via email) but I don't have a need to keep track of everything in my dayplanner.. I've also become a smidge more spontaneous (yea.. i said a smidge..let's not go crazy here.) I don't feel either happy or sad about my relatively shrinking circle of friends.. I think the circle that I have now.. is a reflection of where I am inside.. I think I'm gradually accepting that things aren't always what I've expected them to be.. and that's ok.. if I accept them.. they usually turn out even better.

My sorta friend at work, she's 28.. and going thru some stuff.. Wow.. it was amazing to hear her talk about the things that I used to be conflicted with.. It's kinda like in our late 20's.. we have that conversation with the young us.. trying to remain young... with the older us.. yearning for us to stop thrashing about so much.. It was really interesting to me to see her going thru the same thoughts I used to have just a few years ago.. NOTE: It's not that I turn 30 and I suddenly stop my own inner frustrations.. heck no.. but it's different a bit now.. than just a few years ago..

Ok.. I like doing this.. it keeps me focused away from the not so important relatively:

3 things that make me happy:
- driving home after working out.. with the windows down.. a good song on.. i'm dancing and singing.. and even better if I have a smoothie in my hand!
- that moment when I shut out the light.. and turn onto my side in my bed.. there's a sigh of release my body and mind does that comes nanoseconds before I fall asleep.. it's like saying "I let go"
- Daydreaming of daydresses and mango tea... remembering my walk down to Mancini's on a Saturday morning for breakfast and coffee.. reading the paper or a good magazine..feeling like I'm not supposed to be anywhere else..

2 things I look forward to today:
- Eating Pho with Jonathan for lunch (Vietnamese Soup)
- The possibility that tonite's run MIGHT be as painfree as yesterdays!

2 long term things i am looking forward to:
- Next Monday, I have a focus group, to discuss internet use - one hour for $100.00 cash!
- Going thru all my old bills, magazines, etc.. paper products and shredding..

1 person I am going to appreciate:
- myself - I am really proud of me today.. feel really relaxed.. feel like I'm going with the flow a lot more.. accepting that I don't know what's going to happen.. and to relax into it a bit more.. that it's not always bad. yes.. I think today.. I appreciate myself.

Ok.. have a great day my tulips!
onward and upward
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin
Kerilyn
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High/Low 8.1.05

Mornin' Mornin' Mornin'!!!

How are ya this Monday mornin? Good weekend? It hasn't been as humid in this area.. so the evenings have been quite nice.. thankfully butI hear that it's going back up to the stifling temperatures by Wednesday... eww.

The lower humidity made for a lovely time on Friday nite.. outdoor film festival where Naomi and I saw shrek... and no rain too!!! It was a funny movie (I've never seen) and nice to be outside..

Saturday was my event at Chapel.. so I wasn't going to be around when the window installers came.. my event went well.. felt good... Thanks Bertha, Little Star, Dr. Issac, Green Turtle, Red Oak, Nicodemus and everyone else.. When I came home from Chapel.. the new windows were put in already!!! Wow.. that was quick!! It took them a few more hours to secure and caulk them.. all the whiles Pez is safely in the basement.. when all was said and done.. the windows look absolutely AMAZING!!! wow.. what a difference.. the house feels somewhat more put together... feels more complete for some reason.. i love it!!! They forgot to order a frosted tempered glass for the window in the shower.. so I have to get frosted contact paper and put on the window until the replacement window comes in. (I tried going to Home Depot last nite.. but they were closed, Sunday.. so I took a shower this morning with the lights off.. so noone could see me.. lol) Saturday nite, went to Naomi's comedy gig.. she was GREAT!!! MUCH more relaxed!!! So nice to hear... the headliner, on the other hand.. whoa.. this big, 6'5", mid-50's ANGRY clown/comic.. clown outfit and makeup on his face... it was intimidating.. but i think he liked it that way.. very vulgar.. i was actually mesmerized by his self centered ness.. and his anger... which is fear.. it was like an experience into fear.. and how it can make someone miserable.. if it TOTALLY took over someone's life.. Now.. I know that he's putting on a front.. to be on stage.. but I wonder how much his every day life reflects his act... whoa..

Sunday was cleaning..dusting... organizing.. little bit of dancing.. Naomi and I went to breakfast.. and then went to go see "Must love dogs'... eh.. I liked the movie.. but the story line wasn't strong enough.. it was kinda all over the place.. but Diane Lane is SO Classy.. so Beautiful!!! and John Cusack.. well.. he's a classic too.. in a real way. Then one of my best friends, Matthew arrived.. driving thru town on his way out of town... and we went to eat.. yummy sweet potato fries at Luna Grill...and Mango Ice Tea! Yum! Went to DC to pick up piece of jewelry that my friend Steph fixed for a co-worker.. then came home.. I was pooped!!! Still am..

Still haven't heard from the Art Institute yet..but I am praying/meditating on it.. and I have faith that what is supposed to happen.. will.. So no worries!

I guess my only contemplative thoughts this weekend that I will share.. is that I've been thinking that I need to go out and have more fun.. doing things that make me happy, yes.. but just trying to work on having a bigger social life.. My life has changed a bit.. with respect to my circle of friends..I'm not upset by it.. feel content actually..but innately I am a social person.. and I have been thinking that there is so much to do in this area.. that I wish to be more active.. take more pictures.. I don't think I'll ever be one to go out every nite on the weekends.. go clubbing and get sloshed.. but just to be more active.. we'll see..

I have a LOT to do in order to prepare for the party on August 13th.. MOST of which involves weeding.. preparing the outside for my white lights and tiki torches.. this upcoming weekend, besides seeing my mom and dad on Sunday.. and possibly hanging out with my friend Joe.. I am homebound.. with weedwacker in hand!

ok.. in an attempt to make myself even happier today (I feel pretty good already)

3 things that make me happy: (grr.. formatting messed up.. oh well)

1. going to bed knowing that the house is clean.. feeling like everything is in place
2. when you have one expectation of something.. and it turns out to be much better than you expected it to be!
3. sitting with the thought that I'm getting older.. and the fact that I can see my wisdom from past experiences.. makes me stop and think about the roads I've travelled (beliefs I've had and changed over the years) that have brought me to today.

2 things I'm looking forward to today:

- Coming home tonite.. to my beautiful home.
- the possiblity of hearing from the Art Institute

2 long term things I am looking forward to:
- Cleaning my closets of the months of dissarray and strewn clothes..
- The first day of fall where it's chilly.. and you wake up on the weekend and feel that crispness in the air. First day of sweaters.

1 person I am going to appreciate:
Matthew - we have been friends a LONG time.. been thru a lot.. and he's still around.. and we're still learning about each other.. and the capacity to look back and see how far we've come.. and how many possibilties lie before us still..

k.. gotta run.. gotta get ready for the day, make smoothie, etc...
onward and upward
kerilyn
ancora imparo "I am still learning" in Latin